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Feb 9, 2016 6:38:54 GMT 8
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Post by Trinity on Feb 9, 2016 6:38:54 GMT 8
I have noticed lately that I am much more generally angry, much more apt to snap back, and certainly quick to fight back in matters concerning trans.
There is a lot of anger in me now that was not present as much prior to that moment of acceptance of being trans and all that goes with that acceptance.
I am wondering if others have gone through this at a stage in long term transition. I am 3 years into the process now, 3 years ago I started with the shrink on the HRT quest.
Today I went off the edge a bit, fought to get back on it, its over the repeated insurance denials of my estrogen. Which is illegal and resulted me calling the state attorney general.
Add to it that One of the girls in our AA meeting had a criminal trial going against the guys that jumped her and broke her jaw because she is trans. They were aquitted, because the state couldnt decide which of the three guys actually broke her jaw, so they let all three guys go. Pretty girl, if you knew though what she has endured, you would be enraged too. Its a whole lot worse than just a broken jaw. There is more too than that, I don't want to trigger all of you with the tale of woe. But its not hidden from me anymore, not here on the streets of NY.
Does it go away, the anger? How do we get it out of us?
Love from Fairy
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Feb 9, 2016 6:52:45 GMT 8
Post by Shan on Feb 9, 2016 6:52:45 GMT 8
No being angry is human eventually you learn to take control over the emotions that govern rage, so that it's only a smoldering anger as you begin to look at those that cause it and consider if it's worth going to prison for killing them or learn to just cool your jets. No one is blaming you for what you and your friend have endured. Let me offer advice as a former insurance adjuster, you need to contact your state insurance commissioner and file a complaint. An insurer is bound by law to uphold the terms and conditions as it is a legal and binding contract. Good luck, we're all with you dear!
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Feb 10, 2016 2:12:27 GMT 8
Post by Deleted on Feb 10, 2016 2:12:27 GMT 8
No, Trinity, anger is quite understandable. Cispeople give us plenty to be angry about--just one of the sins they commit against us. I get quite angry myself quite often at the sheer stupidity and hatred they demonstrate.
I have noticed your anger in recent times. I don't know what sort of support you have at home. But you have us. Believe me, we understand.
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Feb 10, 2016 5:19:59 GMT 8
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Post by Trinity on Feb 10, 2016 5:19:59 GMT 8
thanks Fox.
Gee Shan's new avatar looks really great.
No drama here. But I feel like the anger level is really white hot for me now, its built up over a very long time. A long, long, long time.
I just don't quite know how to get rid of it. I have seen anger destroy people, so anger is therefore an enemy. It drives me to make a difference, it drove me in the theater to do political theater.
Maybe that's the answer...
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Post by Taka on Feb 12, 2016 5:16:25 GMT 8
at least you feel anger. that a huge upgrade from fear and shame and constant self blaming.
i'm not to sure how i made it go away, since it wasn't a conscious act on my part. it might have to do with accepting reality on a deeper level, taking my responsibility for my own life choices more seriously in the way that i forgive my past self's poor decisions so i can fix what's going on right now and plan for the future i want. it's odd how this made iy easier for me to deal with both anger and anxiety.
when it comes to justified rage on someone else's behalf, i express it directly to them, thus taking on a part of the burden of the injustice they suffered. that can sometimes be a better support than comforting, showing them that it's not their fault and the perpetrator really is to blame.
just always remember to only pick fights you know you'll win, and let the rage fuel your determination rather than influence your words or actions.
oh, and don't go turning people into sacrifices of some satanic ritual just because of a little rage, no matter how justified. not as long as you have family relying on you at least...
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Feb 12, 2016 5:30:03 GMT 8
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Post by Shan on Feb 12, 2016 5:30:03 GMT 8
There's loads of wisdom in your advice Taka. I think you hit the nail on the head about taking responsibility for your own feelings as it seems that no one can really make another person unhappy or angry, those are our own feelings that we allow ourselves to have and often they are non-productive and bring on negative results. I was just talking to a young lady at the meat market and asked her what's new in her life, she shared how she was renting a newer house and was thrilled by the prospect of change, and how she's planning to buy her own place eventually. She was radiant as she related this, and it was clear to me that having a plan and working to achieve the goals is positive reenforcement on the inner being and promotes happiness.
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Feb 12, 2016 5:46:04 GMT 8
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Post by Trinity on Feb 12, 2016 5:46:04 GMT 8
It seems to have crashed into a bit of depression. Great posts. Eagle you are deeply missed, but i have little flutter at the moment.
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Post by Taka on Feb 13, 2016 3:05:54 GMT 8
oh, no flutter? then you should rest on a beautiful flower.
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Feb 13, 2016 4:26:47 GMT 8
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Post by Trinity on Feb 13, 2016 4:26:47 GMT 8
oh, no flutter? then you should rest on a beautiful flower. Now theres flutter... (Turns red, hides.)
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Feb 13, 2016 4:48:07 GMT 8
Post by Taka on Feb 13, 2016 4:48:07 GMT 8
oh, no flutter? then you should rest on a beautiful flower. Now theres flutter... (Turns red, hides.) oh, you're such a flutterer... you should know though, that you can easily reach me on that hangouts thingy. if i forget to log on here often enough.
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Feb 13, 2016 7:19:57 GMT 8
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Post by Trinity on Feb 13, 2016 7:19:57 GMT 8
Now theres flutter... (Turns red, hides.) oh, you're such a flutterer... you should know though, that you can easily reach me on that hangouts thingy. if i forget to log on here often enough. Time and distance dear one makes that hard since I moved to NY. But I can flutter here. In a gentle kind of way. It is great to see you posting. You healed things in me, and now I grew up and found peace. Its is nice to feel pretty. It is nice to be whole and free. It is nice to fly...
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