Gratitude lists...what are you gratefull for today?

[Trinity]

Freedom of the forum to explore ourselves
Loving friends here
Loving friends at home
Coffee and insence and candlelight
Being me
My new eyebrows...thanks Kira and Jamie
Lovers embrace
A job thats still mine
Our tiny apartment and its honeymoon coziness as we start our lives over in ny
Ny laws for transfolks.
Hormones
Trans hugs...best in the world
Ativan getting better
Phone calls to old friends
Children that didnt walk away
My feather earings
Satin robes and silken clothes
God
Music and its return
My new body and my tiny but real breasts
My new life as my truth


Gratitude lists.  For our health and minds.  Another way to fight the battle we share against oppression.  No more lives lost honeys, no more despair.  We have each other, that can never be taken from us.

Greatful for passion and the firey diamond hearts of trans.

Trinity

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Trinity, it doesn't seem like anybody's grateful for very much these days. Maybe everybody's going through a bad patch. I kind of am myself. I've had problems with dry eyes the last 2-3 months, and if anybody's had that, they'll know it's no fun.

However, I can tell you this: I'd been out for a number of months, maybe a year or so, when a strange feeling came over me. Something I'd never felt before: I was actually happy to be alive. I've never been suicidal. Things were never that bad. But there simply didn't seem to be that much difference between being alive and being dead. Life was rather blah, not much to it, nothing that would really get you excited. You go from one day to the next, not caring about much of anything.

But once I started living as I should have been all along, my whole outlook changed. I was actually happy to get out of bed in the morning. I was looking forward to another day. I started looking for things I wanted to do, rather than things I merely needed to do. It's a nice feeling, being happy to be alive.

[Trinity]

Yes yes

I remember the first time I felt the real power of feeling my gender, of feeling fully sh'e, as I was behind the wheel on the highway.

And I have to admit, when I comb my hair the way we designed it to fall, and see the mirror, and see the face and self I always wanted to be but never could before, there is inevitably a smile that comes.

Always.