Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
Deleted
inherit
guest@proboards.com
11
0
May 18, 2024 19:22:06 GMT 8
Deleted
0
May 18, 2024 19:22:06 GMT 8
January 1970
Deleted
|
Post by Deleted on Feb 7, 2015 9:05:47 GMT 8
Time for you to watch death race or a bond flick and be the bond girl and let your hair down. Who Trinity? Me? Time for me to push the limits. I got a gig tonight. My hair is always down. Maybe something I ain't ever tried before but a little main veining with Mr. Brownstone. These musicians are hard core and I gotta do a lot of catching up to do but they play almost like me and I know most of their songs by ear. I don't have to worry about drug tests anymore because I can't drive commercially anymore. Maybe it's time to really let my hair down and let it all hang loose and get just as freaking wild as I was in the eighties. Maybe even more so... Main Veining with all the blood I have given in the last year. Maybe a little Mr. Brownstone and a little bit of meth after all I drank. Ah screw it I think I like a little "Candy Cane." Only problem it is expensive. But it will kill the alcohol. Sorry but the horn is honking. It is time to go. Thank Gawd I got all my shit ready earlier. Now I'm gonna' go have a Good Time. this band is badass and I hope I can keep up. But maybe they need to keep up with me. Just checked the limo out. OMFG! What I want is there. A little toke a little snort. Sterile needles and all. I think I will leave the main veining alone though. Smoke, snort and drink is my style. But before a gig snort and smoke is the high life. 56 miles to the real high life. Always keep the limo waiting especially if the band calls you. I really got to go so Nighty night everyone. Me and my BF will be traveling to NOLA in freaking style. He does do the main veining and I hate it but at least he uses clean needles. Limos never get pulled over. Anyway good night all. I really gotta go because I'm pushing the time. Don't get taken out. The hard stuff kills, be careful. Sj.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
Deleted
inherit
guest@proboards.com
3
0
May 18, 2024 19:22:06 GMT 8
Deleted
0
May 18, 2024 19:22:06 GMT 8
January 1970
Deleted
|
Post by Deleted on Feb 7, 2015 9:16:04 GMT 8
I give up. This is my rant. I'm so freakin' tired. Don't know what to do anymore. NO I'm not in any danger of self harm. But I am so fucking tired. I am so emotionally, mentally and physically exhausted. And then not to mention so freakin' psychologically exhausted. There are only a couple of people that keep me going. For those I am forever grateful. I could never do the suicide thing but a girl can wish not to wake up or something else.... Right? Nobody worry. I'm just really exhausted. Physically, mentally and emotionally. Just a little rant. OMG I hate ranting. Take a break, get some rest, hope you'll feel better after a recharge!
|
|
inherit
25
0
Jul 25, 2022 4:05:35 GMT 8
165
DCW
159
Nov 25, 2014 4:50:16 GMT 8
November 2014
dcw
Female
She/Her
|
Post by DCW on Feb 7, 2015 23:57:44 GMT 8
That just doesn't make any sense for me. IT doesn't really matter, though, because no amount of trying anything works. A lot of things increase the arousal to the point where the inability to orgasm is exceedingly frustrating. And in the past I didn't even need arousal to reach orgasm. I deeply miss that. I know for certain that SRS surgeons don't remove the prostate during surgery as that's attached to the lower end of the bladder and the urethra runs straight through it. In fact that little number still has everything to do with a post-op orgasm, but if the body is totally devoid of any T whatsoever, then the prostate collapses like a balloon without air and becomes totally ineffectual for any kind of orgasm. Believe me I know that most post-ops run much lower T levels than do cis women and they bitch about low libido and an inability to achieve an orgasm. I can verify this because having been surgically castrated several years ago that left me effectively in the same boat as any post SRS woman and it wasn't until I accepted the idea that a small amount of T would not in any way alter my transition, but would restore the prostate and increase my libido just enough to be able to enjoy an orgasm again. I use .02ml testosterone cream from a compounding pharmacy that is prescribed for me by a naturopathic doctor for a few days before a date. She deals with aging women and it was she that turned me onto this. Unfortunately, finding a doctor who will prescribe any T (or even check the level) seems to be impossible.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
Deleted
inherit
guest@proboards.com
3
0
May 18, 2024 19:22:06 GMT 8
Deleted
0
May 18, 2024 19:22:06 GMT 8
January 1970
Deleted
|
Post by Deleted on Feb 8, 2015 0:02:40 GMT 8
I know for certain that SRS surgeons don't remove the prostate during surgery as that's attached to the lower end of the bladder and the urethra runs straight through it. In fact that little number still has everything to do with a post-op orgasm, but if the body is totally devoid of any T whatsoever, then the prostate collapses like a balloon without air and becomes totally ineffectual for any kind of orgasm. Believe me I know that most post-ops run much lower T levels than do cis women and they bitch about low libido and an inability to achieve an orgasm. I can verify this because having been surgically castrated several years ago that left me effectively in the same boat as any post SRS woman and it wasn't until I accepted the idea that a small amount of T would not in any way alter my transition, but would restore the prostate and increase my libido just enough to be able to enjoy an orgasm again. I use .02ml testosterone cream from a compounding pharmacy that is prescribed for me by a naturopathic doctor for a few days before a date. She deals with aging women and it was she that turned me onto this. Unfortunately, finding a doctor who will prescribe any T (or even check the level) seems to be impossible. See if you can find a Naturopathic physician, a lot of them are now into bio-identical HRT replacement for aging adults, usually their services are not covered by insurance but it's worth the out of pocket expense, after all what's your health and happiness worth?
