Post by Ayla on May 3, 2015 11:36:33 GMT 8
I have an adult son and an adult daughter, who are both in their early 20's. They mean the world to me so I was very concerned as to how they would react when I came out as trans.
My son is a very laid back character. I need not have worried. It turned out that there were no issues. He just wanted to know whether I was OK and followed up later with a hug. Enough said.
My daughter reacted very differently. She has worked with trans inmates and patients. She knows, from her own experience, the importance of getting hormones at the right levels - she has PCOS. Since coming out to her, she avoids the topic whenever it comes up, and she has rejected offers to discuss this, share information, speak to a counsellor etc. Anyway, this weekend it came to a head, and like most communication with her generation, it was text based. It had really kicked off the previous weekend when I severed ties with her on FB (to 'avoid embarrassing her' or causing her discomfort) because she had threatened this when she said that she didn't want me posting anything about trans issues on my FB (I hadn't, but I had linked a 3 year old article on Jenner praising them for their parenting, life success etc with no mention of their trans identity). This speaks to my refusal to be inauthentic or to be censored. It was probably a little childish in retrospect ('tit for tat').
After a week of more than a little angst over my action, I realised after the event, that I had been obliquely invited for breakfast with her and my wife/her mother. I texted an apology for not joining them for breakfast, and added that
"anyway I would like a little space for a while as you are clearly uncomfortable with who I am, and it may take some time for us to be more accepting of each other."
Her response "This really hurts my feelings. I thought we'd made some progress. I obviously wasn't very good with how I worded what I said. It wasn't an attack on you. The article you posted upset me because of all the media hype. I'm sorry you felt that way. Speak to you whenever you're comfortable."
My response. " Thank you for your text. It meant a lot to me. Being trans doesn't define me but I am trans and non binary . I can't pretend otherwise. In time I hope that you accept me for who I am. I know that you are uncomfortable. I try to understand this and I try to avoid embarrassing you, but it hurts nonetheless. On my side, I love you and accept you completely, so am glad that we are good"
Her response. "Good to hear, you can't help who you are! I'm sorry that I hurt your feelings that's the last thing that I want. It tears me up that I did."
My response. "I love you. I couldn't be angry with you if I tried."
We are catching up in person, next weekend. Communication is important and I find far too often that I could have done a better job. Do you have similar stories of unnecessary angst, miscommunication, reconnecting when, looking back, it could have been handled so much better. Was the journey necessary or could it have been avoided, did it just take time, or did it require a particular event or one of you to take the initiative to move things forward and restore relationship?
Safe travels
Aisla
My son is a very laid back character. I need not have worried. It turned out that there were no issues. He just wanted to know whether I was OK and followed up later with a hug. Enough said.
My daughter reacted very differently. She has worked with trans inmates and patients. She knows, from her own experience, the importance of getting hormones at the right levels - she has PCOS. Since coming out to her, she avoids the topic whenever it comes up, and she has rejected offers to discuss this, share information, speak to a counsellor etc. Anyway, this weekend it came to a head, and like most communication with her generation, it was text based. It had really kicked off the previous weekend when I severed ties with her on FB (to 'avoid embarrassing her' or causing her discomfort) because she had threatened this when she said that she didn't want me posting anything about trans issues on my FB (I hadn't, but I had linked a 3 year old article on Jenner praising them for their parenting, life success etc with no mention of their trans identity). This speaks to my refusal to be inauthentic or to be censored. It was probably a little childish in retrospect ('tit for tat').
After a week of more than a little angst over my action, I realised after the event, that I had been obliquely invited for breakfast with her and my wife/her mother. I texted an apology for not joining them for breakfast, and added that
"anyway I would like a little space for a while as you are clearly uncomfortable with who I am, and it may take some time for us to be more accepting of each other."
Her response "This really hurts my feelings. I thought we'd made some progress. I obviously wasn't very good with how I worded what I said. It wasn't an attack on you. The article you posted upset me because of all the media hype. I'm sorry you felt that way. Speak to you whenever you're comfortable."
My response. " Thank you for your text. It meant a lot to me. Being trans doesn't define me but I am trans and non binary . I can't pretend otherwise. In time I hope that you accept me for who I am. I know that you are uncomfortable. I try to understand this and I try to avoid embarrassing you, but it hurts nonetheless. On my side, I love you and accept you completely, so am glad that we are good"
Her response. "Good to hear, you can't help who you are! I'm sorry that I hurt your feelings that's the last thing that I want. It tears me up that I did."
My response. "I love you. I couldn't be angry with you if I tried."
We are catching up in person, next weekend. Communication is important and I find far too often that I could have done a better job. Do you have similar stories of unnecessary angst, miscommunication, reconnecting when, looking back, it could have been handled so much better. Was the journey necessary or could it have been avoided, did it just take time, or did it require a particular event or one of you to take the initiative to move things forward and restore relationship?
Safe travels
Aisla