Post by Trinity on Oct 19, 2020 20:20:52 GMT 8
As I look at my own journey through the Unicorn Forest, I see where it started in love, kindness, self discovery of a beautiful part of who I am that had been extremely wounded by the Matrix, the social construct and the evil that surrounds us in this world. Evan as love and abundance and the Kingdom of the Loving God also is here, which overpowers the Matrix in a human heart, even if the Matrix has seized control of elements of religions and corrupted and soiled the truth.
In that journey, the call came to become a warrior and take it all on, while sorting out who I was, by living out my truth. And as I lived out my truth, many of the old wounds opened, but also many were healed as I discovered a new way of being and living that was true to how I was created, created to be, as we all are, a loving, caring human that is called to make differences in other peopls lives while nurturing my own.
Over the last 3 or 4 years, damage came to me, the result of forces of evil or false doctrines of the Matrix that invaded the airwaves, the media, the human hearts, as hate began to prevail over love.
It is only recently that I have recognized what this has done to me, how it affected my spirit, my relationships, my actions, my words. Burning resentments became the driving force, anger replacing love, hurt replacing healing. All that I cherish was being robbed from me, due to the diabolical plots embedded in the Matrix, the fabric of society, the principalities and powers in control of the media, which in turn control the minds of many, who then control the government, the law, and begin to become the agents of the matrix, often soul killers causing great harm to the innocent.
Having accepted that I cannot change these massive moves of the darkness, I began to realize that the Lord was calling me out, into a time of isolation and healing and rebuilding, it was a clear requirement to disengage, to remove myself from the theater and Hollywood, to let go of the things I had done that mattered, and to draw close to the loving God that I understand and who loves me as who I am, who He created me to be, nonbinary trans human being with the gifts and talents He installed, for purposes that are yet to be revealed, and purposes that have already been accomplished.
By reaching out to others on this little forum, I found a way to express that love, and to make small differences of self esteem and meeting other needs, of giving hope, of giving acceptance, of an understanding ear, doing the things that really matter, and in this way, instead of the angry warrior, something much more valuable and powerful has come, something in me that drives out the darkness and the night.
It is that part of me, the sh'e within, the core of me as well as the body, that must be united with the God of Love who I know and understand based on His interaction with me, over the many years, that preserved my life, for the purpose of spreading that love, and giving the strength that overcomes the hatred embedded in the Matrix, in this world, where the wars on a spiritual level are far more deadly than those in the physical.
And I began to realize that the most dangerous thing about the Matrix to me, is the buidling of resentments, of hopelessness, of hate and fear for those who threaten to take away my hormones, my personal rights of self defense, my right to freedom of being who I am spiritually without inflicting any hint of discrimination or condemnation on others, our right to the pursuit of happiness and freedom without fear, our childrens right to hormone blockers so that they are spared the horror of the dysphoria that I live with every day, just the whole madness surrounding us.
It is like being in the middle of a hurricane, but instead, being anchored in a bubble that sees through the Matrix for what it is, and becomes unaffected by it, anchoring in a bubble of love and compassion and truth, bright light defeating the darkness, just be staying alive, being true to ourselves, being free, facing down the darkness and not being driven into silence and hiding.
There are many ways to take up arms against the matrix, ways of music, art, protest, ways of a simple helping hand to someone else, but the first battlefield, for me, is always in my own mind.
For this day, I will fight that battle with love, destroying the resentments and anger and hate within, and instead, celebrating each moment I can live in truth, not letting the Matrix rob me and those I love of who we are, or of the precous gifts that surround us, a beautiful sunrise, a childs smile and laughter, a lovers caress, a given cup of coffee in the morning, a kind and gentle word, there are so many things we are given, and that we can also give.
I was deeply touched by a gift recently given me that is of enormous value, not just in terms of what it is, but of where it came from, and it has forced me to take a good look at myself, and see the darkness and the gunk that has bounded me, things that were dabbed onto me by the Matrix, by the forces of hate that surround us and have access to us from so many different places now.
This forum is a place of light, and love, it was designed that way, a place to nurture the wounded, a place to save lives. Like all things it has its dysfunctions and its challenges, it is part of the humanity of us, but the power that created it from the very beginning was love. Kindness for others, and support, being there. It is true we are a small and largely a closed group, and we have been of many faiths and countries over the years. It has gone quiet, perhaps that is us, perhaps it is just the times we live in, perhaps fear keeps some in the closet and hiding, reading form a hidden place, or perhaps we just randomly have a different 200 followers seeing us on the internet, who knows, I do not.
Don't let the Matrix steal your love, your heart, your mind, your passion, your identity, your soul. Overpower the matrix, and tell us how you have done so.
For me, it is through prayer, through friendship, through music, the arts, and through writing.
For me, it s through my God, and through You.
You, are the reason we are here, and the reason that we write, and the reason that we stay.
