Need advice on ending a friendship

[FaerieKim]

I know I only post occasionally on this forum.  And it's weird in a way to ask advice from people online with regards to a highly personal issue.  But I feel like I really want to act on this as soon as possible, but also that it would be rude of me to act on it right now.  And I've got no one else to talk to about this and it's building up inside me.  So I wanted to get it off my chest.

I am still friends with my ex.  Well, if you can call it a friendship.  We have little scraps of conversation that don't really amount to much.  And to be honest I don't see the point of it.

The thing is last time I tried to cut her out of my life completely, she contacted me all apologetic and we had the best, most healing heart to heart conversation - and it really helped me with closure.  At the time I did want to still be friends with her.  And she said she still wants me in her life.  Though given how weird things still seem between us, and how distant she still seems to be, I can't help but wonder why she still wants to be friends with me.  I mean, what's the point?

But now I don't really care whether we're still friends or not.  And I'm in a place now where I'm totally ready to cut her out of my life completely, draw a line under it, forget her and move on.  And every time we have one of our brief, pointless interactions it brings back feelings and holds me back.

The problem is that she (very unexpectedly) sent me a Christmas present this year.  It would seem rude to do this right now, so close to Christmas and so soon after she sent me a present.  Also it's her birthday on January 6th, so I don't really want to do it near to her birthday either.

So I was thinking maybe the beginning of February or something.  I did consider simply unfriending her on social media or perhaps even blocking her, without explaining why.  But I think it's important that I be a polite, decent person about this.  So I think I'll probably message her beforehand and say that I understand and appreciate that she's been trying to be kind, but this is something I need to do to move on properly, and basically explain why I'm doing it.

But it's difficult to wait.  I feel like now that I've reached this decision, I should just do it straight away.  But like I said, it would seem really rude and mean of me to do it so close to Christmas.

Anyway.  Just putting it out there, to see what people think.  Comment, ignore, give advice, encouragement and support - whatever you feel like.

[Ativan Prescribed]

Be honest about all of it, all your reasons and how it has evolved into this, at this time.
She might be hanging on to something, maybe even trying to do the very same thing, you don't know, especially if she seems to be distant.
There is never a good time, you wait and something else will show up making you push it out further, and even waiting once you have reached a decision is just agony for you.
Trying to always be the polite and decent person just makes your life miserable and everytime the same thing comes up, more so.
It tends to grind away and once done, it is done and you don't have to go through the waiting for the right time that might not get there soon enough.
But honesty wins the day always in things like this, if not then you are hurting another person needlessly.
Honesty and just do it is how I would go about it, another thing that eats away is gone and life is better, she will get over it as soon as she is honest with herself.
The nagging thing in her mind could be the same thing, but she doesn't recognize it as that, maybe more of a connection that has to be maintained, but if it isn't there, it isn't there.
But I can be that way and not look back, when it is time to move on or go, it's time and I won't wait very long, only long enough to sort it out in my head, others can sort their own.