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Post by Deleted on Sept 21, 2015 3:30:00 GMT 8
For many years i was taught it was a sin to be gay or trans.
As a result id purge, have dysphoria, compulsively buy clothes trying to relieve the hardwiring that is me.
Then purge again.
This went on for 28 years until i finally broke and gave up.
That last time, when i had failed again, when once again i had hid in the bathroom seeing my female trending self, i was in the shower with my palms on the tiles hitting my head on the wall.
I felt the Lords presence and stopped, confused. Here i was once again failing to be the man the church demanded, i should be cut off for being hopeless and a rebel. But Jesus.
I asked "why havent you given up on me?
He clearly said "i love you. I will never leave you." That was three years ago.
Find the heart of Christ. Let no one hold you back. Be your truth, and know He loves you.
Being trans does not block us from Christ.
There are many more times He has helped me since accepting and embracing being trans. I am not cut off, only bitterness interferes.
The living Christ loves us. And we are the ones who need Him most.
Dont let anyone interfere with that. How we live and love and seek pure and Spirit filled lives is no different from the cisfolks. Its a harder road for most of us, but He has us. And that is wonderful.
Love to all here.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 23, 2015 6:02:54 GMT 8
This is the whole thing Trinity. We are all born into sin. Sin is sin. We were born to make mistakes. If not we would not be here. No one is perfect when they are human.
"Here i was once again failing to be the man the church demanded" the church did not create you. Man created the church. It is not up to the church to be who you are in a Divine Light. Ok so we may be gay, we may be bi and we may be physical men and women longing to be women and men. This is unnatural in the way of nature and animals. But we are not animals. (yes I'm sure some people will use the canine argument against me with two female or two male dogs humping one another but that is a sign of dominance in a pack. Sorry but that is all it is) We are more. Even though we may go against the laws of nature to whom we love and how we identify ourselves, if we did not question and feel differently and unique then we would be animals and not humans. We are way deeper than most if not all animals on this planet. There are a few that show great intelligence and emotion such as dolphins but they are on their own path.
So your moments with Christ should be special. It should be kept out of a church and should be cherished by you. What you and Christ have is something special between you and Christ and should be special and personal.
BTW hon. The church or any man can demand you to be who you are. Once someone or something demands that you be something other than the Divine Creator Created then you lose yourself and change who you are meant to be into something the world demands you to be. It kind of sux and will suck the Life out of you if you let it.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 23, 2015 6:15:53 GMT 8
Im not so sure its unnatural.
Your last statement goes right to the heart of the issue.
I believe God fully intended for us to be trans. That its His will. And fighting His will is unhealthy.
Not good for that to be interfered with by those that know nothing of what its like for us.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 25, 2015 3:36:17 GMT 8
Im not so sure its unnatural. Your last statement goes right to the heart of the issue. I believe God fully intended for us to be trans. That its His will. And fighting His will is unhealthy. Not good for that to be interfered with by those that know nothing of what its like for us. In the natural world of animals. Not humans Trinity. But for 99.44% of animals sex is only about mating and spreading their genes. You watch most animals mate, it is anything but love involved. We do love one another to mate or have sex. There are exceptions. And also in most animal species, they don't even recognize gender in their own self perceptions. WE do. A male dog and female dog that are fixed are just dogs. One has no idea they are male or female. They are just dogs. Yeah they do hump one another but that is a show of dominance and not of sex. SO male dogs will hump male dogs and female dogs will hump female dogs and both will hump one another even if fixed just for domination purposes. And yes there are some monogamous bird species that mate for life. I think some Dolphins and whales are another mammalian species that mate for life. Is it for love? I don't know. In that last part, if you get the Smithsonian Channel on Demand. The show, The Girl that Talked with Dolphins is really interesting. Especially when the "scientific" shit because the lead scientist in charge got on LSD put the dolphins in a really messed up place. This woman worked with this particular male dolphin and when the male dolphin came of age and started getting a little randy with her, when pleased him by hand. He settled down after that. When he was sent to the miserable lab he commited suicide. Dolphins have to consciously breathe, we do it automatically. This dolphin sank to the bottom of the pool and never came back up to get another breath. Depression from living conditions? Or depression from a lost love? Either way. It was Suicide because this dolphin just gave up. But dophins and whales are a little different than canines, felines, rodents, reptiles and so on. With us, mating and sex no matter what genders is tender and loving. It is deeper than just spreading our DNA, for most of us anyway. So in a sense of the word, human sexuality is unnatural in the animal world. But it is way more special in that love is usually involved and with most animals in the animal kingdom, love is not even in the picture. It is purely instinctual. But that is what sets us apart from the animals. We are human. We are somewhat special. Yeah love between us is natural for us and then sex. But in nature it is just an urge to spread the genes. PS I didn't mean in anyway that we are unnatural. If anything we are an exception in the animal kingdom with only a few species that mate for life. we love our mates and we share something special between ourselves when we do. I have said it before and will say it again. On a Spiritual level I think we are somewhat more balanced than the average human. But the world is a bitch and will make us all think we are doing wrong but that is when we need to listen to our hearts.
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