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Post by Trinity on Jul 15, 2016 18:39:22 GMT 8
If you are fluid...how do you feel right now?
Me....unusually very sh'e, and dysphoric.
I hit a vein injecting Sat. That can screw my levels up a little, but i dunno.
Going out tonight fully sh'e. Wow do I need that.
I've been solidly androgne lately. The perception of thet fluxuates based on social interactions.
I felt no "he" at all the last couple days. Just nonbinary transitioned sh'e.
Currently cast in both male and female roles...known as Trinity.
Anyway thats me. How does your gender feel today?
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Post by Deleted on Jul 18, 2016 1:18:19 GMT 8
Awful. Been feeling 100% female for a couple of weeks now, totally triggered. No vent. 😞
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Post by Trinity on Jul 18, 2016 2:30:47 GMT 8
Awful. Been feeling 100% female for a couple of weeks now, totally triggered. No vent. 😞 Oh oh. You getting any opportunities to be she?
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Post by Valerie on Jul 18, 2016 2:54:42 GMT 8
Honestly lately I haven't really felt much with my gender. I've just been... I don't wanna say in middle because I haven't felt in middle I been feeling more of completely genderless. Just me an enby individual.
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Post by Trinity on Jul 18, 2016 8:25:16 GMT 8
Petsonaaly feeling solidly androgyne today and living it out.
Probably look more guy right now.
I want to see my T levels, i am betting they are elevated.
Way more "top" than usual.
Mainlining estrogen accidentally two weeks in a row didnt help. I gotta go side leg shots insteada front.
Nervous about where that legbone is.
But yeah. And dysphoria isnt bad tonight either.
There seems to be a pattern here.
Androgyne is a social sweet spot. Very comfortable.
But so is being full out sh'e. Just, thats for nights out and at home more.
Its getting better all the time.
So hard to explain this.
T.
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Post by Leena on Jul 18, 2016 10:12:16 GMT 8
Feeling very feminine lately, but still presenting androgynous at most. Went out last night and had some guy in a car repeatedly call me the 6 letter F word when I was crossing the street. Felt like everyone was staring at me all night, but it didn't stop me from trying to have a good time. Does make me consider why I present androgynous instead of just en femme if people are going to hate on me either way.
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Post by Trinity on Jul 18, 2016 10:38:22 GMT 8
My gender perception tweaks depending on presentation.
Not too far from center, but it moves towards the presentation gender, probably naturally.
The question is, since I am an actor, is that related to the stage. At some level it can be.
Not saying its fake, it isn't. Its complicated, I doubt I can explain it.
Roles I play are usually a revelation of a part of who i am. Gender roles would blend into that.
As to the jerks, well, that sucks.
I have more problems nonbinary he/she than with full out she or androgyne he.
But mine are extremely minor. Nobody calls me out on the street.
Not in many, many years.
Sorry you got burned on the F word like that.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 18, 2016 15:24:29 GMT 8
Awful. Been feeling 100% female for a couple of weeks now, totally triggered. No vent. 😞 Oh oh. You getting any opportunities to be she? None at all.
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Post by Leena on Jul 18, 2016 19:30:36 GMT 8
Sorry you got burned on the F word like that. I used to hear it a lot more when I was younger and trying to be a masculine guy. It bothered me more then as I was fighting this and didn't quite know what this was, and thought maybe I might be gay except I like girls. Now it's just inaccurate, though still hateful. I can't change that I somehow radiate femininity no matter what look go with. I've long been done with trying to be masculine to try to please others. It didn't even work. I'm starting to feel the same way with dressing androgynous. I had to do that as a stepping stone, as I wasn't comfortable leaving the house en femme. Still am not, though eventually I might be, I really want to be.
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Post by Trinity on Jul 18, 2016 21:46:04 GMT 8
You will find the sweet spot there.
For me distress comes if i try to fight my body. That doesnt work.
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Post by Trinity on Jul 18, 2016 21:47:49 GMT 8
Oh oh. You getting any opportunities to be she? None at all. Thats not good. How come sweetie? What happened? You need to take it to dear universe for privacy so you can talk?
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Post by EchelonHunt on Jul 18, 2016 23:08:01 GMT 8
Veronica, I'm sorry you were met with such a reaction. Judgemental assholes seem to be everywhere but good on you for not letting it stop you from enjoying your night out!
Cherie, what Trinity said, Dear Universe can provide privacy for you to discuss or vent away without prying eyes of guests or lurkers. Let me know if you'd like a blog, I'd be more than happy to set one up for you.
As to the topic's question...
My gender feels like water.
Calm, a sense of peace and still.
It can be shallow or very deep.
Other times, it will be choppy and stormy.
Or frozen solid like a lake in winter. Dormant, sleeping.
