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Oct 24, 2018 22:41:21 GMT 8
Post by Trinity on Oct 24, 2018 22:41:21 GMT 8
I can't get it under control. Its always been an issue under the surface, but the recent events have pushed it over an edge.
I can control myself but my thoughts are just gone.....
And I can't look at people that have that attitude that its ok to bully without wanting to retaliate.
This is bad....
What do we do with that anger?
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Oct 25, 2018 0:22:00 GMT 8
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Post by Avery on Oct 25, 2018 0:22:00 GMT 8
I've been thinking about taking up boxing to get some of the rage out. Added bonus of making me feel safer walking at night. Pretty dangerous for my ribs with the binder, especially after the scare in the spring, so I'm weighing my options
Exercise generally helps though
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Oct 25, 2018 10:11:43 GMT 8
Post by Trinity on Oct 25, 2018 10:11:43 GMT 8
Finally settled down a little.
I think it just burned itself out
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Oct 26, 2018 11:21:58 GMT 8
Post by Ativan Prescribed on Oct 26, 2018 11:21:58 GMT 8
I've been thinking about taking up boxing to get some of the rage out. Added bonus of making me feel safer walking at night. Pretty dangerous for my ribs with the binder, especially after the scare in the spring, so I'm weighing my options Exercise generally helps though Boxing is good. Self defense stuff from martial arts is even better for the streets and you can get the rage out with that too. Boxing with a big bag can be hard on the wrists if they aren't taped right, but sparing is totally raw for getting the rage out. One of those hurts so good things in life.
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Oct 26, 2018 11:40:42 GMT 8
Post by Ativan Prescribed on Oct 26, 2018 11:40:42 GMT 8
I can have some really bad problems with rage, I can get white rage, where everything turns white and I don't remember much of what happened. Never on a person, but it's hard on like a kitchen when you start by flipping the table and ripping a leg of it to use on other stuff. Blind rage, red rage, black rage, they are variations on that same theme. I was attacked and more than beat up when I was to young to be hanging out with older people, they abused me in ways that are hard to even think about. Three of them, I ran down one of them and took him by surprise, punched the back of his head as hard as I could, kinda hoping it was going to just kill him, but it didn't. He didn't even go down, but he had no idea what was going on, and he had beaten me bloody, so it was game on at that point, and I don't remember much of it, but I do remember the end of it. He had kicked me in the ribs, so kicking him in the ribs with those take a couple steps to build up the energy kind that can break them, that's what I kinda woke up to. He was in bad shape but I was when I got beat, so it got to a point I guess that I thought it was enough, but the rage was worse than the rage I felt when I was raped and beaten bloody. That kind of rage still happens and I've done a lot of things to try and control it and I think I've won on that, but it used to just pop whenever things went south and looked like it would get physical. Sometimes come out on the worse end of it, but the good thing was getting the rage out anyways, beaten and bloody and the hurt felt so good. Other times it went the other way and usually a lot to far, I am sorry for those times, I had very little control over it and it was as if I just stepped out of me for a while. But it also comes out at people who just get in mu face, then it is just the bad temper kind, and I'm really good at taking things to the edge and back, just really piss people off if they deserve it. Fast mouth that can usually just dance right around whatever they have to say, just take them down, but sometimes they certainly don't deserve it, but it helps me to keep the rage under control. It's been a pretty long time since I've really gotten physical on someone, the last time I was in the hospital I had a need to defend myself, but it wasn't a big deal, I don't know if it counts, the psycho... I really feel like I'm just to old for that shit anymore, and it's hard to move fast on a bum knee, it isn't worth a thing in a fight and it is probably the thing that would take me down.
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Oct 26, 2018 12:51:01 GMT 8
Post by Leena on Oct 26, 2018 12:51:01 GMT 8
Yes its worse lately...
I didn't think it was all that bad when there was a thread about this awhile back, but it kind of is now.
Why not hold it in and let it strike out against someone who deserves it? Of course the danger is that it will strike out on someone who just slightly annoyed you instead. That's what I tend to do anyway.
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Oct 27, 2018 11:01:56 GMT 8
Post by Ativan Prescribed on Oct 27, 2018 11:01:56 GMT 8
I have a hard time holding it in, doesn't take much sometimes for it to go off, but it is doable to just let things pass. I've been able to laugh in the face of the annoyances more as I grow older, I don't step in the shit like I did when younger. But also holding it in can be really bad for me, it has a bad effect on depression and that in turn just ruins life as it is supposed to be. But then I think that it's depression that allows rage to be triggered like it can be. I get creative about dealing with it, which can just make me more creative overall, sometimes it's just the thing to push through to the better things I can do. I hate to see people getting the raw end of the stick, walking away when they could have stood up for themselves like in a conversation, no physical fighting. I've been known to baffle with bullshit, but more so dazzle with brilliance and if I get involved, it talk fast and move in closer every time, seems to scare people a little. But those annoying people usually aren't worth my time and if I can see it that way, then I can smile and go on with my day. Younger me bot so much, in high school, I would tag someone for later when I see them outside, first one to get punched in the head usually loses, so I take advantage of that... But the sudden rage that just goes blind, I have no idea usually why and what and how long, never very long, takes like minutes and then it's just over, no emotion, no regret. And it's the regret that anytime I get into even a close encounter of the third kind rage, that can last longer than it needs to.
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Oct 29, 2018 1:12:55 GMT 8
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Post by Avery on Oct 29, 2018 1:12:55 GMT 8
I've been thinking about taking up boxing to get some of the rage out. Added bonus of making me feel safer walking at night. Pretty dangerous for my ribs with the binder, especially after the scare in the spring, so I'm weighing my options Exercise generally helps though Boxing is good. Self defense stuff from martial arts is even better for the streets and you can get the rage out with that too. Boxing with a big bag can be hard on the wrists if they aren't taped right, but sparing is totally raw for getting the rage out. One of those hurts so good things in life. I'd probably love sparring but I have a condition where if I get hit in the head too hard/ too many times my retina could detach haha so I don't think it's worth the risk. Definitely want to have a go at a bag though
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Post by Ativan Prescribed on Oct 29, 2018 3:52:55 GMT 8
A lot of the self defense martial arts isn't head shots and when sparing with that, you can request no head shots. Learn to move your head and follow their moves through to throw them off balance. Martial arts, the is a lot of things you can do and besides, the philosophy is a lot of discipline which carries over into most things in life. That's also a way of controlling rage, just the overall seems to quiet rage to a more controllable level. Just the self defense classes alone are well worth the time, money isn't a thing compared to how much better it can make you feel. I'm friends with a kickboxer who was a celebrity back in the day in Japan, and lived with a stick fighter who pretty much scared me half the time. As women, they are impressive in the things they can do, the things they still do from what I know. Their attitudes are so laid back, even in the face of it, and rage isn't an issue, hard to even get them to be mad, and they kinda laugh at my moments. I think it's just the way they learned things, going through the phases to get the various levels, they both are whatever degree and seem to at peace. One of them was always scared after being attacked and I watched her go from nervous to just having this smooth way of moving, and she taught me her moves and the way to counter them. They both were a lot of fun most times and liked to share that kind of stuff, it was a nice continuation to what I had been taught in the past. But it isn't about the moves for defense or otherwise, it's the need to control your mind to be able to do the moves right. I kinda go for that sort of thing to keep me at a level of peace, I should be a lot better at it but just can't seem to get that far into it. But I've known some people as they went through years of training and they certainly changed into better people as they did, always been impressed by that.
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