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Post by Trinity on May 18, 2016 1:33:20 GMT 8
Levels have dropped to 450 as of last thurs night, should be close to high normal by now. Which explains why i'm in and out.
Next shot in 10 dats and we reset it and start over. At lower levels for a goal.
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Post by Trinity on May 19, 2016 0:25:00 GMT 8
Still in and out but less intense.
All hell broke loose in FL with my kids. And my blasted mind isnt working properly to handle it.
I need to be a father right now, not an estrodial cypionate addict.
Sorry if that offends. Its true and i know it.
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Post by Trinity on May 20, 2016 18:16:46 GMT 8
Head continues to clear and gender is inching more towards the blend and less towads she. Let it play.
Levels probably are still at high transition level but safe now.
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Post by Deleted on May 21, 2016 6:47:12 GMT 8
Still in and out but less intense. All hell broke loose in FL with my kids. And my blasted mind isnt working properly to handle it. I need to be a father right now, not an estrodial cypionate addict. Sorry if that offends. Its true and i know it. I don't mean to sound so uncaring and inconsiderate or even harsh but hon, transitioning will make you more of the maternal type instead of the paternal type. But you have to decide which role to embrace. There are lesbians that raise perfectly normal socially functioning adults. Same with gays. Just my opinion but it isn't as much about being a mother or father but a caring parent and or a parent that punishes bad deeds without abuse. Hell hon, this is 2016. Single mothers are raising children and single fathers are raising children. Just right now take care of yourself and don't get addicted to anything. Even the idea or being a woman more than a man. I am addicted to the feminine but I take no drugs and just embrace it and embellish myself in it. I really have no room to talk or give any advice about the whole father thing but I would suggest just being a parent. Masculine or feminine. Hell my mom would spank me harder than my dad when I was growing up.
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Post by Trinity on May 21, 2016 10:31:59 GMT 8
Still in and out but less intense. All hell broke loose in FL with my kids. And my blasted mind isnt working properly to handle it. I need to be a father right now, not an estrodial cypionate addict. Sorry if that offends. Its true and i know it. I don't mean to sound so uncaring and inconsiderate or even harsh but hon, transitioning will make you more of the maternal type instead of the paternal type. But you have to decide which role to embrace. There are lesbians that raise perfectly normal socially functioning adults. Same with gays. Just my opinion but it isn't as much about being a mother or father but a caring parent and or a parent that punishes bad deeds without abuse. Hell hon, this is 2016. Single mothers are raising children and single fathers are raising children. Just right now take care of yourself and don't get addicted to anything. Even the idea or being a woman more than a man. I am addicted to the feminine but I take no drugs and just embrace it and embellish myself in it. I really have no room to talk or give any advice about the whole father thing but I would suggest just being a parent. Masculine or feminine. Hell my mom would spank me harder than my dad when I was growing up. I wonder if you know how much you nailed this post. I'm already addicted to everything darling. And sober from it too. Lol.
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Post by Deleted on May 21, 2016 23:45:47 GMT 8
No I really don't know if I nailed the post or not. Just speaking what is inside my demented mind. But maternal or paternal, is there really even a difference now? There may have been in the 50's when the father was the disciplinarian and the mother was the nurturer exclaiming, "Just wait until you father gets home!" when you misbehaved. When I used to watch my nieces and nephews I could not dole out punishments because for one I would find a lot of shit they did funny and had to go hide to laugh my ass off. I would let my nephews do what boys did and nieces do what girls did. But when I did eventually have to dole out punishments, they ended up being original. A nose in the corner. My nieces were always good though. The boys a little rough with one another and it had to be putting them on their knees for about 5 minutes with their hand on the top of their heads. that was a long time ago though and I would not let them up until they sincerely apologized to one or the other. Hell I even gave them pillows but in South Louisiana putting a child on their knees is common place punishment. I never tried to spank but when I had to, it was barely any force behind it. I think the act works better than the pain so why hurt a child when it hurts their feelings just for the act with no pain involved. I have no problem with spanking but I have a big problem with abuse though. PS I like the slight pain of spanking for myself but it is consensual and a turn on for me. But shit. A lot of times a parent or family member's perceived disappointment is enough to hurt their feelings enough to make them rethink their actions. All my nieces and nephews with the exception of one that I had no control over growing up are going to college, treat people with respect and are all around contributing members of society. It wasn't their parents that did this because their parents were piss poor. They still keep in touch and visit even though they are my ex's blood kin. They know me as Aunt Jamie now and I still take care of them. I have been called in the middle of the night to pick them up form a bar or nightclub. Hell I have given one a home and never asked for anything until he got on his feet. I may not be a parent but I do care. Yeah I know I talk too much. So no. I can't be a mother but I can be one hell of an "aunt". And yeah they do know. But they are also all adults now and I am not married to their blood aunt anymore but they still come to me more than her. I don't know what this has to do with the original post? I am just blabbing on but when it comes to punishment or having to be an adult (that may be the whole moral of my blabbering) I would rather make them think more than punish them. Sometimes thinking and understanding what is wrong is worst than andy punishments than anyone can dole out.
