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Sh'e, H'er, they them, she, he, whatever....
Bisexual
Faithfully Married.
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Post by Trinity on Feb 18, 2022 8:49:43 GMT 8
Well it just feels ok lately, sometimes in womens underthings, others pretty comfy in nylon boxer shorts.
Today is a good one, stable.
Riders on the storm...
Did a little research on DES again, confirms it altered DNA but practically nothing out there on what it did to amab
I truly believe it altered key physical and nerve attributes, just makes so much sense to me.
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Faithfully Married.
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Post by Trinity on Feb 18, 2022 8:53:00 GMT 8
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Faithfully Married.
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Post by Trinity on Feb 18, 2022 9:04:17 GMT 8
disturbing, actually, but fantasy that one.
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Post by Trinity on Feb 18, 2022 10:54:10 GMT 8
so strange, I don't even feel trans tonight. Still need the hrt though, but its been pure core this evening.
Lot of revelations today, mostly related to DES, not that I found anything new, it just all fell into place and made total sense to me.
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trinity
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Faithfully Married.
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Post by Trinity on Feb 27, 2022 10:36:27 GMT 8
Hormone levels are up, went to a meeting full she androgyne, they liked the haircut, I like the freedom, just no spagetti tops
Increassingly feeling nb, normal, presentationally male and physically trans female.
Just feels very comfortable right now, dialed in.
Mind is doing better on the levels the body has been used to for so long. If it aint broke....
Had an interesting dream last night that I was walking on the swimming pool, it was frozen. Wound up walking on thin ice and went back to where the ice was thick again.
Very interesting dream.
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Post by Ativan Prescribed on Feb 27, 2022 10:46:45 GMT 8
If your pool was up here it would be two, three feet thick with ice.
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Faithfully Married.
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Post by Trinity on Mar 10, 2022 7:36:20 GMT 8
This detransition thing is going way better than I could have ever expected and I don't understand it.
Dysphoria is like, not there.
The HRT, well, feels ok, brain feels ok.
Stuff with the boobs and all that, well, sure, I have boobs and the full transition thing and that makes me feel comfortable. I also wouldn't mind more definition in my arms, they used to be like iron for decades.
Here is the thing. For my whole life, when I looked in my eyes, I saw she. The emotions that went with that were awful. But now when I look into my eyes, she isn't there anymore, just me staring back. The old warrior, in different ways.
It just blows me away. I never dreamed this would happen, didn't see it coming, over the last year it did more and more.
I dissapeared from the NY scene, I still know so many stars there, but I just went into camoflage mode, glad it happened because of the closure it brought, and maybe I had to go all the way with this to find the truth.
Who knew....
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Faithfully Married.
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Post by Trinity on Mar 23, 2022 3:25:18 GMT 8
Dysphoria is up today. About 50% discomfort level.
Last night I was at my meeting, they can tell I don't like using my birth name there, and I had opened up all the pronouns because I was male presenting, and when they started with the he's about half way through I told them that feels like nails on a chalkboard, she or they only please, this feels not good.
And it doesn't feel good.
Feeling generally somewhat ok, life circumstances have been brutal lately and its been wearing me down.
Just waiting and seeing how this goes.
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Post by Ativan Prescribed on Mar 23, 2022 5:48:39 GMT 8
Just like everything else in the world, it's going to have its ups and downs, in and outs, over and unders, here and there, yah sure and wtf moments.
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Dec 19, 2014 12:17:49 GMT 8
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Leena
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Dec 19, 2014 12:12:25 GMT 8
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Post by Leena on Mar 23, 2022 10:07:40 GMT 8
And it doesn't feel good. Feeling generally somewhat ok, life circumstances have been brutal lately and its been wearing me down. Just waiting and seeing how this goes. * Big Hugs*
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Nov 5, 2015 13:41:59 GMT 8
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Bisexual
Faithfully Married.
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Post by Trinity on Mar 23, 2022 10:56:17 GMT 8
And it doesn't feel good. Feeling generally somewhat ok, life circumstances have been brutal lately and its been wearing me down. Just waiting and seeing how this goes. * Big Hugs* Hugs back. You'd be surprised how much that actually means to me. It matters.
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Nov 5, 2015 13:41:59 GMT 8
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trinity
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Bisexual
Faithfully Married.
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Post by Trinity on Mar 23, 2022 23:29:52 GMT 8
Another detransitioning milestone.
Using my professional name / birth name for the first name.
Doesn't change who or what I am, just peeling another layer away.
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May 3, 2024 8:54:16 GMT 8
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Nov 5, 2015 13:41:59 GMT 8
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trinity
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Faithfully Married.
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Post by Trinity on Mar 24, 2022 6:24:18 GMT 8
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Nov 5, 2015 13:41:59 GMT 8
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trinity
Non-Binary
Sh'e, H'er, they them, she, he, whatever....
Bisexual
Faithfully Married.
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Post by Trinity on Mar 24, 2022 7:25:55 GMT 8
Well that didn't last very long with the name change.
I'm going to pray about it.
Still good with the changes on facebook and other sites.
I may keep it, I may change it, lots of years with that name.
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Jan 22, 2024 13:25:05 GMT 8
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Yuki
1,762
Aug 24, 2016 11:03:57 GMT 8
August 2016
violynne
Non-Binary
They/Their/Them
Pansexual
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Post by Yuki on Mar 25, 2022 8:46:00 GMT 8
I hopped back on here to check in because of your post on Facebook. It's a lot to read and catch up on entirely right now because I'm so tired all the time at the moment due to us being on third shift, but I did read some and I hope you're doing well!
I've actually been debating on gender things recently, myself. Like if the reason I felt nonbinary was because I had issues with myself and with how society views women in general. That's part of the reason I haven't been on in a little while. Still going to legally change my name when I can though, I couldn't ever go back to my birth name. Too much trauma goes along with it.
But I hope you're able to figure out what you're comfortable with!
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