The nonbinary paradox

[Trinity]

What aspects of your nonbinaryness are paradoxically in opposition to themselves?

[Trinity]

Lol.

That one takes some thought.

The most obvious for me is my physical transition vs social presentation...at times.

Or being so sensual and soft and loving and gypsy and still ready to drive over a hundred mph on a half mile racetrack with practically no safety equipment.

Or physicall have breasts and balls, needing to shave, gorgeous in a dress and this deep rich baritone tenor voice.

In fact, everything about me is paradox, the construction estimator who is a quintuple threat in theater (act dance sing mime instruments...opps forgot tech for ligts and carpentry). Lol

Being a bottom married to...a cis bottom.

Its all paradox, its all there, its all real.

One can ask if thre learned persona is the cause of the simultaneous coexisting split in extremes.

Perhaps. Or not.

But the matrix survival conditioning could do a lot...ya think?
Learned behaviors bs how you were wired at birth.

Whats you paradox ?

[Trinity]

By the way, I labeled nothing as male or female or binary.

Are they in opposition? Or are they simply facets of living?

[Ativan Prescribed]

I pretty much see most everything as a paradox, maybe all of it, my entire life.
Dig into any conversation hard enough and you start to find the paradox that is at or near the bottom of it.
I worked too hard and for too many years in R&D to not see things in a certain way.
I see everything not as it is, but the parts of it, how the system works and why it exists, there is the paradox usually.
But for NB, just living is a paradox, the constant flipping of role playing to let others be at ease with my presence.
And that was fine tuned by doing sales for a almost as many years, you catch the things that people say and if it doesn't tell you something, you simply flip it back until you do find something.
Once you have a good idea of the person, which is easy because you have already picked up on the voice and tone and quirks with that, you also are using gestures and body movements as well.
Just standing the same way as someone can make you the good person, using their ways of seeing the world in your side of the conversation puts them at ease and makes you seem honest to them.
I used to do this to one of the other sales people and they were just full of odd little things and people could see me doing it to him, but he doesn't see himself that way so it goes right past him.
So it depends on how you do things, it depends on how you see the world around you and how that interacts with you, there are a lot of little variables and they can make a difference.
But paradox goes back in time for me to before the big bang, the paradox of the universe that isn't everything, it's just what we perceive.
The paradox of time itself, we see it as moving through it, I think it does just move past us and there are logical reasons why, but it still feels like we are moving through it.
The old trains at the station and one of them starts to move, you look out and depending, but it makes no difference, you feel like you are moving when you see it, because youi want your train to get going.
Simple things can become a mindfuck in a hurry and dig into them and most have a paradox in it that causes the mindfuck to happen.
Time travel by going out there almost as fast as light, seems like a short time to you but here it is a long time....
If two cars are going at light speed, can they see the light coming out of their headlights and then what does the other car look like as it's headed toward you...
They just realized that there is like a river of stars going through our galaxy, and at the same time they found out it doesn't look like what we thought it did.
The river is a bunch of stars that move at a different speed, and in the river they even move at different speeds, but all of them doing the different speeds are in like a meandering river through the galaxy.
And the Galaxy has a huge, massive, biggest black hole in the history of black holes... no thats trump, our black hole is huge and nearly everything spins around it and goes fast enough to not get sucked in, but some do, and even a few little black holes do, and there is the thing that I think is over the top odd, a smaller black hole can get sucked into a bigger one? They've figured out the mass's of them by the way they move, but if everything goes into one and comes out on a different something, what happens to that something when it gets sucked into a bigger black hole here?
And the biggest paradox of them all is the simple mindedness of so many people that they voted for trump and still like him, sort of.
But given a chance to vote again, there are a lot of them that would just do it again because he makes promises and they all know it's a lie, but they like to believe it could be true.
The thing that if you tell people that this something is going to change their lives and it will all be better is easier to believe in that than their own lives, they just want it better, fuck the details, it was a promise.
We all do this sort of thing, I have the idea that for trans, it will get to a point where it is a nothing thing, and people won't care and they will act like they always didn't care.
And they issued the first passport designated ad NB today or yesterday, it took a federal judge to just say it is ok and why wouldn't it be? What does it matter to anyone else?
But just that it took a judge makes it something that maybe another Coast Guard Officer is going to do a lot of plotting to inflict the most damage he possibly can, maybe he has the nuke button in front of him too.
That is a thing, they caught this officer before he actually went ahead with his plans to just fuck it all up as much as he could..., his lawyer says it isn't against the law to think about things like that.
And it isn't, but the very second you start to piece together a plan and you know that you are probably crazy enough to carry it out, that is very much against the law, big time.
So there is another paradox kinda thing, at what point does your thinking become something that will get you prison time... Know how some restraining orders are made out? Nothing happened but they just know there is evil underfoot, so there is that and if you do anything that violates it, there is your jail time.
So what we think can go to the edge and it becomes a paradoxical thing, we see our path and we see the edge, at the same time, and that qualifies.
Time is such a thing that we can't see what is coming at us, but we can see what is going away. Must be some kind of tricky thing in there that makes it invisible as it comes at us.
Figure that out and the dept of defense will be talking to you. The paradox ends sort of.
But we live our lives not as our own, we live them in ways that we can move around and past the people and things that want to stop us, at the very least tell us their opinions on NB and Chemtrails...
There's the good example of believing in the ridiculous, some people are so flat earther that one of them saw the chemicals in her backyard that she was watering with a sprinkler, and she saw all these colors. (rainbow colors)
Took pics because she wanted evidence and then got all twisted up calling the police on up to who knows how far she got to, and she was freaking, all over FB and even youtube vid that convinced who knows how many people that there is the proof of what they have been talking about since the very first time someone told them about how they put chemicals in the jet fuel that causes us to be slaves to whatever, and they bought that tall tale.
I used to tell tall tales and it was amazing the way people would get hooked into them until the end and they realize they had been had, but these conspiracy theories for everything they don't understand and how it is the aliens and the govt fucking with our lives and doing whatever.
If they wanted to spread chemicals in the air they would just use planes and do it like crop dusters, and they have, lots of times to test things like wind currents near the ground, they even do this off the tops and out the windows of buildings downtown, they want to know where the conspiracy peoples sneezes go so other won't be infected. Seriously they have sprayed all kinds of shit and for a lot of reasons, but they don't have to use chemicals to turn people into sheep, they just need to tell them a tall tale that has the govt and aliens in it and they become slaves to conspiracies and fox news... the trump paradox, see how that happened and is still happening?
We all live somewhere in the paradoxes that are stacked like russian dolls, they all fit neatly into each other and pick your paradox for the day and you really don't have to go far to find one.
They think the universe might be shells that fit like that, but then they think a lot of things about it, and all of it stirs the imaginations of the chemtrail people.