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Post by Trinity on May 22, 2016 22:32:41 GMT 8
I dont think its addiction to sh'e. I think it just makes me happy to be me, and she is a huge part of me.
The meds and the euphoria of estrogen are another story.
Im dropping finesteride and spiro. I've been way overmedicated. Levels are down and the only ill effect socially emotionally physically is a mild headache.
Im back to the nb sweet spot i think, and looking at that. There is an issue for me as he with being percieved as effeminate gay. Im trans not gay, nothing wrong with effeminate gay, not at all, but the darned reparation therapy or whatever it was, has really f'd that social mode up. I repress she when out male and i need to cut that out.
Old habits, old fears, old wounds that have not healed and keep getting reopened by the right wing.
Lol im lying in bed with my wife and im in short femme hair, a pink semitransparent nightie, and pink satin short bathrobe, drinking coffee and listening to an online church service and quite happy.
Thats me. Im very comfortable living sh'e. No voice mods, no bs. Me and my ts no ops body, looking forward to moving and getting to a racetrack to get rowdy.
Screw all the narratives. I want to enjoy all life has to be taken.
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Post by Trinity on May 23, 2016 6:36:41 GMT 8
Cant drop spiro. Did drop finesteride.
I have a headache and physical dysporia. Feeling acutely nonbinary. And very bitchy.
Going sub q every 3.5 days starting saturday.
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Post by Trinity on May 23, 2016 6:38:17 GMT 8
Mood swings, hot flash, but low key. Doc called me today.
I want my darned boobs to grow. Grrrr.
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Post by Deleted on May 23, 2016 23:38:05 GMT 8
I dont think its addiction to sh'e. I think it just makes me happy to be me, and she is a huge part of me. The meds and the euphoria of estrogen are another story. Im dropping finesteride and spiro. I've been way overmedicated. Levels are down and the only ill effect socially emotionally physically is a mild headache. Im back to the nb sweet spot i think, and looking at that. There is an issue for me as he with being percieved as effeminate gay. Im trans not gay, nothing wrong with effeminate gay, not at all, but the darned reparation therapy or whatever it was, has really f'd that social mode up. I repress she when out male and i need to cut that out.
Old habits, old fears, old wounds that have not healed and keep getting reopened by the right wing. Lol im lying in bed with my wife and im in short femme hair, a pink semitransparent nightie, and pink satin short bathrobe, drinking coffee and listening to an online church service and quite happy. Thats me. Im very comfortable living sh'e. No voice mods, no bs. Me and my ts no ops body, looking forward to moving and getting to a racetrack to get rowdy. Screw all the narratives. I want to enjoy all life has to be taken. Trinity I don't know if you really can or not. Do you know how many times I have been called gay when I am actually trans? When I was younger and people that knew me as a boy assumed I was gay. And with long hair and having to shave because of hyperhidrosis, not to mention gynocomastia and just people's freakin' ignorance. I used to want to just scream my lungs out with four letter words and a few longer words at the people. But that don't matter because some people. But then I learned to play music. Learned how to do makeup in order to be a boy and look like a girl or at least a boy that looked like a girl at gigs in the eighties. Then people didn't freak out as much. they just turned into freaks themselves. Hon you are gonna' be called a lot of names. I have been through the same shit since I was young and claimed that I was actually a girl. Just embrace them all with a unique pride that you are not molded from the same idiocy as most of society. No I am not gay. I am bi. With a guy I feel straight and with a woman I feel lesbian. No problem either way. BTW people are gonna' perceive us and everyone else how they do. I can't change it. You can't change it. Hell no one can. They have to learn in their own time. But believe me there are a lot of so called rednecks that will wear a dress on a dare or a bet they loose and run around in public and when the bet or dare dues are paid, still wear the dress. Why? HMMM.... I have heard shit like, I am tough enough. Or I am so secure being a man that I don;t worry about wearing a dress. I say bull shit. They will do it because they themselves feel a little something that they can't really understand and it feels normal on a deeper level than they can comprehend. Be who you are and be who you are proudly. You can hide it from some but they will eventually pick up on it even if they aren't aware of it. But most people understand gay and lesbian and even bi more than that do Trans and anything deep like gender feelings and identity. I have said this many times but I think we scare them because they have the same feeling but end up repressing them more often than not. They can deal with it. We on the other hand feel it way more strongly. Anyway, shit Igot a big mouth and talk way too much. Even IRL people pick up on this. It seems to out me everytime.
