How did hormones affect you?

[Trinity]

How has hormones affected you and your relationships?

Its a big decision for many, low dose, high dose, marriage impact, presentation impact.

It helped me personally immensely, but killed any possibility of being a top, so it basically robbed my wife of sex.  Of course, I sacrificed being a bottom for decades because of faithfulness to her, so I guess its acceptable tradeoffs in a way.

Not a deal breaker for us at this age.

But the difference for me emotionally is immense, and necessary.  Both the physical, mental, and sexual sides are more in line with who I am.  I feel better.

But all of us are different.

The thread is for those faced with the HRT choices, and the fear of it, and the desire for it.  It's not for everyone, and contrary to the popular, I don't think it is as reversible as people say it is.

[Leena]

Dec 3, 2020 10:25:20 GMT 8 Trinity said:

How has hormones affected you and your relationships?

Its a big decision for many, low dose, high dose, marriage impact, presentation impact.

It helped me personally immensely, but killed any possibility of being a top, so it basically robbed my wife of sex.  Of course, I sacrificed being a bottom for decades because of faithfulness to her, so I guess its acceptable tradeoffs in a way.

Not a deal breaker for us at this age.

But the difference for me emotionally is immense, and necessary.  Both the physical, mental, and sexual sides are more in line with who I am.  I feel better.

But all of us are different.

The thread is for those faced with the HRT choices, and the fear of it, and the desire for it.  It's not for everyone, and contrary to the popular, I don't think it is as reversible as people say it is.

It was a very hard decision for me and I wasn't even in a relationship.

How it mainly affected me is that I feel more connected to who I was as a kid. I knew I was trans then and really just did what I wanted, regardless of whatever gender norms there were. Sometimes I got in trouble for it, but I didn't like or even really understand all of those unwritten rules. When puberty hit, I slowly developed what I thought was extreme social anxiety, but maybe it was just dysphoria and the feeling that I had to live by those unwritten rules if I was going to ever do the social things teenagers do. I felt that way even more as an adult. That anxiety feeling is mostly gone and there's an added feeling I can't really describe that feels really good.

I don't know who is saying it's reversible, maybe after just a few months, perhaps less so for testosterone HRT. I don't want it to reverse. You are right, it isn't for everyone. I can say now it is right for me, and I tried everything else first. Clothes, makeup, laser, electrolysis just were not enough, and at the time I really wished they were. I don't know quite why I felt like I didn't want to be on HRT so much, but I really did.

[Trinity]

Dec 6, 2020 6:35:36 GMT 8 Leena said:

Dec 3, 2020 10:25:20 GMT 8 Trinity said:

How has hormones affected you and your relationships?

Its a big decision for many, low dose, high dose, marriage impact, presentation impact.

It helped me personally immensely, but killed any possibility of being a top, so it basically robbed my wife of sex.  Of course, I sacrificed being a bottom for decades because of faithfulness to her, so I guess its acceptable tradeoffs in a way.

Not a deal breaker for us at this age.

But the difference for me emotionally is immense, and necessary.  Both the physical, mental, and sexual sides are more in line with who I am.  I feel better.

But all of us are different.

The thread is for those faced with the HRT choices, and the fear of it, and the desire for it.  It's not for everyone, and contrary to the popular, I don't think it is as reversible as people say it is.

It was a very hard decision for me and I wasn't even in a relationship.

How it mainly affected me is that I feel more connected to who I was as a kid. I knew I was trans then and really just did what I wanted, regardless of whatever gender norms there were. Sometimes I got in trouble for it, but I didn't like or even really understand all of those unwritten rules. When puberty hit, I slowly developed what I thought was extreme social anxiety, but maybe it was just dysphoria and the feeling that I had to live by those unwritten rules if I was going to ever do the social things teenagers do. I felt that way even more as an adult. That anxiety feeling is mostly gone and there's an added feeling I can't really describe that feels really good.

I don't know who is saying it's reversible, maybe after just a few months, perhaps less so for testosterone HRT. I don't want it to reverse. You are right, it isn't for everyone. I can say now it is right for me, and I tried everything else first. Clothes, makeup, laser, electrolysis just were not enough, and at the time I really wished they were. I don't know quite why I felt like I didn't want to be on HRT so much, but I really did.

What do they have you on?

High dose injections, for me, every 4-5 days to keep the half life curve stable.

I see colors better, feel happier, am calmer, and it kind of narcs me out for a day.

The physical changes are a dream, more later on that one.

[Ativan Prescribed]

A lot of what changed physically for me on low dose reversed after a couple years being off it.
There are times where I feel like I would like to on it again, but what I wanted was the mindset of it, and that still holds in there.
I don't know what to say that it is, I think it is different for each person, but how I felt is still how I feel.
I regained what I lost as far as being usable, size came back eventually, but I also have a lot more hair growing again as well and that bothers me to a point.
But it grows back much thinner than it used to be and my lower legs are still pretty much hair free, the chest hair is the worst, and it never actually went away but I was a lot more aggressive in plucking it out.
And that is pretty hard to keep up with and over the last year I just learned to ignore it, it bothers me less and less as time goes on.
But the mindset, the way I felt using low dose, that is still there, but then I have always known and never doubted that I wasn't fully male or female but everything all the time and I still am.
The biggest difference is aggressiveness, the wild ride of T can still happen if I let it, but I would rather just have the more laid back mindset, but age has a lot to do with that as well, hard to say where one lets off and the other begins.
I'm very happy that I got to use low dose for as long as I did and to be able to play with the dose, running it up and maybe past the full dose, it really has a way of setting the tone for things.

[Trinity]

LOL my blood work came back today, I had my prostate checked because the family has a history of prostate cancer...

I had BPH and the internet search engines led me to finesteride and spiro for treatments and researching that resulted in me finding Susans and it was all over after that.

my PSA was 0.1 and the blood levels were unmeasurable.

So much for that problem. No wonder I can still pee.