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Post by Trinity on May 24, 2016 9:14:59 GMT 8
I am biased to small boobies and flat chests on girls. After all, you are closer to their heart... Most memorable moment was at the LGBT club, my female friend was comparing boob size with two lesbians. I looked down at my chest and made a sad face. Two lesbians proceeded to grope my chest and tell my friend, "Yup! A cup for sure!" Couldn't stop smiling after that! It made me so happy that my chances of passing as a girl was possible even after top surgery. Oh shit. I forgot there was that AAA cup bra (bralette?) on clearance at Target a month ago. I didn't get it since funds were tight. Probably gone by now but damn it, it was so cute, it was white with a little pink bow in the middle. My hunt for AAA cup bra continues... heehee. Well thats one i could fill lol I have 36b unlineds. I should get some a's so the cup is full. That'll get me smiling. Someday i bet i will fill up a b. To b or not to b, that is the question...
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Post by Trinity on May 24, 2016 9:16:47 GMT 8
We derailed an overdose thread talking about tits and bras. Rofl. This is hysterical. We need to clone Jamie. Wait, we did....
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Post by Deleted on May 24, 2016 23:51:40 GMT 8
We derailed an overdose thread talking about tits and bras. Rofl. This is hysterical. We need to clone Jamie.
Wait, we did.... You in no many could clone me. If you did then the world would be finished. I think it would implode.
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Post by Taka on May 25, 2016 5:27:15 GMT 8
yeah, the forums cloned jamie.
though it still seems that lived experience makes a difference to personality. they aren't the same person...
i hope you're getting better, fairy.
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Post by Trinity on May 25, 2016 6:53:26 GMT 8
yeah, the forums cloned jamie. though it still seems that lived experience makes a difference to personality. they aren't the same person... i hope you're getting better, fairy. Much better my very dear Eagle. Enough to flutter and be shy.
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Post by Trinity on May 28, 2016 0:17:13 GMT 8
Surge of energy, vibrance. Would have topped my wife if i had a functional...and if she was willing.
Full of life and energy, gender wildass sh'e/them, if I had that street racecar I'd be burning them up right now.
I take my first e-val shot tommorrow im, its the lowest injection dose they do.
Also last two days have been dusphoria hell. Today, not so much, and i have nb aa tonight and will be in stockings and heels later.
And I like the andro guy look at work, socially I am getting real dialed in with my fluidity.
After all, i am just the androgyne, taking it to the max on my body needs.
I love being nonbinary full out trans.
Deepest thanks to the forum. And to Ativan... The OD wasnt as bad this time, mostly narc'd me out, and pretty far to the ts side of me.
In the groove now...
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Post by Trinity on May 29, 2016 2:47:50 GMT 8
So i go down to get my shot. Quite sh'e by the way, its a transgender clinic and i want the validation.. There are also cis women araound. They always stare. Its the voice probably.
The doorman for the building "sirs" me and I say "its ma'am".
He just glares at me. He saw my liscence so i can get in the building so its gunna be sir with him. And not nicely.
Once I am in the clinic its nice. The nurse wants to know how i keep my long nails from breaking. I wear clear polish, i dont color my nails. But they are high gloss. Its part of my nonbinary need, just like wearing one feather is, never two. I had it in, i love the look.
Yesterday i picked up 1cc syringes and 1.5 inch needles. So i shot .5 cc estradiol valerate, 50mg strength. Lowest dose they have.
Other than the color perception jump i always get on E, i dont feel much of anything.
We'll see how it goes.
And i dont feel sh'e much at all right now. Just very much me. A lot more guy than usual.
Its different.
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Post by Trinity on May 29, 2016 9:50:57 GMT 8
I dont feel the shot.
I feel nonbinary normal.
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Post by Trinity on Jun 3, 2016 0:13:07 GMT 8
Bloodwork Saturday.
Feeling off balance in gender. Could be environmental.
Bad dysphoria today. Its hard to explain it. I dont understand it.
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Post by Trinity on Jun 15, 2016 18:54:38 GMT 8
As the hormones dropped I moved more to male androgyne. Dysphoria increased. Mental accuity increased.
3 days after .5cc of estradiol valerate, the peak level hit. I moved into sh'e, dysphoria dropped, mental sharpness became tranquilized.
.5 is too high a peak and crash.
Splitting the dose to .25 per week instead of .5 per 2 weeks. Waiting on real blood results. If botched again i may go to the attourney general.
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Post by Trinity on Jun 16, 2016 4:58:16 GMT 8
Same as last time 2 weeks ago I go up and on the drop i get dysphoria bad.
Gotta fix this.
And I'm wicked horny.
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Post by Trinity on Jun 19, 2016 0:20:55 GMT 8
Cutting my dose to .25cc and dosing weekly.
Doc had it at .5cc because of last weeks crash, I already feel that crash now, weekly is needed.
But I wont raise the dose up yet.
Injecting today. The addict is still involved with this, I don't want the high though, just want to feel good.
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Post by Trinity on Jun 20, 2016 18:41:22 GMT 8
Results today. Doc called Sunday saying levels are high. Odd that i feel quite centered in gender, not too heavily she. You'd expect an overflow of "honeys" but no.
Will suggest .2 or .18 cc per week. They think biweekly, i dont want the roller coaster ride.
T levels I also want to see.
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Post by Trinity on Jun 24, 2016 20:09:06 GMT 8
Still OD'd, going to .15 cc per week after taking this week off.
Gender effect of the od are subtle. It does push me more to mtf.
Going to dial this in based on feelings and color perception. estrogen affects my color perception. It makes the colors more intense.
receptors in my eyes and brain.
This is taking a long time to get under control.
E levels are between 400-600 right now. They were 850 to 1000 not long ago like around Monday or Teusday night. T levels are up to 18 from 2 or 0 based on a Spiro cut. That may be helping my nonbinary perception.
Lets see where this rabbit hole leads. In a few weeks.
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Post by Trinity on Jul 1, 2016 20:23:02 GMT 8
Still having a hard time getting this under control.
Took .15 cc estradiol valerate yesterday in a leg shot, 12 days after the last .25 cc injection.
Stuff hit hard, and i did get a little bleeding so thats no help.
%akeaway is only Saturday injections to mitigate the spike high, even the low dose spiked this time.
Its gunna take a month at the 65% reduced dose to get this under control and leved at a normal mtf transition dose.
My levels havent been at androgyne dose since dec 2013.
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