Post by rainbowsheep03 on Oct 24, 2019 15:00:52 GMT 8
Hi everyone!
My name's Jay (Jessie in real life - but I've been calling myself Jay elsewhere because it's more gender-neutral and i like it...). I'm 16 years old and from Australia I'm neurodiverse (Asperger's + ADD) and like to read and draw (or anything creative!) and blast rock/punk rock music! huh... where to start? Okay so I was assigned female at birth but realised that I am actually non-binary quite recently. I'm not really a girl or a guy inside - I just feel like I'm floating somewhere in between the two...The term "non-binary" just feels right and makes sense, for me.
My ummm *very large feminine chest area* makes me feel very uncomfortable, anxious and depressed as I guess every time I look in the mirror I get reminded full blast that I am physically a "girl". But that's NOT who I really am! So i feel like crying and screaming every single time I see that part of me
I really want to get top surgery at some stage as it would help me feel more myself and the person in the mirror will finally more closely match who I am inside! The thought makes me feel so happy and excited! So I've started frantically to try and save up money...Though it'd probably take a good few years as top surgery is expensive as damn
I've been presenting and dressing as a girl for most of my life, but recently I've been trying out guys clothes and it just feels so right and I feel great! So the guys clothes/gender neutral section is kind of my go to place now
Errr what else!... I have struggled with depression and anorexia for the past 3 years and am *currently* in a stage where I'm somewhat okay! Figuring out my gender identity has actually helped a lot with both those things, as it gives me something else to focus on and I know more about who I am and like hearing about others similar experiences.
I'm really lonely though at the moment, so I guess I've come on here to just be able to chat to others who I can relate to without having to freak about social skills and face to face interaction! And maybe make some friends and hear other's stories.
That's pretty much me in a nutshell Thanks for reading and nice to meet y'all!
My name's Jay (Jessie in real life - but I've been calling myself Jay elsewhere because it's more gender-neutral and i like it...). I'm 16 years old and from Australia I'm neurodiverse (Asperger's + ADD) and like to read and draw (or anything creative!) and blast rock/punk rock music! huh... where to start? Okay so I was assigned female at birth but realised that I am actually non-binary quite recently. I'm not really a girl or a guy inside - I just feel like I'm floating somewhere in between the two...The term "non-binary" just feels right and makes sense, for me.
My ummm *very large feminine chest area* makes me feel very uncomfortable, anxious and depressed as I guess every time I look in the mirror I get reminded full blast that I am physically a "girl". But that's NOT who I really am! So i feel like crying and screaming every single time I see that part of me
I really want to get top surgery at some stage as it would help me feel more myself and the person in the mirror will finally more closely match who I am inside! The thought makes me feel so happy and excited! So I've started frantically to try and save up money...Though it'd probably take a good few years as top surgery is expensive as damn
I've been presenting and dressing as a girl for most of my life, but recently I've been trying out guys clothes and it just feels so right and I feel great! So the guys clothes/gender neutral section is kind of my go to place now
Errr what else!... I have struggled with depression and anorexia for the past 3 years and am *currently* in a stage where I'm somewhat okay! Figuring out my gender identity has actually helped a lot with both those things, as it gives me something else to focus on and I know more about who I am and like hearing about others similar experiences.
I'm really lonely though at the moment, so I guess I've come on here to just be able to chat to others who I can relate to without having to freak about social skills and face to face interaction! And maybe make some friends and hear other's stories.
That's pretty much me in a nutshell Thanks for reading and nice to meet y'all!