Post by arvin on Aug 7, 2017 3:20:47 GMT 8
Hey there!
I'm a 27 year old non-binary person from Sweden who prefer they/them pronouns. I ended up on this forum after looking for any type of place where I could find other trans people to talk to. I often feel quite lonely dealing with all this gender stuff. I have friends who are queer in different ways, and a partner I find tries their best to support me in whatever way I need to be supported. But still, there is a loneliness to it that I think comes from the fact that I have no trans people to talk to or exchange experiences with. I feel I have so many questions about being out at work, dealing with dysphoria, trying to explain dysphoria to someone who does not experience it, hormones etc etc etc. All these questions, and no-one to ask!
I'm currently working as a psychologist. It's my first job after graduating, and I'm not out as a trans person at work. Starting work has forced me to come out of my little safety bubble that I had built for myself during my years at university. There the people I had close to me knew about my gender identity, and all the other people around me were all open minded and I never felt unsafe in case anyone would figure out stuff about me. In this new setting at work in a new (much smaller) town I feel unsafe and restricted. I think a lot about what could happen to me career wise if I was open about my identity, would that make it harder for me to get the jobs I want and stuff like that. I also feel I get noticed by strangers way more frequently here than before. People stare and talk about me as if though they read me as a guy (which I don't really mind, I identify more with a masculine look than a feminine one) or talk about me behind my back trying to figure out my gender, probably due to this being a much smaller place and the city I lived in before has a very large queer community.
Well, all in all, these recent experiences have made me more aware of my gender identity and that has lead me to think a lot more about how I want to deal with myself and who I am in the future. So far my first step towards dealing with this has been to muster up the courage to contact a gender clinic here in Sweden. It was super scary, but it felt so amazing to take myself seriously and really try to do what I think I need to do to be able to live with and be happy with who I am.
Sorry for the long essay, it just feels so incredibly good to have a space where I can express these thoughts.
Kind regards,
Arvin (at least I think that this is the name I want to use, not really sure about it but trying it out:) )
I'm a 27 year old non-binary person from Sweden who prefer they/them pronouns. I ended up on this forum after looking for any type of place where I could find other trans people to talk to. I often feel quite lonely dealing with all this gender stuff. I have friends who are queer in different ways, and a partner I find tries their best to support me in whatever way I need to be supported. But still, there is a loneliness to it that I think comes from the fact that I have no trans people to talk to or exchange experiences with. I feel I have so many questions about being out at work, dealing with dysphoria, trying to explain dysphoria to someone who does not experience it, hormones etc etc etc. All these questions, and no-one to ask!
I'm currently working as a psychologist. It's my first job after graduating, and I'm not out as a trans person at work. Starting work has forced me to come out of my little safety bubble that I had built for myself during my years at university. There the people I had close to me knew about my gender identity, and all the other people around me were all open minded and I never felt unsafe in case anyone would figure out stuff about me. In this new setting at work in a new (much smaller) town I feel unsafe and restricted. I think a lot about what could happen to me career wise if I was open about my identity, would that make it harder for me to get the jobs I want and stuff like that. I also feel I get noticed by strangers way more frequently here than before. People stare and talk about me as if though they read me as a guy (which I don't really mind, I identify more with a masculine look than a feminine one) or talk about me behind my back trying to figure out my gender, probably due to this being a much smaller place and the city I lived in before has a very large queer community.
Well, all in all, these recent experiences have made me more aware of my gender identity and that has lead me to think a lot more about how I want to deal with myself and who I am in the future. So far my first step towards dealing with this has been to muster up the courage to contact a gender clinic here in Sweden. It was super scary, but it felt so amazing to take myself seriously and really try to do what I think I need to do to be able to live with and be happy with who I am.
Sorry for the long essay, it just feels so incredibly good to have a space where I can express these thoughts.
Kind regards,
Arvin (at least I think that this is the name I want to use, not really sure about it but trying it out:) )
