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Post by Trinity on Jul 27, 2019 10:43:54 GMT 8
Yep, even my old doc and that whole place, they wrote up the standards of care, but they still work the old ways in there, but they at least let me make my own decisions. There is always going to be that question in their mind, because there isn't any real data out there that is enough of a sample to be reliable, they want more proof. But the proof is in how any one of us wants to live, it's like a diet, there is no one way that is right for everyone, and there is always more to getting to the goal. But look for that hidden data that is out there, turn over the stones and find it, if there isn't any, then they are basing their decisions on the wrong data because it is based on something else, someone else. One of the things that is always there for trans, all of it, no matter what it is, is being used off label, there is no real trans meds, drugs, even therapy is sketchy. Because they are prescribing something that they don't have the same level of trials with that they can reference, they will be winging it just like every trans person using whatever to try and make life better. You have to be your own lab rat and find out what is going to right for you, you can find good and bad advice and also find out what the usual is, but that is just the usual and we are all unusual. I was sharper today, but the family is complaining that I am getting very bitchy, the rage is back. P narcs me out, but the rage dulls out too. I got to Tanner 3 or 4 on P, it made a real difference, one that helps my dysphoria greatly. If I can lose the last of the pounds, I'll have the body I wanted, dreamed of. It took me 60 years to get here. Is it worth the cancer risk? There are studies that say that HRT that is estrogen only is much more risky than with progesterone. And old studies saying P gives cancer, but that could well be the old drugs, Premarin can kill you, nonbioidentical hormones can kill, look what DES did to me in the womb. Permanently. Yeah, not much data, and DES was suppressed and now can't be fully proven because all the old records are lost, but the drug is illegal since the 80's in humans. Off label stuff, my insurance doesn't even cover injectable estrogen for trans, but I will say again, it saved my life. Yeah there's rage, more and more of it, its hard to control. I just blew over a years worth of work with zero compensation. There may be a couple grand eventually, it might boil down to making about a dollar an hour. Competency issues maybe, but the family says the hormones have clouded my mind, and maybe so. Or maybe I cracked up when I transitioned at some level, maybe trans blew my mind. Not trans, but what was done to me because I was born trans, born DES transitioned. But I can let that all go. And this is why the final temptation of stealth is so strong. Because I can be sh'e and isolate and babysit and be who I really am, take my hormones and live a really nice life, and the rest of the world can go to hell as far as I am concerned, because that is all that I see here, hell on this earth in a million ways. Not the rest of the trans world, or the allies or the loving hearts, and there are many. But the haters, the people that did this stuff to me, over all the years, I don't wish evil on anyone, but I need to really let them go. If I wasn't a Christian, I'd wish they burn. But the truth is, they are blinded by the armies of the spirits of this world, its all one big cluster of evil, but one person, any of us, can face them all down and be the diamond hearts of trans. Don't mind me, I am exhausted. It would be nice to get some good news about my bike, but I doubt that can be saved at this point. So, P and gatekeepers. I am tired of the battle. It made me someone else, someone I am not, and that asshole in the whitehouse is the one that put me over the edge with his f'ing betrayals and hatred. Rallying up the bullies to use hate as a weapon, when you've had a kid spit in your face because you are trans, and been allowed to bleed out, and been treated as a prostitute because you are trans, .... I better stop, because I am not the only one here that has gone through this stuff, and I know you have been through much worse than I did, because I know a lot of your story. eeeehhh... I think I am bitchy tonight. Could be the hormone drop, or have nothing to do with it, I think it is just a lot of things adding up and finally just snapping. It was good to babysit. I think it will make a big difference to my grandson. I wonder what its like to have a grandpa that looks and is like a woman most of the time, but also can look and be so much like a man.
