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Post by Trinity on Mar 18, 2019 21:29:41 GMT 8
Last night I was watching just the trans part of Sense 8 on Netflix.
Got through a couple episodes, hit the lobotomy part, won't say more about it, but in three epi's I have really had coping issues now.
Couldn't sleep for hours, when I did, I had dreams that I had a role to play in my old job, and the old man that ran the place was dealing with me, always on the edge of fired there, until I was, but it was a bad dream, in this one they didn't fire me but he wanted to sleep with me by the end of the dream, it was a weird dream, and there is always an undercurrent with me around men anyway, because of my trans sex and sexuality.
I just wanted to get it out in a thread.
Do you ever have nightmares about being trans, nonbinary?
I do, all the time.
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Post by Leena on Mar 19, 2019 4:55:34 GMT 8
I sometimes have dreams that I am outed to old friends from high school and other people I used to know. They don't really care and it's pretty anticlimactic though stressful. I guess those are not exactly nightmares.
The ones that I'm a guy in are more nightmarish and mess with my head. They seem to be happening less frequently.
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Post by Trinity on Mar 19, 2019 5:59:50 GMT 8
I sometimes have dreams that I am outed to old friends from high school and other people I used to know. They don't really care and it's pretty anticlimactic though stressful. I guess those are not exactly nightmares. The ones that I'm a guy in are more nightmarish and mess with my head. They seem to be happening less frequently. I no longer dream that I am a guy, just me. Trinity. The gender either is not relevent or is part of a larger picture, like the theater role repeating nightmare of not being prepared for an audition or stage appearance, or in the construction workplace, where it really is a thing, the interpersonal intactions based on my gender. But now, always, the gender underneath is the transitioned me, it never reverts back to who I once was before I became myself on the outside too.
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Post by Trinity on Mar 19, 2019 6:00:48 GMT 8
I dream theater every night, which is strange to me since as a result of moving to florida, I am pretty much inactive except for training.
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Post by Leena on Mar 19, 2019 8:12:00 GMT 8
I dream theater every night, which is strange to me since as a result of moving to florida, I am pretty much inactive except for training. Could mean you want to be back there, but I also have dreams I'm at work at jobs from a long time ago. Especially from when I used to work in a call center. Taking calls from irate customers when I'm asleep and not even getting paid for it is a nightmare I didn't envision when I took the job. Used to get them all the time when I was working there too.
I wish I could say that I think my dreams where I'm a guy will stop happening, maybe if I was "full time", but I don't know even then. Most of my dreams have been more about the past than the present or the future. Being visibly trans in my dreams is usually a good thing though.
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Post by Ativan Prescribed on Mar 19, 2019 10:59:15 GMT 8
I dream as if my gender is either or, and sometimes is both, depends on the dream. But if it is gendered, then I am seen as female and I am aware of being NB, the male aspect is kinda lame in the dreams, a nothing really, filler material. the nightmares just don't center around gender at all and especially mine, there is no up front awareness that has to be dealt with, but it seems to be more female than anything, but it's a filler thing as well. The good dreams are always that I am female and it seems just like it should be, and I find that curious, but then growing up it was that way, still the same, just more grown old now. There is a back and forth thing when ti comes to having sex in a dream, it flips back and forth as far as abilities to have sex this way or that, and it generally is a favorable thing, no frustration. Because of the nature of the nightmares I do have or did, I have a good med for them now, anything other than what those are almost always about is not rated as a nightmare to me, more annoyance. But those are the ones that suck the most, annoying seems to linger where the nightmare and the really good dreams are seen for what they are, the annoyed seems to stick and can be hard to get away from. But gender itself, and the way I see mine, just never is the trigger to anything other than it is there and it fills in the blanks so that the dream has a flow to it, without the realization of gender, it just wouldn't.
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Post by Trinity on Mar 19, 2019 23:17:52 GMT 8
Another nightmare last night, this time as the male androgyne actor, an audition in a nonunion theater for Godspell, for my old Broadway director, and I realized I didn't have a peice of paper for my resume, and that I had to resolve the union thing, and that the people that were the kids were more suited for the show, that I was trying to do something that had slipped away from me.
And then I did get up and start, and lit the stage up like I can do, and then the dream slipped away.
Save the People from Godspell, a song I can and do nail every time.
Strange dream. Looking for a studio or one bedroom in Orlando so I could be closer to my work, and my wife was not in it.
No gender in the dream. It was irrelevent, and I audition for male roles in the mainstream anyway, and that was where I was at in this dream.
Interesting though.
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Post by Leena on Mar 20, 2019 3:07:13 GMT 8
Another nightmare last night, this time as the male androgyne actor, an audition in a nonunion theater for Godspell, for my old Broadway director, and I realized I didn't have a peice of paper for my resume, and that I had to resolve the union thing, and that the people that were the kids were more suited for the show, that I was trying to do something that had slipped away from me. And then I did get up and start, and lit the stage up like I can do, and then the dream slipped away. Save the People from Godspell, a song I can and do nail every time. Strange dream. Looking for a studio or one bedroom in Orlando so I could be closer to my work, and my wife was not in it. No gender in the dream. It was irrelevent, and I audition for male roles in the mainstream anyway, and that was where I was at in this dream. Interesting though. Had a nightmare myself last night, and now I can say I have had nightmares about being trans. Situation was a bit implausible, so it's not bothering me that much, though I couldn't get back to sleep.
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Post by Taka on Mar 22, 2019 3:30:30 GMT 8
My latest gendered dream was a little weird, but very good. I'm not too sure what the dream was trying to do or learn, but I think I found out how I want to be. I have a long road ahead of me to reach that goal, but it's becoming something like an assurance that I am going to do what it takes to get there.Losing the wrong weight and gaining the right takes way more patience than hard work, so I'll manage, with enough time.
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