Hormone changes/ dysphoria

[FlamingOrchid]

Mtf. Hormones adjusted about year ago. Spiro was lowered bc under the impression my junk was atrophied. That compacted with weight training (I do really enjoy this) I know my T has risen and I feel I've masculanized. I feel like my bones have grown, not just muscles. I feel a friggin bump in my throat (my partner says I'm imagining it). I finally got my bloodowork done and seeing doc tomorrow. Been trasitioned for more than 6 years so such a veteran with this stuff, but wtf is happening? Not necessarily looking for medical advice, but would love to know if anyone has experienced this.

I like building muscle but miss my softness

[Trinity]

Aug 10, 2018 2:31:35 GMT 8 FlamingOrchid said:

Mtf. Hormones adjusted about year ago. Spiro was lowered bc under the impression my junk was atrophied. That compacted with weight training (I do really enjoy this) I know my T has risen and I feel I've masculanized. I feel like my bones have grown, not just muscles. I feel a friggin bump in my throat (my partner says I'm imagining it). I finally got my bloodowork done and seeing doc tomorrow. Been trasitioned for more than 6 years so such a veteran with this stuff, but wtf is happening? Not necessarily looking for medical advice, but would love to know if anyone has experienced this.

I like building muscle but miss my softness

I'm not sure, maybe Ativan can weigh in on this one.

I have been through a lot of ups and downs, its non threatening to me to shift around but I personally prefer high levels of E.

[FlamingOrchid]

Aug 10, 2018 6:52:46 GMT 8 Trinity said:

Aug 10, 2018 2:31:35 GMT 8 FlamingOrchid said:

Mtf. Hormones adjusted about year ago. Spiro was lowered bc under the impression my junk was atrophied. That compacted with weight training (I do really enjoy this) I know my T has risen and I feel I've masculanized. I feel like my bones have grown, not just muscles. I feel a friggin bump in my throat (my partner says I'm imagining it). I finally got my bloodowork done and seeing doc tomorrow. Been trasitioned for more than 6 years so such a veteran with this stuff, but wtf is happening? Not necessarily looking for medical advice, but would love to know if anyone has experienced this.

I like building muscle but miss my softness

I'm not sure, maybe Ativan can weigh in on this one.

I have been through a lot of ups and downs, its non threatening to me to shift around but I personally prefer high levels of E.

Thanks. Yeah just throwing it out there. Been feeling the gender split lately with the meds

[Trinity]

Aug 10, 2018 8:40:16 GMT 8 FlamingOrchid said:

Aug 10, 2018 6:52:46 GMT 8 Trinity said:

I'm not sure, maybe Ativan can weigh in on this one.

I have been through a lot of ups and downs, its non threatening to me to shift around but I personally prefer high levels of E.

Thanks. Yeah just throwing it out there. Been feeling the gender split lately with the meds

Gendersplit is not good...not for me anyway

Whats it feel like? Fighting?

[FlamingOrchid]

Not a literal fight, more gender confliction in my presentation/ hormone dosage. It feels like I'm deatransitioning hormonally tbh. But it's just a feeling...

Aug 10, 2018 8:45:19 GMT 8 Trinity said:

Aug 10, 2018 8:40:16 GMT 8 FlamingOrchid said:

Thanks. Yeah just throwing it out there. Been feeling the gender split lately with the meds

Gendersplit is not good...not for me anyway

Whats it feel like? Fighting?

[Trinity]

Aug 10, 2018 9:43:06 GMT 8 FlamingOrchid said:

Not a literal fight, more gender confliction in my presentation/ hormone dosage. It feels like I'm deatransitioning hormonally tbh. But it's just a feeling...

Aug 10, 2018 8:45:19 GMT 8 Trinity said:

Gendersplit is not good...not for me anyway

Whats it feel like? Fighting?

In a sense I have been feeling the same way.

Its a perception thing, the transition levels are still full low level mtf trans.  Though I have been used to double these levels in the past.

Situationally, I am drawing more on the the side of the warrior.  And if its not warrior that is trans related, but is survival related for money, it pushes my gender to the male side of things.  That gets uncomfortable when its sustained.

The mirror says I remain sh'e, but the body, and not being able to go to female stealth for more than a couple hours a week, unbalances me.

I would be very curious about your t levels, this things should be shot by now.