Another suicide. TW.

[Trinity]

You fucking cocksucking North Carolina assholes with your goddamned laws you put up in the name of your hate killed one of the sweetest of us just now by making her life impossible.  You fucking put her over the edge.  You flaming assholes have blood on tour damned hands.

RIP Rhonda.

May those who cause the death of trans burn forever in Hell.  Because you arent going anywhere else.

My rage is on you.  Her blood is on you.

Her death, you demons, is on you.  

Nice work protecting the innocent.

YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES STOP HURTING US AND GO FUCK YOURSELVES.

Trinity

[Valerie]

RIP Rhonda, may your soul find eternal peace, and comfort.

[Trinity]

From that board, by a member I will respect their anonymity for.

"We lost one of our own, a dear friend and great talent last night. Severe depression caused Rhondalynn to commit suicide around 10:30 pm.
If anyone had the right to be depressed it was Ronnie. I do not know anyone who has suffered more from the effects of Diethystilbestrol exposure in the womb than her.
She was born with ambiguous genitalia due to her exposure and as was the custom at the time the doctors did surgery and assigned her gender. As it turns out they guessed wrong. She lived that way until her mid 40's when she underwent sex reassignment surgery.
At times she complained of severe pain and she suffered episodes of severe bleeding.
For whatever reason she moved just outside of Charlotte NC a few years ago. As you probably know this is about the worst place in the world to live if you are transgender. She told me that people there constantly threatened her and threw stones at her. No one deserves to live like that especially Rhonda.
She had such a big heart. Last year she messaged me and asked me if I could secretly get someones address so that she could surprise them with some of her chocolates because she thought they needed some cheering up. That is the kind of person she was.
The thing is she had so much talent and so much to offer. Her chocolates were world class and her work with leather in making saddles was first rate too.
I know she really loved her animals and worked hard to provide for them and I know that like us they will miss her dearly.
RIP Ronnie..."

She wrote a suicide note asking folk to take care of her animals.

Whatever you can do to help the lives of trans, please, please, please make a difference.

No more casualties.

Trinity

[Leena]

RIP Rhonda.

As someone who lived a long time in NC, really if you are trans, figure out a plan to leave to go somewhere more trans friendly. It seems hard, because the cost of living is way less there than almost anywhere, but jobs everywhere else generally pay way more...It may not seem worth it, but being somewhere trans friendly as opposed to somewhere like NC makes a world of difference...

[Annys]

No

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Warning: Explicit language and don't read if easily offended.

This really pisses me off. RIP Rhonda. This whole bathroom fiasco is getting way out of hand. All these fucking laws and use of the bible to sanction and legitimize hate is way out of hand. Doctors and parents playing God and making the decision of the person is total bullshit. So wait instead of deciding for them and your own petty preferences and then let the individual decide when they can make their own decisions based on their internal identity? This is fucked up all the way around.

It's amazing because Asheville is supposed to be a really accepting town. Charlotte is a long way form Asheville but we do have to go where the jobs are though in most cases.

I am a bitch and will proudly claim it. If I can't use the restroom of how I present and get told something them I will piss in the parking lot and then let everyone deal with it, especially in the summertime. And no not where everyone can see either.

BTW Trinity there is a lot of our blood and our brothers and sisters deaths on the cis population. But not all the cis people though.

Charlotte NC is a holy rolling city. It is where Billy Graham Ministries are based out of. I know because I delivered a whole load of sound equipment to their "warehouse" one time. I did my best makeup and put on my best jeans and whipped the "Satanic Bitch Card" out. I felt bad because they were actually nice to me and quite respectful. So I think it is more idiots than anyone else that pass these dumbass laws. These stupid fucking politicians that have less sense than an ant and care less than some arrogant asshole that believes they have the "perfect" life with perfect hair and so on. Funny because the MFers use more hairspray than me. Wear more make up on TV than I do going out in "slut mode" and a few or closeted gays too.

Depression is a bitch but we are not alone because we have each other. I am Trans but God Damn, I am a good person and whoever don't think so can lick it or suck it or kiss it. Their choice. I stay pissed quite a bit. I don't want to hurt anymore. My anger lets me flaunt myself in the face of adversity. I wrote not to long ago in another thread that I may be trans but I am not a child molester, I am not a rapist, I take pride in the way I look and smell in society, I am not a serial killer and so on.

We have to stand strong and we have to lean on one another no matter what or how low we feel. We have to understand that we are not alone. Politicians are idiots. Local, state and federal. They end up sucking more dick than I do. They kiss more ass than the guys I date do. I am extremely clean though but they usually come out with their noses and lips proverbially brown. Or wearing a "Pearl Necklace" without ever cleaning up afterward.

I have a funny feeling that shit is starting to change though. People are sick of politics as usual from both sides. They seem to want someone that is socially accepting and fiscally conservative.

But how many more of us have to die from our own hand before we are accepted. Personally I could give a fuck less wheter I am or not accepted by society because I am and live outside of societal norms. Society and it's norms can kiss my ass and I plead with everyone of us to adopt this attitude. Especially when it gets you down. The only control people and or society has over you and your life is what you allow them to have over you.