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Post by Ativan Prescribed on Jul 28, 2019 9:24:36 GMT 8
You put to much blame for everything on trans related things,it isn't that way at all, sure things are this and that, but everytime there is conflict in your life, you drag out the trans playbook. You tend to use blame in 100% or close reasons, when hardly anything is that way at all, no matter what or who. Neighbors dog barks at you, so you think it is trans related, people look at you funny and you freak out that trans is the reason. Dogs bark at anything and everything and that's the way it is with people as well, just because they are supposed to be smarter doesn't mean they are, they tend to always blame everything on everything else, they bark a lot. Trump is falling apart, his entire thing about the squad needs to love it or leave it was just blown when he now says that Baltimore is a shithole and that the black rep for it needs to clean it up... he obviously thinks that it is a pick and choose thing. So his racist bigoted views are just being put in the spotlight even more by himself, he doesn't need the squad to point out what a dickhead he is, he does it all by himself and in increasingly weird ways that make no sense if he wants to come off as a president. So he's wading into deeper and deeper waters and he can't swim, he's never learned to be able to stand on his own two feet, he has people who do that for him, he is a fat helpless old man with really shitty hair that is falling apart at the seams. What this does is make everyone who supports him, regardless of who they are, look just as bad as he does more and more, and the rats will leave his sinking ship and he will go down with it because he doesn't have a clue on how to get off it, the rats will leave him there. The family is just as bad at trying to find the blame for everything to be trans related, if that was really true, then it would be painfully obvious and not just a handy excuse. They tend to blame everything on that when the biggest share of their problems is themselves, nothing to do with trans. If trans was all the problem of the world, then it would be with the exclusion of everything else, world trade centers, can't say that was trans, you can't even blame politics on trans, trans has so little to do with 99.999% of the things going on in the world. How many things are actually because of trans and how many things are because people find it a handy excuse for their failures? Trans has been around long before there was a bible and probably even the concept of god, and why the fuck would god care anyways? Why does the bible care? It doesn't, it cares a lot about the real evils and blaming trans for any of it is evil in itself. What has actually gone wrong in the history of people that is the fault of trans? Name one thing, you can't because there isn't any. So stop trying to blame your life on DES and trans, it is what it is, and trans didn't do that, you did, its your life and if anything, you wasted to much time on trans in it when you could be doing better things. I've always been trans and have known it long before I even heard about trans, it's just the way I am and the fact that people can even spell it isn't any reason to use it as a justification for anything, your life is what you make out of it, trans doesn't have enough to it to be a deciding factor in it, if it really was, then wouldn't things actually be a lot different than they are and have been, it's always a low level thing, it isn't even headline news, it barely rates a mention on fox news because it isn't going to win them any business. If anything, gay is still on the front of it all, it isn't trans when they say LGBT, what they are still referring to is gay and they all know there is no war on trans, if they won what would they have won? If they lose there isn't anything that would change, either way it is a nothing in comparison to all the true evils in society, if it really was a big deal, would we even be able to have this forum? It just doesn't amount to anything other than a big pile of bullshit excuses that get laid on us when those excuses are not on us, they are on the people trying to change the conversation away from their failures into one that is an easy target, but there is no target, just that pile of shit that everyone uses to conceal that they are the ones who are failures. Name one person who has caused harm to the world by being trans. Name one person who has changed t course of history by being trans. See how just so overblown the entire thing is, the only thing that concerns other people is that they will be discovered as the true failures.
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Post by Trinity on Jul 28, 2019 9:29:30 GMT 8
Point taken and accepted.
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Post by Ativan Prescribed on Jul 28, 2019 9:59:46 GMT 8
There is still a huge lack of knowing what if anything that hormones do besides the obvious and that isn't all that obvious. There is ZERO about hormones affecting memory and the like, if it were true, then wouldn't it be like hugely obvious? And as far as hormones doing anything at all besides what you want from them, then everyone would be having all of these problems because we all are based on hormones of all kinds, all the time. People get this idea that hormones are like a drug or something, when in fact, everything we do, even think is based on the functions of hormones in our bodies. Trans is nothing more than a simple out of balance of a couple hormones out of the hundreds we use all the time. Both women and men have hormone imbalances that they use hormones the exact same way, the only difference is if they want this result or that, it has nothing to do with the bible or god, its a couple hormones that we would die without. That trans is such a minor thing in medicine, it just shows how little data there is for the effects and besides, they have been used for decaders and the world hasn't changed, other than just another bunch of pricks trying to run everyone else's lives because they can't run their own. But really, that there is no hard and fast data just points to the fact that they do what they are used for and nobody has grown little horns on their heads or a extra arm, or head, or leg or anything, life just keeps going on. They take away hormones for any of the reasons that are commonly used as excuses would mean that nobody gets them then, because if they are all that bad, then they fuck up everyone, and a lot of people take them for reasons other than trans, a lot more. E is usually prescribed with the the exact in fact the same prescriptions as birth control and the only thing that went wrong there is that republican woman keep blapping out republican babies who grow up to be Pence.
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