Christianity thread - for those needing Christian support

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I just happened on this conversation and won't comment beyond on what Malachite's sister said about being able to change the outside but not the inside. I think that could be taken more on face value based on a comment Jesus made to the Pharisees who were making a big deal over the cleansing of the outside of their cups, when it was the inside that needed the attention. Later we come to the understanding that only God can change the inside via the workings of the Holy Spirit. Later on Paul wrestled with his own sinfulness, he had some closeted problem, he may have had something for Timothy (homosexual proclivities) or he may have been trans, we don't know, but we do know that even Paul was unable to change those internal problems he was wrestling with, God's voice cleaved through it all, "My Grace Is Sufficient!" In other words Paul, even thought you can't change yourself internally, what I've done through my beloved Son is sufficient for all the sins throughout your life from beginning to end, not only for you but for the entire world if only they would ask and open their hearts to me. Don't either of you lose sight of this, all the rest is unimportant!

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Interesting. Yes Shan, i agree.

I'm super stressed, unrelated issues. Prayer support would be great. Also, even though her dismissal papers were created, wife is still working, and has the union boss working it on her behalf.. I kinda blew the lid off the bullying and illegal Crap they they are doing to her.

They left her alone yesterday, we are waiting for cat scan results on her hernia.

Sheesh.

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Mar 18, 2015 1:33:09 GMT 8 Trinity said:

Interesting. Yes Shan, i agree.

I'm super stressed, unrelated issues. Prayer support would be great. Also, even though her dismissal papers were created, wife is still working, and has the union boss working it on her behalf.. I kinda blew the lid off the bullying and illegal Crap they they are doing to her.

They left her alone yesterday, we are waiting for cat scan results on her hernia.

Sheesh.

Hang in there, you have each other and the girls, it's going to pan out don't waste any energy worrying!

[Malachite]

Taking your advice, Trinity, and trying to recharge, but I shall give you a proper response soon. I was so stressed out because of my sister (partially for something else not related to this Tuesday, that it was hard for me to even force a smile on my face. I felt the life draining from my body, and went into a depression, to the point of contemplating suicide, and it has been a while that has happened, so I'm trying to minimize my thoughts of her from the time being so I can have a better control of myself.

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Mar 20, 2015 8:40:17 GMT 8 Malachite said:

Taking your advice, Trinity, and trying to recharge, but I shall give you a proper response soon. I was so stressed out because of my sister (partially for something else not related to this Tuesday, that it was hard for me to even force a smile on my face. I felt the life draining from my body, and went into a depression, to the point of contemplating suicide, and it has been a while that has happened, so I'm trying to minimize my thoughts of her from the time being so I can have a better control of myself.

Good thinking, some times we just have to steer clear of those toxic conversations with others and make every effort to switch channels on whatever noise is running on and on in our head and think of other things that are important to us. Don't hurt yourself Malachite!

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Mar 17, 2015 5:02:42 GMT 8 Malachite said:

Hi again! Sorry for the double post, but I just need some more encouragement for a different matter. I just got off the phone with my sister, who happens to be a pastor of the charasmatic church I attend. We were talking about spiritual things, based off of something I said the other day to a member in the church, stuff that really isn't importing to rehash at the moment, but there was one part where she brought up me being transgender (without her saying the actual term). She said something along the lines of "You can change everything on the outside, but you can't change the way your Creator made you on the inside." Basically, I'm pretty sure she was saying that no matter what I do, I will always be a female. I'm pretty sure that is what she was saying because she said something similar in 2012 when I officially came out to her. Actually, back then she told me that even if I got the surgeries, that wouldn't make me happy, and she was against it then. Anyways, since she brought the conversation up, I basically asked her if she wanted to "go there". She shyed away from it and started to bring the conversation back to the other spiritual things we were discussing, personally I believe because she is not ready to have that conversation from a practical standpoint (as in I will actually BE transitioning in the near future), but I sense that she feels that in her spirit. I just told her that I know who I am and God has confirmed me, but she really didn't even address it. As a backstory, I grew up with her as my spiritual leader, but when I actually made the decision for myself to be a Christian a couple of years ago, I find that some of my beliefs have differed from hers.

Although I am sure of myself that God has confirmed me as a man, I cannot help but to doubt because of my upbringing and going to her for spiritual guidance in the past, and even now. I have to constantly keep assuring myself that I can be transgender and Christian. I know I can, but the with all of the opposition from people like my sister and others who disagree, it can be mentally tiring to always have to reassure my identity.

