Post by Trinity on Jan 1, 2016 3:02:57 GMT 8
wow a lot has gone on
From the growth of the forum into something remarkably special- a support forum with a core of dedicated loving people, rich in music, in life, in spiritual things as diverse as the world, in current events, and in breathtaking emotional support... it has become small, but oh so potent.
On a personal note, for me, the year started with a beard... I came out at work, challenged the system, transitioned on a redneck job, sold just about everything we had and came up north to start over, at 57. I lost the remainder of my cis friends because of being trans, they could not handle it. Had a wild time with some of my closest friendships, an emotional wild ride. Hit trans puberty full on and finally grew out of the childish sexuality that came with it.
I discovered you could love friends and love them deeply, I found new courage, and someone that helped me to understand that the reactions of others to my truth is their problem, not mine. I found, or others found us, another warrior of the Spirit to fight with side by side. Lives have been touched, and some have moved on, others have changed in front of us, continuing to grow in their truth and understanding of who they are.
I went from never meeting a transperson to meeting one, and bursting into ravaging tears at the time, to meeting 30 or 40 gender nonconforming or gender transitioning precious souls, every one of them a beautiful and gentle spirit. I became fired up at what I see around me, and at the abuse I now choose to face down, instead of running and hiding. Yet the final frontier of the family holds me defeated, we will walk away, they are hopeless to change.
I raced and sold that out, closed that chapter, hid the Camero, became a grandfather. I found what I called my triune gender was more than that, discovered my full self, learned to love who I am, accepted myself as a differnent gender. I stopped running from me, I embraced and healed the child within, the gendersplit finally healed and I become one.
I saw through the matrix, the veils were torn and cast aside, and gender presentations became a way to socially fly, and then I shared what I saw, and others saw too.
In short, I gave up all, for God, for my family, for living, and gained more than anyone could possibly dream of, reunited with the arts of my youth, making a difference with the addicted transpeople sharing my long experience and victory of that well worn path, my marriage became one of truth and not deception, and finally, I started to play the guitar and learn new things. I discovered the music of you tube, a part of my life long dead was resurrected.
In short, I went from the tormented Satinjoy to the freed Trinity, and found the symphony of diamond gender is one of beauty, freedom, and strength. And I want to just keep on sharing it all.
Love to all here, next year is another of change, a new life is beginning, the old is dying away.
Nails out, hair down and heart wide open.
Love you. Now its your turn to tell the tale of 2015.
Trinity