Anxiety from Youtube

[ar]

Tw. Invalidating NB. Youtubers. Atozy

I've had terrible anxiety after watching one of Atozys video by accident. In it he mocks NB people, laughs and question our whole being. I have felt terrible ever since. It made me understant how there are people hating me for what i am. It made me delete my twitter acc cos i felt so anxious about social media even though im closeted there.

I dont really have any questions, just wanted some ventilation. But if u want, maybe some advice or experiences? Or safe-to-watch youtubers?

[Ativan Prescribed]

Ignore the ignorant, the bullies do that to deflect the thinking away from themselves, because in reality, they are either trans or have such deep secrets hidden away that they are totally afraid of being exposed, so who easier to pick on? If the think that NB isn't going to notice and give them a free pass, they are wrong, even the friends of NB are going to see that crap, it will catch up to them.
Bullies are always on the downward slide in life, the more they bully others the less people want to be around them, all that's left are the other bullies and sooner or later they are gonna get the bigtime shakedown from one of them, and their life will be nothing but whatever it is they are afraid of, because they are, time after time, bullies get taken down because people will dig into their stuff until they find the best thing ever as a comeback, and those are the things they fear the most, its; why they bully, to make others look elsewhere instead of at them, that and super low ignorance that is at the point of it being diseased.
Every once in a while I run into that shit, and find it hard to take, I don't care who they are, a guy asked me if my long hair made me a girl, laughing in the jopes others would, I just asked him if being stupid made him a man.
The best response ever to people in real life to things they might say or call you is to look them in the eye and Yes I Am. There just isn't a comeback for it that will be good enough, you just took the fun away...
Ignorance is all around and if you let it get to you, then they succeed, better to just let it take them down because it is going to.
You just can't go around being an ignorant jerk and not have it come back and shit on your plate.

[Leena]

I mostly just watch music videos on YouTube. Don't read the comments even on those.

These channels where some guy says a bunch of controversial and hateful things, gets a bunch of followers, and then gets monetized. No. I don't watch those. Unfortunately, if you watch a bunch of trans and non-binary videos, they sometimes come up on autoplay. Best stick to music videos.

[EchelonHunt]

Watch Chase Ross, Stef Sanjati, Ty Turner, Aaron Ausuini and Ash Hardell, they are all amazing LGBT content creators on YouTube.

Chase and Aaron also run You’re So Brave podcast on YouTube and it’s great! They cover a variety of topics!

Don’t let the ignorant people get you down, there will always be people who disapprove of our existence, it’s better to focus on people who lift us up, rather than drag us down.

[Ativan Prescribed]

I'm watching youtube vids about Tesla, and there is a tower in TX that is the 2018 version of tesla's last project that they took the funding away and was never finished.
It was for wireless electricity is how he put it to bet the funding, but it really was for just about everything, communication of all kinds, internet (yep, even back then).
It was Westinghouse who funded it and when he asked where the meters were to charge money for the electricity, Tesla said, no.. this is for free electricity all over the world.
Westinghouse was in it to control the entire world electricity supply and supply lines, even if they were wireless.
So this tower in TX looks like a private company, Viziv something like that, it's by Milford anyways, which is close to the beginning of a collider bigger than Cern, but they stopped that for some reason.
There are 14 miles of tunnels underground that the military and oil companies and others use for things like data storage, umm, yah, sure, whatever you say military kind of people, and that's what this tower company if made up of, all the big wigs, which is just about all of them there, have really strong military backgrounds, all have been ranking officers up to generals even.
So should be a fun thing to keep an eye on and see what they do with it, if it works like it should, they can light up cities on the other side of the world, do that and it's the start of a world that can no longer have starving people, just because they can't get electricity to them, like Africa, there is no infrastructure for electricity, none for communications, they rely on solar and satellite phones.
The only electricity is by the hydroelectric dams by the cities that built them, the rest goes without.
So even if it was going to change the world back then, it can change the world even better today, so should be interesting, the initial testing is supposed to happen this coming year.
So free unlimited power changes it all and there is no reason for war or famine, everyone can become equal in how they live, which would be pretty good if there is free power and communications.
It would be the end of bigots and racists and dumbass fucks like trump trying to be the king of the world and take us back his childhood dreams that he saw on an old black and white TV, like the Lone Ranger, that kinda shit, Buck Rogers, kid shows that he grew up with and seems to still think they are real, and they are in his reality, because ours is fake you know...
Tesla, if you don't know Nikola Tesla, you should read up and maybe even watch a few vids about him, but there are vids that claim he is a crackpot, like for inventing AC current electricity, and then inventing AC motors, both of which were leaps ahead of the direct current stuff, Edison had a hard time understand AC and the motors, there is a lot of stuff we take for granted that came from the man, who died penniless in a hotel room.
He's the kind of scientist that a person like trump doesn't believe because trump is smarter than they are and if he doesn't understand it, then it doesn't exist, the puffed up cheeto with bad hair, about to go to prison.

[ar]

Thanks for all the suggestions! I will look into those.

Today im feeling better. Trying not to drown anxiety with alcohol. Maybe i should talk to someone irl about this, but i dont want to be seen as difficult. Im angry to myself that im triggered from his video, cos thats the way he wins. Aint gonna let him win.