We don't need to change the outside unless we really need to. She is totally right. You can't change who you are on the inside. You can't change your Soul or Spirit because that is THE "Divine Gift". Some people think the inside should match the outside but that is living life from external influences. Or living what is outward, influencing what is within. We should be letting what is inward, dictate what or who we are outside. Regardless of the genetals. You have to ask yourself this question: Why are people so tied to their genetalia instead of their Soul's and who they really may be? Believe me there are way more of us than what we think but they are fooled into thinking the outside dictates who they are within.

No who you are on the inside, who you feel that you are on much deeper levels than just a penis or vagina. You are who you are. Don't question it and this lady has no idea. She is living in a physical world. She defines herself by her vagina. Some define who they are by the penis they have. All these are organs of copulation. It may not seem like it so much Malachite and it hurts and it jurts everyday and the pain won't go away. Or for me it hasn't. But we are special because we don't define ourselves by our "organs of copulation". Oh it and everything else can feel good if you let it. But we, or specifically I don't define myself that way. I am who I am. I am who I was created to be. If I have to be a male or female according to the material existence and can't rise above that then I have failed in this life. Chance are "the lady" that talked to your sister is probably jealous of you kind of like I am envious of other MTFs that I think are gorgeous.

Be who you are. Be who you were created to be. Just be you and to hell with everyone else. You are You. This particular lady does not have to live your life. Even your sister don't have to live your life. You do. Live it to the fullest that you can and be who you are. You can follow Christ's teachings and be a transgender. Who even decided that being transgender was wrong anyway? I don't ever remember being transgender as being a sin. A man dressing as a woman to get out of war and not being a female inside, I think is pretty cowardly but if being a female inside is what you feel then you are female, if being a male inside is what you feel then you are a male. Joan De Arc was a physical female and a great warrior and led a lot of men into battle just like any other bad ass MFer would do. Just exactly who was Joan of Arc?

Disclaimer: Yeah I have a little different beliefs than some. I consider myself Gnostic, not Agnostic but actual Gnostic.

Don't let anyone tear you down Malachite. Don't ever let anyone make you feel small. We are all just on this crazy Merry-go-round called life. No one really knows. I don't know, the lady questioning your identity don't know. Your sister don't know. God knows though and you know. So be you. That is the Holiest Praise you can ever give to God. Be the you God Created. To me faking the physical identity is a sin. Oh if you really identify physically is fine but if it don't match then just be you. Remember God's Only Son was Persecuted and Crucified. Why should we not suffer persecution too? The Cross to me is symbolic that we shouldn't die for being who we truly are but we will still be persecuted. Everyone is for one reason or another.

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I got taken out by negativity, conservative distortion, bitterness...

Prayer support for me, the forum, focus on Jesus and off church and church politics would be welcome. It's time to storm heaven and reclaim our God.

Trinity

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I need prayer support, spiritual warfare.

It's relentless since I started posting here again.

As usual the enemy targets my wife, and me in other ways. Stress levels for her must drop. Trans is not an issue. Life is.

Trinity

[Laura J]

I am

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Please continue to pray.

I have to return to NYC. It's a place I really hate living. All that iilove doing, must be sacrificed now.


I told God he could have all of me, do anything with me.

I didn't see it coming.

It was good, but hard, here.

A lot of work for naught. The legacy of my life is a travesty.

Postpones retiring until 67, 68, poverty..


Driven out again.


I have no home...I never get to have a home. Just places to fix, and run away from.

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Foxglove dentist prayers in chair right now

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Im praying for my daughters baby to move out of breach and go head down. Big appt today.

Also for me my pain levels mentally have been too high.

Blessings. Thank you.

[Mingma]

Oct 22, 2015 18:04:02 GMT 8 Trinity said:

Im praying for my daughters baby to move out of breach and go head down. Big appt today.

Also for me my pain levels mentally have been too high.

Blessings. Thank you.

I said a prayer in my morning meditation.  I'll be thinking of you and your daughter today.

Namaste,
Ming

[Trinity]

Need prayer support, stress levels are at extreme levels at the job, just hid in the bathroom for 5 minutes trying to breathe.

Relying on faith to get through it.

Gender is a non issue in this. This is life. I have 2 daughters to support, plus myself, and am in debt from helping one of the kids.

Current bid is falling apart and I am too, but hanging in.

I know I was sent here. Whether I stay or not remains to be seen, but I just need to get through today.

Breathe...

Had to do this, had to take this job, there was no way out other than to do this....its a faith test as well as discipline test, I can't slip for even a moment

Blessings dear ones

Trinity

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I'm sorry to hear that; you are strong and I know you can get through it.

I'm thinking of you.