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Post by Trinity on Jun 22, 2020 0:41:12 GMT 8
Anyone need to vent?
The one thing I am greatful for is that I did not go all the way back in the 70's and 80's, and because of that I have three living children that love me, they do not understand my being trans, but the love is more powerful than their aversion to that. (We had one stillborn child, a son, and now I am raising a grandson, and that has been kind of tough, especially today).
Had they grown up with me as I really am, it might not have been as difficult. But for whatever, I am greatful for how it has turned out.
Today has been more difficult than other ones, and that is ok.
Are you ok today, is there anything we can say to help, maybe even just...
Hugs....
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Post by Leena on Jun 22, 2020 8:16:39 GMT 8
I have no idea what it is like to have kids that don't understand, though I'm sure it is hard.
My father's dementia has gotten worse, and that bothers me more than having to pretend I'm a guy for him. If I did come out to him now, he probably wouldn't even remember the next time I called. He barely even understands what is going on.
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Post by Ativan Prescribed on Jun 22, 2020 9:04:32 GMT 8
My father went for years like that, just this steady very slow decline. Some people have this idea that it must be some sort of bliss to have dementia, but the reality is that when you lose track of things a lot of self doubt enters into everything, and life becomes more and more and steadily scary. Patience is very key and looking for the clues that they need some answer but are afraid to even ask after a while, and little key reminders of things. Life sort of devolves into the daily and even the hour by hour, so what you think of as unimportant might be the most important thing on their minds, like my fathers constant was if the milk had gone bad, which it never did, it was checked every couple days if not everyday, but it was a big worry for him, the very small reassurance that someone checked and makes sure it is OK to drink lets him be happy until he thought about it again. He died years ago, wasted away into a pretty much unresponsive state, this was after years of watching TV with the sound off because he figured that way they couldn't hear him and he was sure they could see him like he sees them. Strange things go on in peoples minds as dementia hits harder and harder, but so long as he was reasonably happy most of the time, he lived out those last years in peace. I kinda feel like we all eventually get there, but for some its years and years of a slow decline, his father was had it early in life and I'm well past those first years for my father, so just maybe I will get a few more before I decide I haven't a clue anymore about what is really going on in my life.
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Post by Trinity on Jun 22, 2020 9:44:04 GMT 8
didn't fix anything, three hour joyride which was great.
Talked to my 92 year old dad, he's pissed at Trump for going after us, pissed about a lot of things.
Hes on TV, there's an Honor Flight special on PBS, he's in it representing the world war 2 vet.
If that's the greatest generation, maybe thats why he accepts me fully as transgender.
Love, deeply, got to tell him it was because of his strength and support that I survived as long as I have, I was tearing up, I think he was just cool with it but I know he felt it. I was never able to tell him I loved him until after I transitioned, now I do it every time I talk to him.
But a decent day here, no music, just family stuff, the 4 year old was a major handful, his father is mia and owes my daughter thousands in unpaid child support that the VA gave him to give to them.
Not one for my favorites list.
But my kids were loving and supportive and still are and I am going to watch a movie with my eldest, most likely I'll be in a nightgown with a male type bathrobe over it, it won't hide everything especially my blood red toe nails, but we will have a very nice night at the movies watching Christ first in a wonderful show called the chosen, first episode is one of the very best, and then we go into Lord of the Rings again.
Its a good day.
Blessings, my dear ones.
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Post by Trinity on Jun 22, 2020 9:48:50 GMT 8
I have no idea what it is like to have kids that don't understand, though I'm sure it is hard. My father's dementia has gotten worse, and that bothers me more than having to pretend I'm a guy for him. If I did come out to him now, he probably wouldn't even remember the next time I called. He barely even understands what is going on. The first time I shaved my face my kids literally screamed. It has been a tough road for the family, and my story is softer than so many others because I can comfortably present male socially if I choose to, and most frequently I do that. Just not around the house at bedtime or in the morning or in the studio, that's full out sh'e. Its hard for them, the subject of thousands of posts here, but we have gotten through it and I love them and they love me. We are so very fortunate. God thing, I suspect. Not religion, God. Hugs
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