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Post by Deleted on May 24, 2016 0:00:29 GMT 8
Mood swings, hot flash, but low key. Doc called me today. I want my darned boobs to grow. Grrrr. Ain't nothing wrong with small boobs Trin. Especially if you are trying to pass as either/or. Plus small boobs to me are so much sexier than the bigger boobs. They are perky. You have more well defined underarms instead of too much breast fat getting in the way. I have seen women with bigger implants or natural boobs even that seem to distort their upper arms later on in their 50's. You can exercise a whole lot more comfortable with a sports bra. Rough roads wearing a bra don't get them as sore as bigger boobs even with a good support bra. I have crossed the GW bridge in NYC without a bra and holy crap. I have crossed it with a good support bra and AHHHHH. Hell the whole of NYC interstates are screwed up and rougher than hell. From the BQE to the CBE to the LIE to I 95 toward Connecticut. And HOLY SHIT, any Interstate across PA in the late 90's would really mess you up. Almost 300 miles of constant pain and then 2 days of soreness. Nope give me little A cups that I can hide when I need to and Holy crap on a cracker, they are still sensitive enough to feel really goo getting played with. Hell I wouldn't mind being totally flat chested even with extreme sensitive nipple like they are now. Just look at it like this; we have super model boobs. Check out Milla Jevovich. A real beauty with smaller boobs than most slightly overweight men. They don't bother her. As long as them boobs cause electricity when they are touched, licked, twisted and so on, then just be happy with them. I won't go into but a lot of times big boobs have some side effects. no offense to anyone with big boobs. We all have our own perfect image of body type.
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Post by Trinity on May 24, 2016 0:10:09 GMT 8
Darling you are toooo priceless. I'll stop whining now. All i need to do is lose stomach fat and whammo. And i have killer legs.
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Post by EchelonHunt on May 24, 2016 0:22:04 GMT 8
I am biased to small boobies and flat chests on girls. After all, you are closer to their heart... Most memorable moment was at the LGBT club, my female friend was comparing boob size with two lesbians. I looked down at my chest and made a sad face. Two lesbians proceeded to grope my chest and tell my friend, "Yup! A cup for sure!" Couldn't stop smiling after that! It made me so happy that my chances of passing as a girl was possible even after top surgery. Oh shit. I forgot there was that AAA cup bra (bralette?) on clearance at Target a month ago. I didn't get it since funds were tight. Probably gone by now but damn it, it was so cute, it was white with a little pink bow in the middle. My hunt for AAA cup bra continues... heehee.
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Post by Deleted on May 24, 2016 0:42:58 GMT 8
Darling you are toooo priceless. I'll stop whining now. All i need to do is lose stomach fat and whammo. And i have killer legs. No I do have a price. High class diamond jewelry, a bad ass car ( Jags are the shit ), respect for me and if that is too much just respect, a decent car that don't break down and the best jewelry you can afford. As long as we are compatible and true. Oh hon. We all have killer legs. That my dear is one thing we have going for us. Well that and our excitement to embrace femininity wholly.
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Post by Deleted on May 24, 2016 0:53:08 GMT 8
I am biased to small boobies and flat chests on girls. After all, you are closer to their heart... Most memorable moment was at the LGBT club, my female friend was comparing boob size with two lesbians. I looked down at my chest and made a sad face. Two lesbians proceeded to grope my chest and tell my friend, "Yup! A cup for sure!" Couldn't stop smiling after that! It made me so happy that my chances of passing as a girl was possible even after top surgery. Oh shit. I forgot there was that AAA cup bra (bralette?) on clearance at Target a month ago. I didn't get it since funds were tight. Probably gone by now but damn it, it was so cute, it was white with a little pink bow in the middle. My hunt for AAA cup bra continues... heehee. Yeah tiny tits are better to me on a woman. I don't want to go into it but big boobs to me just aren't that sexy. LOL that sound more like a training bra. I even had to use one of those because of sensitivity. I have seen talk shows on TV with women and flat chests. OMG. That is the best or at least what I like anyway. To me A cups are the best. Best definition. Won't drag down to your knees when you get older. You lose weight you won't have stretch marks. Most lesbians that I have had relations with and smaller boobs were way more turned on with a little playing, just like me. Kadoing. A NHO instantly. But we all have our preferences though. These are just mine.
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