Post by Trinity on Dec 3, 2021 8:45:51 GMT 8
A lot of us repress, and then when we accept the part of us we were trying to supress, there is a reactive stage.
And hormones seem to aleviate depression and dysphoria, but also send us into second puberty with all that creates.
After the newness wears off and it becomes our normal, it seems like there might be a reset. Almost like a detransition, where things rebalance and old traits that might have even been hated become accepted, usually associated with birth gender and forced conformance to the matrix binary, some of which are real and who we are, but we leave it behind in the excitement of transition and being who we are.
Did you experience a boomerang or a reset? Did you find yourself going to the binary side or to more of the target physical gender and leaving part of you behind, only to find it surface again?
For me I didn't leave it behind, but I wasn't in harmony with myself until later in the game, and through the years have become increasingly nonbinary. Fortunately most of the decisions I made didn't paint me into a corner, and I found myself living in all the different components of the matrix, happily. But that took a long time, like 8 years before it really started to be comfortable.
How about you?
