do you have a suicide scenario and defense?

[Deleted]

Is there a condition.where you would suicide out?

Has it gone so far as to knowing how you would do it?

Have you looked at alternatives?

Do you have a plan to handle a personal crisis?

Me....yes to all.  Thank you Patty and Julie for the willingness to physically intervene in that scenario.

By the way, my suicidality has dropped tremendously.  I am out of that danger and I think I could survive the worst case scenario now.

Who is in trouble, who needs help, who has the contact numbers in case a silent watcher needs them.

Make a difference.

[Laura J]

Yes..

I'm afraid I'm not very good at listening to my own advice when it comes to this subject..

I have my final exit planned out..

There's no telling when or if I'll reach that point.?

I'm not saying more.. I won't allow anyone to intervene..

[Kira]

Yes I know I will be doing it, I have the right bits and pieces, it will be painless and irreversible and it will most probably be the way I go. I don't intend on doing it for a good few years, but I like having options :-P

[Deleted]

There is an old saying or two. For the alcoholic, don't drink before the miracle comes.

A wino from a cardboard box told me the secret of life was outlasting the bullshit.

Always better to wait another day, call someone, say something. Life is unpredictable, suiciding out is not the besttway, joy could be around the corner.

I will do whatever is needed to choose to live, but if disaster hits, I'll need the forum and my friends.

Stay alive, we need you.

[Deleted]

Enough pain killers to physically numb me then I'll cut my wrists, knowing and accepting that this is how I will end my life actually gives me a certain power over it.

[Laura J]

I maybe should re-clarify..?

First, I've had the best, happiest year of my life this past year.. So, I'm not going anywhere anytime soon..

Both my parents, all of my grandparents, aunts and relatives in my family all got Altziemers disease and died slow, painful, miserable deaths..

My point of decision in this is, when / if I also start getting this disease (hopefully I won't) I just want to die in a dignified manner, plain and simple..

Thats all I wanted to say...

Bless us all..

[Patty]

A beautiful life and loving ,caring family and friends are the best defense. Patty

[LivingTheDream]

Triggering....

Back in April of this year was the first time I ever really thought about it. Was basically embarrassed in front of class by the professor and that was enough to do it for me, push me to the edge. I thought about how I would do it, what I would say to people also. I ended up texting my boss, spent about an hour in the office at work, talking and crying about it. Guessed it helped, am still here...

Later on, looking back on the whole thing, I asked myself a question I couldn't and still can't answer; why hadn't I thought about doing it before?? That incident was just the thing that pushed me close to the edge, the core problems still remain; I'm was unhappy and currently am unhappy with my life. In many ways, I never grew up, I'm still a kid. Can't take care of myself. Can't and prolly never have been able to support myself financially either, still at the same min wage job I had when I was 18, now am part-time at that! Been living off my parents money for the last few years...I'm lonely as well, don't really have many friends, never been all that comfortable around others, so I'm by myself now the majority of the time. Phone never rings, people don't ask me to come around, or come by my place often, almost never get asked out anywhere, and even if I did, I have a hard time agreeing to go out cuz it costs money to do so and don't got much. When I do go somewhere to be with people, it is usually my brothers place, and we basically just watch tv or play with my nephew. So ya, I think the ingredients are all in place atm for it to happen...

I really feel this year is a make it or break it year for me. I can already see a few potential triggers upcoming this year...Really soon am gonna have to go get all my teeth pulled. Trying to wait until Feb to do so, but if I get really bad pain before so may have to do sooner..So am gonna add pain to the mix, gonna add to my loneliness for a bit too because there is no way in hell I will let anyone see me that way, so gonna be locked up at my place until get replacements. After that, am gonna see myself in the mirror with no teeth, have the shame and embarrassment and all that other good stuff looking back at me...already depressing me thinking bout it . Already hate my appearance so ya, definitely not gonna help. Then am gonna have to get used to dentures, yippy, I don't know if that's gonna happen, I mean, I couldn't even stand wearing my retainer in my mouth after had my teeth straightened with braces so I didn't, so ya, how the hell am I gonna do that?!? Lastly, being seen by others who know me afterwards with teeth, knowing are fake, is a big thing to me as well..

There's money issues as well. I am not sure how much the above will cost me yet, I don't know how long my savings will last me. It goes down every month, been that way for years now, I suppose it could run dry this year perhaps. So ya, maybe will be homeless before year's end... My brother and perhaps a few others might offer to take me in but I highly doubt I would accept that, so guess could be staying in my truck, till can't afford gas or something. So ya, this would definitely cause me to end it all...

Not gonna go into much detail about this, I doubt I need to, but throw in the trans issue as well...having to deal with that, and I guess more importantly, other peoples bull shit about it, could cause it. I'm not a very strong person, being called out, mocked, insulted, embarrassed, etc, ya would prolly be bad, I mean, just look what happened last year with the professor..

So ya, I'd say the potential is definitely there...I am not sure how I would handle it this time. Last time reached out to my boss, this time could be different, depends on what happens, how I feel about it I guess. I'm not really spontaneous, so I would take time to analyze and plan and do pro and cons and such, slow things down and kinda take it in after a bit. But ya, if things got bad enough, and I make that decision, I doubt anything would stop me at that point.

[Deleted]

I had no idea so many are at risk. I guess it's good that we know.

[Anato]

I have suicidal thoughts that come and go, but I've never gotten to the point where I'd actually do it, thankfully. I have no plan since it's never been a serious threat yet.

[Deleted]

Yes, I have a plan. But it would take something really extreme to make me even consider it. A terminal illness would be one condition after I did everything that I wanted to do or had the capacity to do at least. But checking out because I don't like the room? Nah. I won't let society have the satisfaction.

[Deleted]

I wish I had not started this thread.

[Deleted]

Nope, it's not an option for me I view it as a chicken-shit act of selfishness, and if I did and found there was life after death and awoke in a very dark and lonely place than I alone would be responsible and have to take the consequences for erroneously assuming that I am the soul master of my own destiny and accountable to no one.This is just my opinion and not intended to be off-putting on anyone else, you asked and I responded. If you want to kill yourself it's your business and no one else's to make judgments about.

[Deleted]

And I would personally go to any lengths to avoid it, and to help others avoid it.

Bad judgement on my part to post this thread.

[Laura J]

Well........ My wife just started watching the whole series of re-runs of "Dallas", and by the time she gets to the 100th episode, I may be in need of that Suicide hotline number....??