Post by Deleted on Jun 4, 2015 20:36:03 GMT 8
Communication, vision, a unique nonbinary experience, its hard to express what we experience in words.
What is the language of the nonbinary? What I like to call Genderspeak?
Its a language of images. Of feelings. Of body language we try to express in words, of attitudes. Using a ruler to measure a 4 dimensional object, where the fourth dimension is the dimension of feeling and gender. Social constructs, heavy conditioning, it dogs every step we take.
We try to get out of the box and jump in the box. We beat on its walls and cry. Then, looking for stability, we see a fishing line and a label and we bite it. Tied to the end of a linear string. But gender itself may or may not be lineal.
We talk rainbows and unicorns, we talk forests, cities. We talk in color, seldom in black and white. We paint pictures, sing songs, to arrive at genderspeak. Music is laid down, we watch, maybe allegorical, maybe not, feelings are expressed nonetheless, and with this expression, glimpses through that dark glass come of anothers gender perception.
A picture helps, but the pics are not static, they are moments of time capturing self expression of clothes, hair, style.
But put it all together, and you have genderspeak. Language of the heart, language of a hard to define gender.
Pink bows and lace and dear and darling and sweetie and dude. All kinds of stuff, yeah, I dont have a lot of male ones myself. My genderspeak on forum can be very feminine.
Nuances of rhythm, talk of hormones, sex, fear. Its all together genderspeak.
But if we are always speaking, are we listening? Not to the words, but the voice behind the words, the heart behind the words, as the frustration and the anger and the love and the soul and the people we absolutely value begin to reveal themselves?
Isnt gender at the end of the day just Self? Playing itself out, being expressed, many ways, but its our perception of self, where we stand in relationship to the world of other selfs that are rubbing elbows with us, in so many ways, with their hearts too, bound up in no expression but rigid social expectations that strangle genderspeak?
Genderspeak is freedom. Its painting with words. Its standing at the edge of the cliff and finding the path and drifting off the path and trying to find it, backing away from the edge, thats a form of genderspeak. Its actually ativanspeak but I stole it because its exactly on the money for where my gender can take me- right into a psyche unit if I split and crash and burn on dysphoria.
What keeps me off the edge? Genderspeak and forumspeak and friendspeak and lovespeak and life speak.
Overdoing it?
Nah. I'm trying to point out that we are trapped in language because we think language is words. It isnt words. Its culture, its all that is inside the words, its pictures and music and wildness and rage and love and honey and darling anyway because its real.
Speak genderspeak, the reason this forum is so much more powerful than many things out there is we speak the language of gender. We are transparent, we show who we are, from the warrior to the damsel in distress, the dragons and the fairies, the headbanger and the broadway stage, its all language of gender.
Challenge me on it if you can, but I believe genderspeak is a whole culture, and that culture is being revealed, because we choose to reveal ourselves, not just our opinion about gender, not just how to wiggle your butt when you walk, or pass as a specific social gender expectation, but raw gender, unbound gender.
Gender as we feel it. Man, woman, transperson, rebel, real. Whatever...
Words fail. Culture, self expression, that does not fail, that is what speaks, and its speaking up now, throwing off the chains and limits of language.
.....grabs eyeliner and breifcase and headphones and knee high boots, gets into street racecar, spreads angel wings, and flies straight up to watch the pandemonium of many voices, laughing in delight as the two dimensional car leaves the road vertically to fly over it ....
What is the language of the nonbinary? What I like to call Genderspeak?
Its a language of images. Of feelings. Of body language we try to express in words, of attitudes. Using a ruler to measure a 4 dimensional object, where the fourth dimension is the dimension of feeling and gender. Social constructs, heavy conditioning, it dogs every step we take.
We try to get out of the box and jump in the box. We beat on its walls and cry. Then, looking for stability, we see a fishing line and a label and we bite it. Tied to the end of a linear string. But gender itself may or may not be lineal.
We talk rainbows and unicorns, we talk forests, cities. We talk in color, seldom in black and white. We paint pictures, sing songs, to arrive at genderspeak. Music is laid down, we watch, maybe allegorical, maybe not, feelings are expressed nonetheless, and with this expression, glimpses through that dark glass come of anothers gender perception.
A picture helps, but the pics are not static, they are moments of time capturing self expression of clothes, hair, style.
But put it all together, and you have genderspeak. Language of the heart, language of a hard to define gender.
Pink bows and lace and dear and darling and sweetie and dude. All kinds of stuff, yeah, I dont have a lot of male ones myself. My genderspeak on forum can be very feminine.
Nuances of rhythm, talk of hormones, sex, fear. Its all together genderspeak.
But if we are always speaking, are we listening? Not to the words, but the voice behind the words, the heart behind the words, as the frustration and the anger and the love and the soul and the people we absolutely value begin to reveal themselves?
Isnt gender at the end of the day just Self? Playing itself out, being expressed, many ways, but its our perception of self, where we stand in relationship to the world of other selfs that are rubbing elbows with us, in so many ways, with their hearts too, bound up in no expression but rigid social expectations that strangle genderspeak?
Genderspeak is freedom. Its painting with words. Its standing at the edge of the cliff and finding the path and drifting off the path and trying to find it, backing away from the edge, thats a form of genderspeak. Its actually ativanspeak but I stole it because its exactly on the money for where my gender can take me- right into a psyche unit if I split and crash and burn on dysphoria.
What keeps me off the edge? Genderspeak and forumspeak and friendspeak and lovespeak and life speak.
Overdoing it?
Nah. I'm trying to point out that we are trapped in language because we think language is words. It isnt words. Its culture, its all that is inside the words, its pictures and music and wildness and rage and love and honey and darling anyway because its real.
Speak genderspeak, the reason this forum is so much more powerful than many things out there is we speak the language of gender. We are transparent, we show who we are, from the warrior to the damsel in distress, the dragons and the fairies, the headbanger and the broadway stage, its all language of gender.
Challenge me on it if you can, but I believe genderspeak is a whole culture, and that culture is being revealed, because we choose to reveal ourselves, not just our opinion about gender, not just how to wiggle your butt when you walk, or pass as a specific social gender expectation, but raw gender, unbound gender.
Gender as we feel it. Man, woman, transperson, rebel, real. Whatever...
Words fail. Culture, self expression, that does not fail, that is what speaks, and its speaking up now, throwing off the chains and limits of language.
.....grabs eyeliner and breifcase and headphones and knee high boots, gets into street racecar, spreads angel wings, and flies straight up to watch the pandemonium of many voices, laughing in delight as the two dimensional car leaves the road vertically to fly over it ....
