Had to see my shrink today so she'll still do refills on some of my meds.
They aren't a big deal and I could get them from my regular Dr, who is new.
The shrink is new as well.
2nd time seeing her, and it'll be the 2nd time seeing my regular Dr in about a week.
The regular Dr discontinued my anxiety med, simply because it didn't show up in a drug screening.
I use a very small dose, not the 10-15 that some people use 2-3 times a day, just .5 at night, helped me fall asleep.
Good sleep is necessary to keep my anxiety down during the day.
For some odd reason that she wasn't clear about, she wants another drug screen, apparently because nothing showed up on the first one, not even the drug I was taking.
Makes sense, right? So my anxiety shot up again and I told her that without proper meds, I might as well start smoking pot again.
Which worked really good for years, a couple hits watching Netflix and I fall asleep, a good nights sleep, no nightmares.
That all ended a year ago, and they decided that cutting my anxiety med at the same time would be a smart thing to do....
So not only do they think I was selling my anxiety med on the street or something because it didn't show, now they are going to wonder if I'm smoking pot again..
I just moved here, I don't know anybody, it's a small redneck town, but I can see the kids who are likely smoking pot.
I suppose I could get some or find out who is selling it in the area.
But then they will be screening me for pot because nothing showed up on the last screening for drugs...
I told my shrink that this is nothing but going around in circles and what she would do if pot did show up, which it would.
She wouldn't give me an answer, shrugged her shoulders and said something to the effect that she couldn't prescribe anything for anxiety.
She isn't doing that now, so what's the difference?
She doesn't want to see me for 3 months, so even if anxiety is getting to the point that I really need something, she's no help like she isn't right now.
But she wants the drug screen next week when I see my regular Dr who alerted her that I didn't have any drugs in my system, so she wouldn't refill my prescription.
All of this is really weird because I do have another drug that I use when I shouldn't and it should show up in a drug screening.
But it didn't... The drug screening test didn't show anything and they think it's infallible I guess.
But my regular Dr did say my blood-sugar was up and she wanted me to talk to a dietitian, but the blood test wasn't a fasting one.
I had my usual 4-6 cups of strong coffee with a lot of sugar in it just before I went there, and she ambushed me with the blood and piss test.
I did tell her that I had just drank a bunch of coffee with sugar in it, that my blood sugar was going to be high.
It was only slightly high, but she wanted me to talk to a dietitian anyways...
So now my anxiety about seeing either of them is high, and I still don't have anything for anxiety, even though I told the shrink I couldn't get to sleep at night, I end up staying up half the night, missing half the day when things are going on, there is nothing to do here at night.
So half my day is spent watching Netflix because the extremely low dose of anxiety med that worked, they took away because it didn't show, they suspect I'm the crappy anxiety med dealer in a small town that I don't know anyone in and I'm pretty old to be a dealer anyways.
So in a week I get to go see the only Dr around that I can get to, and she's going to see this request for another drug screening.
The shrink is the one I can get to, there isn't another one, small town in the middle of other small towns that are miles away, I don't have a car.
Which makes the get away from the DEA chasing me for selling a drug that I can't get because it didn't show up in the drug screening, hard to do...
She's going to want to know if I talked to the dietitian, and then question the drug screening test that I took already that showed nothing...
Kind of an anxiety inducing sort of thing, I wonder what is next, maybe the drug screen will show illegal drugs, lot's of them???
I just have to laugh, none of it makes a difference, even if mass quantities of drugs showed up, where are they? Did I sell them, am I now the local dealer in a hick town in the middle of nowhere? I'm retired. living on SS... Really, What's next? I should tell them I'm pimping whores because the drug test was fricking negative but they are convinced that I'm dealing the extremely low dose anxiety med on the street, I looked it up, they go for a buck apiece if you can find someone who wants the crappy stuff.
It's anxiety inducing, but I really do have to laugh, because non of what they think is true, but without the anxiety med, who knows how that will end.
Has anyone else watched Sense 8 on Netflix?
High drama, but it seems to keep the reality of anxiety down...