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
Deleted
inherit
guest@proboards.com
22
0
May 18, 2024 19:22:06 GMT 8
Deleted
0
May 18, 2024 19:22:06 GMT 8
January 1970
Deleted
|
Post by Deleted on Feb 10, 2015 2:48:37 GMT 8
Who Trinity? Me? Time for me to push the limits. I got a gig tonight. My hair is always down. Maybe something I ain't ever tried before but a little main veining with Mr. Brownstone. These musicians are hard core and I gotta do a lot of catching up to do but they play almost like me and I know most of their songs by ear. I don't have to worry about drug tests anymore because I can't drive commercially anymore. Maybe it's time to really let my hair down and let it all hang loose and get just as freaking wild as I was in the eighties. Maybe even more so... Main Veining with all the blood I have given in the last year. Maybe a little Mr. Brownstone and a little bit of meth after all I drank. Ah screw it I think I like a little "Candy Cane." Only problem it is expensive. But it will kill the alcohol. Sorry but the horn is honking. It is time to go. Thank Gawd I got all my shit ready earlier. Now I'm gonna' go have a Good Time. this band is badass and I hope I can keep up. But maybe they need to keep up with me. Just checked the limo out. OMFG! What I want is there. A little toke a little snort. Sterile needles and all. I think I will leave the main veining alone though. Smoke, snort and drink is my style. But before a gig snort and smoke is the high life. 56 miles to the real high life. Always keep the limo waiting especially if the band calls you. I really got to go so Nighty night everyone. Me and my BF will be traveling to NOLA in freaking style. He does do the main veining and I hate it but at least he uses clean needles. Limos never get pulled over. Anyway good night all. I really gotta go because I'm pushing the time. Shoot Jamie be careful I really don't want to fly back to your funeral. You are messing with madness or death. Music doesn't need to mean an explosion of drug fueled insanity. I'll be thinking of you. Julie No chance in that. I don't do the hard stuff. I did do a little smoke though. I wish I could talk him out of the needle deal though. Since I can't drive anymore I can do a little toking and it really greases me up pretty good. I feel it a little more and don't focus too much on the people in the crowd. Nah I left all the hard stuff alone.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
Deleted
inherit
guest@proboards.com
22
0
May 18, 2024 19:22:06 GMT 8
Deleted
0
May 18, 2024 19:22:06 GMT 8
January 1970
Deleted
|
Post by Deleted on Feb 10, 2015 2:50:30 GMT 8
Who Trinity? Me? Time for me to push the limits. I got a gig tonight. My hair is always down. Maybe something I ain't ever tried before but a little main veining with Mr. Brownstone. These musicians are hard core and I gotta do a lot of catching up to do but they play almost like me and I know most of their songs by ear. I don't have to worry about drug tests anymore because I can't drive commercially anymore. Maybe it's time to really let my hair down and let it all hang loose and get just as freaking wild as I was in the eighties. Maybe even more so... Main Veining with all the blood I have given in the last year. Maybe a little Mr. Brownstone and a little bit of meth after all I drank. Ah screw it I think I like a little "Candy Cane." Only problem it is expensive. But it will kill the alcohol. Sorry but the horn is honking. It is time to go. Thank Gawd I got all my shit ready earlier. Now I'm gonna' go have a Good Time. this band is badass and I hope I can keep up. But maybe they need to keep up with me. Just checked the limo out. OMFG! What I want is there. A little toke a little snort. Sterile needles and all. I think I will leave the main veining alone though. Smoke, snort and drink is my style. But before a gig snort and smoke is the high life. 56 miles to the real high life. Always keep the limo waiting especially if the band calls you. I really got to go so Nighty night everyone. Me and my BF will be traveling to NOLA in freaking style. He does do the main veining and I hate it but at least he uses clean needles. Limos never get pulled over. Anyway good night all. I really gotta go because I'm pushing the time. Don't get taken out. The hard stuff kills, be careful. Sj. Well I did smoke a little but left the other stuff alone. Did have a few drinks too. But yeah the hard stuff is the bad stuff.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
Deleted
inherit
guest@proboards.com
22
0
May 18, 2024 19:22:06 GMT 8
Deleted
0
May 18, 2024 19:22:06 GMT 8
January 1970
Deleted
|
Post by Deleted on Feb 10, 2015 2:52:50 GMT 8
I give up. This is my rant. I'm so freakin' tired. Don't know what to do anymore. NO I'm not in any danger of self harm. But I am so fucking tired. I am so emotionally, mentally and physically exhausted. And then not to mention so freakin' psychologically exhausted. There are only a couple of people that keep me going. For those I am forever grateful. I could never do the suicide thing but a girl can wish not to wake up or something else.... Right? Nobody worry. I'm just really exhausted. Physically, mentally and emotionally. Just a little rant. OMG I hate ranting. Take a break, get some rest, hope you'll feel better after a recharge! That would have been the best thing but I had to work that night. I did feel a little better though once I hit that first powerchord and went into a "different place" for an hour and a half.
|
|
inherit
18
0
Jun 29, 2023 11:06:51 GMT 8
228
LivingTheDream
276
Nov 19, 2014 22:31:27 GMT 8
November 2014
livingthedream
Female
She/Her
|
Post by LivingTheDream on Feb 10, 2015 3:30:08 GMT 8
Voice still sucks..kinda accepted that. Still hoping gets better with use!
The worst thing bout laser isn't even really the zapping part, ya it hurts a bit, sometimes a lot!, but the following week-week in a half is worse. Face is all rough and shitty feeling, can't shave good so face has burnt hair and patches all over the place, just yuck! Can't wait for that to go away, heal, is nice about 2 weeks later for me tho, face nice and smooth and can get close shave.
Electro- i don't do it but ya, would suck if had to grow hair out..well, sometimes I am lazy and don't shave but I am also only a part timer now so I could just avoid it for a bit, but if was full time, god no!
|
|