Tell me, my darlings, how do you drive out the darkness in you, how do you overcome the matrix, in your own life, what are the things that make the difference, nurture your soul, give you the strength to keep on, and to flourish, no matter what goes on around you?
In that journey, the call came to become a warrior and take it all on, while sorting out who I was, by living out my truth. And as I lived out my truth, many of the old wounds opened, but also many were healed as I discovered a new way of being and living that was true to how I was created, created to be, as we all are, a loving, caring human that is called to make differences in other peopls lives while nurturing my own.
Over the last 3 or 4 years, damage came to me, the result of forces of evil or false doctrines of the Matrix that invaded the airwaves, the media, the human hearts, as hate began to prevail over love.
It is only recently that I have recognized what this has done to me, how it affected my spirit, my relationships, my actions, my words. Burning resentments became the driving force, anger replacing love, hurt replacing healing. All that I cherish was being robbed from me, due to the diabolical plots embedded in the Matrix, the fabric of society, the principalities and powers in control of the media, which in turn control the minds of many, who then control the government, the law, and begin to become the agents of the matrix, often soul killers causing great harm to the innocent.
Having accepted that I cannot change these massive moves of the darkness, I began to realize that the Lord was calling me out, into a time of isolation and healing and rebuilding, it was a clear requirement to disengage, to remove myself from the theater and Hollywood, to let go of the things I had done that mattered, and to draw close to the loving God that I understand and who loves me as who I am, who He created me to be, nonbinary trans human being with the gifts and talents He installed, for purposes that are yet to be revealed, and purposes that have already been accomplished.
By reaching out to others on this little forum, I found a way to express that love, and to make small differences of self esteem and meeting other needs, of giving hope, of giving acceptance, of an understanding ear, doing the things that really matter, and in this way, instead of the angry warrior, something much more valuable and powerful has come, something in me that drives out the darkness and the night.
It is that part of me, the sh'e within, the core of me as well as the body, that must be united with the God of Love who I know and understand based on His interaction with me, over the many years, that preserved my life, for the purpose of spreading that love, and giving the strength that overcomes the hatred embedded in the Matrix, in this world, where the wars on a spiritual level are far more deadly than those in the physical.
And I began to realize that the most dangerous thing about the Matrix to me, is the buidling of resentments, of hopelessness, of hate and fear for those who threaten to take away my hormones, my personal rights of self defense, my right to freedom of being who I am spiritually without inflicting any hint of discrimination or condemnation on others, our right to the pursuit of happiness and freedom without fear, our childrens right to hormone blockers so that they are spared the horror of the dysphoria that I live with every day, just the whole madness surrounding us.
It is like being in the middle of a hurricane, but instead, being anchored in a bubble that sees through the Matrix for what it is, and becomes unaffected by it, anchoring in a bubble of love and compassion and truth, bright light defeating the darkness, just be staying alive, being true to ourselves, being free, facing down the darkness and not being driven into silence and hiding.
There are many ways to take up arms against the matrix, ways of music, art, protest, ways of a simple helping hand to someone else, but the first battlefield, for me, is always in my own mind.
For this day, I will fight that battle with love, destroying the resentments and anger and hate within, and instead, celebrating each moment I can live in truth, not letting the Matrix rob me and those I love of who we are, or of the precous gifts that surround us, a beautiful sunrise, a childs smile and laughter, a lovers caress, a given cup of coffee in the morning, a kind and gentle word, there are so many things we are given, and that we can also give.
I was deeply touched by a gift recently given me that is of enormous value, not just in terms of what it is, but of where it came from, and it has forced me to take a good look at myself, and see the darkness and the gunk that has bounded me, things that were dabbed onto me by the Matrix, by the forces of hate that surround us and have access to us from so many different places now.
This forum is a place of light, and love, it was designed that way, a place to nurture the wounded, a place to save lives. Like all things it has its dysfunctions and its challenges, it is part of the humanity of us, but the power that created it from the very beginning was love. Kindness for others, and support, being there. It is true we are a small and largely a closed group, and we have been of many faiths and countries over the years. It has gone quiet, perhaps that is us, perhaps it is just the times we live in, perhaps fear keeps some in the closet and hiding, reading form a hidden place, or perhaps we just randomly have a different 200 followers seeing us on the internet, who knows, I do not.
Don't let the Matrix steal your love, your heart, your mind, your passion, your identity, your soul. Overpower the matrix, and tell us how you have done so.
For me, it is through prayer, through friendship, through music, the arts, and through writing.
For me, it s through my God, and through You.
You, are the reason we are here, and the reason that we write, and the reason that we stay.
Tell me, my darlings, how do you drive out the darkness in you, how do you overcome the matrix, in your own life, what are the things that make the difference, nurture your soul, give you the strength to keep on, and to flourish, no matter what goes on around you?