I don't want to make light of it or Rhonda's life, but let' all raise our glasses and celebrate her life and those of us like her and mourn for losing her and then get pissed and let people know we are pissed. And most important of all, never ever let another one of us fall.

Did anyone that knew more intimately and PM'ed her ever invite her over here? I think I remember her but... It has been a long while since then.

[Trinity]

That was explicit? Well maybe a little...

Well said honey.

Rhondalynn Chocolatehaus is on facebook. She is being deeply grieved by the DES community on that site.

I did not know her, but I sure know her friends, and there is a lot of pain out there right now. This was like seeing someone walk over and slowly crush a kitten under their boots.

They want hate? They finally put me over the edge. That was the last straw for me.

God help anyone on the street that screws with me.

But to Rhonda... This world didnt deserve you honey.

[Trinity]

The suicide note and the last convo she had with a friend of hers are up on that group i am in. I wont share it here.

All I can say is, no more. Please, not one more trans death. And difinitely not for any of us here.

Let it out, talk about it...

Outlast the pain. Please.

Sheesh everything gets so trivial when you see something like this.  Like people just bitch about nothing and make it their business to be selfish.

We sooo have to be warriors for our nb and trans family when they just cant go on.  We soo have to keep reaching out and be there for them.  Love makes such a huge difference in a life, it literally can be life or death.

So tell them you love them, dont be shy.  Mean what you say though.

Trinity

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May 30, 2016 4:03:17 GMT 8 Trinity said:

That was explicit? Well maybe a little...

Well said honey.

Rhondalynn Chocolatehaus is on facebook. She is being deeply grieved by the DES community on that site.

I did not know her, but I sure know her friends, and there is a lot of pain out there right now. This was like seeing someone walk over and slowly crush a kitten under their boots.

They want hate? They finally put me over the edge. That was the last straw for me.

God help anyone on the street that screws with me.

But to Rhonda... This world didnt deserve you honey.

Do not let it be the last straw Trinity. Whenever we lose someone we all hurt. But life goes on. There are plenty of people that do commit suicide and yeah the suicide rate of trans is extremely high and it shouldn't be. All the shit we have been through should have given us a little tougher skin. Or at least God I hope and pray it did and does. Some just can't handle it. I have a lot of faith that you yourself can. Hell you are still here. We are always gonna' hit lows and that is when we shouldn't listen to all the hate filled bullshit and try and be secure with who we are. I AM A SHEMALE. I AM A TRANNY. I am transgendered and leaning way female the labels don't bother me. Hell if I was younger now days I would make money from it even. I am not ashamed of who I am or what I am. There is no name or anything that anyone can throw at me verbally that I can't handle. Why let an idiot ruin my day or let me get so low that I take my own life? This is pretty good wisdom even if you ask me.

But as angry as it makes us we can't hate everyone because we have quite a few supporters out there whether they admit it or not. Actually there are more than you actually think but they have to deny just because of the shit they themselves would catch. I understand this.

It is sad when we lose someone in our ranks but remember that there was probably way more there than just being trans or  being born "Asexual". A lot of times I wonder if I am not Asexual because my junk is so short, got boobs, and just drawn and think and being emotionally feminine. Yeah I was born during the DHT phase too and as far as I can tell I was under the influence with "vitamins" that contained a synthetic hormone to my mom because I was a high risk pregnancy.

I know this is no joking matter but I am about to go shower because I have a date tonight and just looked down and nothing but testes. Wow, hon. If I ever got an orchi I would end up having nothing but a large clit and lips. I had to go through this shit as a boy in the locker room during PE going to school from the 7th to the 9th grade. I started growing boobs in the 7th grade and eventually I ended up being an "enigma" and had a choice of different classes other than PE. Hell I got felt up more by "accident" or by some one wanting to feel a boob just to see more than a 2 dollar hooker on Hollywood Blvd on Saturday night. I did have a couple of "secret boyfriends" though. Being out in the eighties was not really a good idea in a redneck state.

I grieve for everyone we lose and say a little prayer. I may not even know them but I am them in one way or another. I just wish everyone had the same attitude that I have and that is, " If you don't like me, just fuck off. You don't have to be me and I don't have to be you. Thank God. Because you are probably an ignorant asshole."

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May 30, 2016 4:27:23 GMT 8 Trinity said:

The suicide note and the last convo she had with a friend of hers are up on that group i am in. I wont share it here.

All I can say is, no more. Please, not one more trans death. And difinitely not for any of us here.

Let it out, talk about it...

Outlast the pain. Please.

Sheesh everything gets so trivial when you see something like this.  Like people just bitch about nothing and make it their business to be selfish.

We sooo have to be warriors for our nb and trans family when they just cant go on.  We soo have to keep reaching out and be there for them.  Love makes such a huge difference in a life, it literally can be life or death.

So tell them you love them, dont be shy.  Mean what you say though.

Trinity

Yeah no more. But you do know that isn't going to happen though. Here, there is a whole lot of support.

I hurt sometimes too. You are 100 percent right Trinity. Outlast the pain. I use my pain as an influence for music. Other's as a means of activism. The whole thing is to turn the pain into an outlet for something positive. One of my best friends in a LGBT activist with very little knowledge of T and he calls and asks me question especially about NB and so on. Oh yeah he know the stand MTF and FTM but very little about the NB aspect.