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Post by Trinity on Dec 21, 2016 9:18:23 GMT 8
On a 20% cut of injections, my estrogen levels have fallen to 500.
Thats MTF transition normal top range.
Breasts are growing. I feel it, I know if I dial it down another 10 to 20 percent I will be more mixed and able to rely on the male pieces of my personality more.
The problem is, thats really hard for me to do, the addict in me does not in any way shape or form want to hear about me dropping the dose another notch down.
And if I do its still full mtf transition dose anyway.
Arrgh. 500, and growing boobs.
Ultimately the choice and the responsibility for it are mine.
Going to ask about this on the mtf hormone experts place I know about.
And I know it would be better for me at work if I drop it a notch.
Fighting with myself here.
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Post by Leena on Dec 21, 2016 11:24:19 GMT 8
On a 20% cut of injections, my estrogen levels have fallen to 500. Thats MTF transition normal top range. Breasts are growing. I feel it, I know if I dial it down another 10 to 20 percent I will be more mixed and able to rely on the male pieces of my personality more. The problem is, thats really hard for me to do, the addict in me does not in any way shape or form want to hear about me dropping the dose another notch down. And if I do its still full mtf transition dose anyway. Arrgh. 500, and growing boobs. Ultimately the choice and the responsibility for it are mine. Going to ask about this on the mtf hormone experts place I know about. And I know it would be better for me at work if I drop it a notch. Fighting with myself here. I really wish you did not look at this as an addiction, some type of hormones are needed. It's more like water. Like hormones, one can substitute sugary soda completely or partially with water, there are some long term side effects in doing so. It is even possible to drink too much water, easier to get dehydrated, getting that balance right is something we all do, but don't generally think about like an addiction.
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Post by Trinity on Dec 21, 2016 11:55:19 GMT 8
On a 20% cut of injections, my estrogen levels have fallen to 500. Thats MTF transition normal top range. Breasts are growing. I feel it, I know if I dial it down another 10 to 20 percent I will be more mixed and able to rely on the male pieces of my personality more. The problem is, thats really hard for me to do, the addict in me does not in any way shape or form want to hear about me dropping the dose another notch down. And if I do its still full mtf transition dose anyway. Arrgh. 500, and growing boobs. Ultimately the choice and the responsibility for it are mine. Going to ask about this on the mtf hormone experts place I know about. And I know it would be better for me at work if I drop it a notch. Fighting with myself here. I really wish you did not look at this as an addiction, some type of hormones are needed. It's more like water. Like hormones, one can substitute sugary soda completely or partially with water, there are some long term side effects in doing so. It is even possible to drink too much water, easier to get dehydrated, getting that balance right is something we all do, but don't generally think about like an addiction. I know. For normies it probably would not be. But i am a sobrr drug and alcohol addict and not sane. The experts are telling me to cut back . i dropped the dose tonight. They also want me on progesterine to repair finesteride damage.
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Post by Leena on Dec 21, 2016 14:42:42 GMT 8
Well, I'm an addict too and sober, well, as I'm writing this. Not really sure how anyone could be sane in this insane world. I used to be anti-HRT following similar addict reasoning, though I've since seen how it helped so many people. The experts know more than me on hormones, I do understand addiction though, and how you see it this way.