It flows through everything effortlessly. It seeks a pathway regardless of the obstacles in its way.
Though the water may become murky and dark, its true meaning and its image of purity and cleansing is never tarnished, for the dirt and chemicals can be filtered out.
Water is transparent, fluid and adapts to its surroundings. If it cannot adapt, it shifts its form and becomes one with the environment until it can return to its fluid form once again.
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Post by Valerie on Jul 19, 2016 0:31:07 GMT 8
Veronica, I'm sorry you were met with such a reaction. Judgemental assholes seem to be everywhere but good on you for not letting it stop you from enjoying your night out! Cherie, what Trinity said, Dear Universe can provide privacy for you to discuss or vent away without prying eyes of guests or lurkers. Let me know if you'd like a blog, I'd be more than happy to set one up for you. As to the topic's question... My gender feels like water. Calm, a sense of peace and still. It can be shallow or very deep. Other times, it will be choppy and stormy. Or frozen solid like a lake in winter. Dormant, sleeping. It flows through everything effortlessly. It seeks a pathway regardless of the obstacles in its way. Though the water may become murky and dark, its true meaning and its image of purity and cleansing is never tarnished, for the dirt and chemicals can be filtered out. Water is transparent, fluid and adapts to its surroundings. If it cannot adapt, it shifts its form and becomes one with the environment until it can return to its fluid form once again. Wow Jayce, that's such a beautiful way metaphor! I've never thought of looking at gender in that way before, but it makes absolute sense.
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Post by Trinity on Jul 19, 2016 0:35:03 GMT 8
Times like this I know how amazing these journeys are.
Check the thread "collateral damage" Cherie for some wisdom shared there concerning transition.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 20, 2016 1:51:51 GMT 8
Feeling very feminine lately, but still presenting androgynous at most. Went out last night and had some guy in a car repeatedly call me the 6 letter F word when I was crossing the street. Felt like everyone was staring at me all night, but it didn't stop me from trying to have a good time. Does make me consider why I present androgynous instead of just en femme if people are going to hate on me either way. You should have asked him what kind of idiot he is. Tranny starts with a T instead of an F and clearly we aren't Faggots and the word Faggot is politically incorrect and considered possible hate speech. Not to mention Defamation of Character which could turn out to be a lawsuit. So if he hit you after calling you "faggot" then that is a hate crime. OMG you could have been rich. Or just as good he could have been in jail or better yet and you could have been both. Rich and him in jail. Look Veronica. You can't let idiots bother you and ruin your good time. Was that the only asshole you encountered that night? If so then that is not so bad. So what? You are presenting as andro and someone calls you a "faggot"? For me one asshole can't and doesn't ruin a whole night. Look hon. I have been dealing with this shit all my life. When I came to terms fully with it I may have been 13. I knew something earlier, especially that I felt like and wanted to be a girl, but not when it hit me like a ton of bricks. My stepdad was from south Alabama and I went with them on vacation. Don't ask me how but his fucking mom picked it up right away. She told my mom, my stepdad and me that I was gay and a fag. Really? at fucking 13? WTF did I do? Back the trans was kind of unknown or idiots couldn't figure it out. So either you were gay or straight. At least there anyway. I think it was a town called Coden Al. Close to Dauphin Island. I remember that I was upset and I actually went away by myself and cried. She was a drunk racist KKK (Yes she and her husband were actually in the KKK) bitch anyway that kind of reminded me of a troll. Her husband was more of a bitch than I turned out to be because he didn't say shit but later came on to me. Really? So who is the "faggot" here? Or actually who the fuck is the gay child molester? Not me for sure. That is way worst than being gay. I turned him down so thank god he didn't take it by force. Yeah later I found out that he molested his granddaughter that they had custody of and she was two years younger than me. And this stupid bitch that called me a fag and gay and every fucking thing else under the sun let it happen and knew it was happening. Fucking hypocrites. Of course back then a so called boy with long hair was kind of unusual but not really though. But curly long hair that looked way more girly than "guyly"? There are a bunch of fucked up people in the world and believe me, it ain't us. I guess that is what kind of made me curious of guys. Maybe I just was curious or she put that shit in my head or maybe it was just always in me anyway. I did like girls too. Plus other shit happened with a gay step brother that I never told anyone about but it was not consensual. It could have been possibly even as young as I was but he took it without consent. This happened even before Alabama. Maybe I enjoyed it just a little? Its fucked up sounding. I know. So don't let name calling ruin your night or life. A lot of people even when I was trying trying to be a guy thought I was gay and used all the names. Well I'm not gay. I am bi or used to be anyway. Now I am a straight trans woman more or less. I have a boyfriend and for the last year or so have been exclusive for guys. So with that last sentence written and in context of the OP, to quote Shania Twain, "Man, I Feel Like a Woman."
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