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Post by Trinity on Dec 21, 2016 19:51:22 GMT 8
Well, I'm an addict too and sober, well, as I'm writing this. Not really sure how anyone could be sane in this insane world. I used to be anti-HRT following similar addict reasoning, though I've since seen how it helped so many people. The experts know more than me on hormones, I do understand addiction though, and how you see it this way. Its not really addiction per se. Its being aware of the disease of "more" Thats what i have to watch. I would rather die than stop hormones, detransition and bottomming is no good. My testicles also attrophied. I was advised to cut to 300 to 400 range last night and start progesterone to counter finesteride. Since i must surrender my will to them, i will do this. I appreciate the comments. I know an iv user that wont self injulect because it triggers heroin cravings cause of using a syringe. I was not an iv user. I Appreciate the comments VL. Great on the sobriety☺☺☺
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Post by Jennifer (Tink) on Jan 4, 2017 19:38:02 GMT 8
Well, I'm an addict too and sober, well, as I'm writing this. Not really sure how anyone could be sane in this insane world. I used to be anti-HRT following similar addict reasoning, though I've since seen how it helped so many people. The experts know more than me on hormones, I do understand addiction though, and how you see it this way. Its not really addiction per se. Its being aware of the disease of "more" Thats what i have to watch. I would rather die than stop hormones, detransition and bottomming is no good. My testicles also attrophied. I was advised to cut to 300 to 400 range last night and start progesterone to counter finesteride. Since i must surrender my will to them, i will do this. I appreciate the comments. I know an iv user that wont self injulect because it triggers heroin cravings cause of using a syringe. I was not an iv user. I Appreciate the comments VL. Great on the sobriety☺☺☺ Addict and sober here. In my case I take BiPolar medicine and if not taken correctly it can cause side effects that trigger my non sobriety so I know what you mean. In fact my second suicide attempt came from an overdose of my meds because I just needed to cut the feelings at that time. I look at HRT like those meds. When handled properly it can help put into balance the things the body is lacking. Overdosing may make you feel better but can certainly fuck with the body. I hope you can stay where you are at mentally without the addict side kicking in. And good on both of you for your sobriety. :hugs: -- Jenn
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Post by Trinity on Jan 5, 2017 1:24:32 GMT 8
Cut dose 25% from 8 mg to 6 mg / week as of just after Christmas
Should bring me down to typical mtf transition dose, but not max dose for that.
Surrendered will...
Thanks Folks
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Post by Trinity on Jul 29, 2017 11:14:33 GMT 8
Haven't kept this up.
I did get down to350 to 450 range.
I have been moving, got a little sloppy with taking my shots on time.
Basically skipped or was late on doses through the week. And I am having some trouble getting my estrogen again. But I have enough for a couple more weeks.
Anyhow, staying on a standard dose, somewhat low, at regular intervals worked well. But delaying it 5 days and doing that two weeks in a row, well, it took me by surprise today. Colors went vibrant, femininity went way strong in the gender symphony. By the end of the night, I needed to be in a skirt in the worse way, and I am horny as heck.
I am so accutely aware that I am not a male, not a female, really an androgyne and born one.
The killer is the ghosts of the past. I still have serious issues with self esteem and fitting in. More on another thread.
Estrogen spike. Enjoy the ride girl, cause you are on it.
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Post by Trinity on Nov 6, 2017 23:23:41 GMT 8
I'm back on e cyp, i ran out of ev.
I feel the shift...
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Post by Trinity on Jan 5, 2018 20:46:37 GMT 8
There is a shortage of estrogen valerate. They discintinued, without warning, the favored dose od 20mg/ml. 40 mg is in shortage, 10 mg is still available.
I am still on backup reserves of estrogen cypionate and waiting for an appt. Good thing i stockpiled it.
Its going to be expensive. Blood work and injections will be out of pocket expenses. So like 300 bucks when i need scripts.
Was free when i used to work. Kinda funny. Work and get corp ins and free care dont work, get no money, and pay through the nose.
Ill get my hormones off the black market if I have to. Screw the antitrans govt.
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Post by Trinity on Jun 29, 2018 6:28:39 GMT 8
Old thread, relevent
Flying high on estrogen, yet I know its only a rise in levels of probably 25 to 50 points to a normal level from the trough level.
my levels are ranging from most likely 150 to 200.
Listening to very beautiful music, dressed male with women's underthings, I don't wear men's underthings (shivers).
Emotions floating in the female way they do after a shot.
I have a feeling the board is going to be in for it again.
Love to all here.
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Post by Trinity on Oct 8, 2018 6:48:26 GMT 8
Update for the heck of it.
Added progesterone, it helped, better breast development. 34 A/B, close to B.
Inject every 4 days, its stable.
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