What is my mission.?

[Laura J]

The past few weeks I've been getting back into church with my wife again.. 
We always went regularly, but I got lazy and stopped going quite a while ago. 

But these past few weeks, the message in the services (at 2 different churches) have been the same, 
To work towards your mission in life, or thing that God is laying on your heart.. 
This idea has just been so strong in my mind lately, it seems to just get verified at every turn I make, and everything I do.. 

I just don't know yet what this calling of sorts is.? 
I know it has to do with Trans teens, and trans peeps of other ages. 
I can't get the 42-47% suicide statistics out of my mind.. 
They make me cry a lot, almost every day..
I feel so strongly about that, and it's always mixed into every prayer and 
meditaion time I spend searching for God's will for me.. 

One of my daily meditations and prayers, is to lay my trans and all that it includes at Gods feet, 
and ask that I may be used and bless others by this way I've been made.. 
I always get such a peace of heart and mind when I do that, as if God says, don't worry about anything, I have everything in control,
and you'll do wonderful things in the days to come.. 

The past few weeks I've felt very empowered and much more confident that I was just a month ago, 
But I'm just not sure whats ahead..? Whatever it is, I'm excited, yet apprehensive, but know it will be what I am supposed to be doing.. 

So I wait... Hoping I'll be ready when the time comes to do whatever.? 
I suppose this isn't a question or dilema that needs much advice, although I'm happy to hear anything anyone has to say, it's just a 
part of my journey I wanted to share.. 
Bless us one and all... 

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Unfortunately mine is just to get to a hundred percent mentally healthy. And help.transfolks and alcoholic s.

[Laura J]

I should add, that both my wife and myself are licensed foster care givers in Florida, we took all the MAPP classes and have been approved to be foster parents, and that may well be a part of this.?

I would love to provide safe environments for trans teens who've been turned away by they're families, or are homeless.. I know no one in the foster system wants anything to do with these teens, but I would just love it.

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Don't overthink it Mark. Whatever it is it is within you. When it is time you will know. But then again, maybe not.


Personally I believe that our missions or whatever you want to call them are multi faceted. Maybe your whole purpose in life was to forgive one person that cut you off in traffic instead of feeling negative emotions about it. But there are way other things that we can learn and do besides the whole Karma thing.

Foster parents really? Sometimes we have no great mission in life but nothing other than to help one other person. This seems so insignificant when there are millions that need help in the world, but it's not insignificant. Maybe there is a child out there that can benefit from your understanding. When the time comes though. What your mission is? I don't know. Maybe to be a compassionate caring non judgemental human being with empathy. Personally I believe that our main mission is to model our lives after Christ's. Loving to one another, non judgemental, compassionate, empathetic and so on. If there is something else then you can never go wrong with trying to live, believe and think like Christ did.

But don't overthink it. Just let it be and come to you when the time is right. You may never even notice it. God doesn't scream commands but rather whispers suggestions. remember the whole Freewill thing. 

[Laura J]

Feb 11, 2015 3:43:04 GMT 8 @julieblair said:

Feb 9, 2015 12:27:58 GMT 8 Laura J said:

I should add, that both my wife and myself are licensed foster care givers in Florida, we took all the MAPP classes and have been approved to be foster parents, and that may well be a part of this.?

I would love to provide safe environments for trans teens who've been turned away by they're families, or are homeless.. I know no one in the foster system wants anything to do with these teens, but I would just love it.

Mark you have a big heart, the need is enormous and things sometimes seem to be getting worse.  Last month I wasn't allowed to work the streets and spent three hours instead making box lunches for others to hand out.  There was concern I was becoming a target.  The predators who hurt trans kids, and even cis street kids, aren't above hurting old transwomen either it seems.
j

I'm so sorry Julie.. Yes, why can't people understand we're just trying to help others.? Even lend a hand, but they try relentlessly to keep us down.. 
I get so tired of society sometimes.. 

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Feb 11, 2015 9:01:10 GMT 8 Laura J said:

Feb 11, 2015 3:43:04 GMT 8 @julieblair said:

Mark you have a big heart, the need is enormous and things sometimes seem to be getting worse.  Last month I wasn't allowed to work the streets and spent three hours instead making box lunches for others to hand out.  There was concern I was becoming a target.  The predators who hurt trans kids, and even cis street kids, aren't above hurting old transwomen either it seems.
j

I'm so sorry Julie.. Yes, why can't people understand we're just trying to help others.? Even lend a hand, but they try relentlessly to keep us down.. 
I get so tired of society sometimes.. 

I'm not Julie but society sux. Some do understand, others don't and still yet others are ignorant and just hate. Tasers are really good. If you can find rubber bullets for a .25 or .38 with just enough powder to hurt and shock them but not kill them, then that is another option but it is really hard to find that kind of non lethal ammo from most places.

Personally Mark I think they try to keep us down because of something that is deep within themselves they don't want to let have freedom for. If so they may find they are more like us than what they would like to believe. A little.25 caliber with non lethal ammo that will leave a bruise the size of a half dollar or bigger will scare the crap out of someone. They will really think they have been shot with normal ammo. It's enough to allow you to get away to safety at least.

[Laura J]

I agree Jamie.!

Do they even realize when they say "why can't we just be happy the way we were made", that that's exactly what were trying to do.?

Ignorance really is bliss I guess.

Thank you..!

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Mark and Julie... You are such amazing, inspiring people. *hugs*

I believe both of you are already making a great difference in the world.

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Feb 12, 2015 23:18:25 GMT 8 @julieblair said:

Feb 12, 2015 23:12:58 GMT 8 @pikachu said:

Mark and Julie... You are such amazing, inspiring people. *hugs*

I believe both of you are already making a great difference in the world.

And you make a great difference in mine.

Awww... *warm huggles*

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Feb 9, 2015 12:27:58 GMT 8 Laura J said:

I should add, that both my wife and myself are licensed foster care givers in Florida, we took all the MAPP classes and have been approved to be foster parents, and that may well be a part of this.?

I would love to provide safe environments for trans teens who've been turned away by they're families, or are homeless.. I know no one in the foster system wants anything to do with these teens, but I would just love it.

Good plan Mark and very selfless of you, now run that past your spouse and if she's on the same page with it then follow through and keep us abreast of your progress. Teens can be a real challenge and they will need boundaries and expectations put on them just as if they were your own flesh and blood.

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My mission is to attain enlightenment (or illumination) while expressing what I learn to others through writing, entertainment or tutorship. I love to help others in every way I can.

I will soon be taking life coach training by my friend Meredith and her parents. I will be their first transgender coach for their organisation Overcoming Coming Out.


www.facebook.com/overcomingout

www.overcomingout.com

[Laura J]

Feb 13, 2015 6:22:48 GMT 8 @illuminess said:

My mission is to attain enlightenment (or illumination) while expressing what I learn to others through writing, entertainment or tutorship. I love to help others in every way I can.

I will soon be taking life coach training by my friend Meredith and her parents. I will be their first transgender coach for their organisation Overcoming Coming Out.


www.facebook.com/overcomingout

www.overcomingout.com

That's amazing.. I know you'll be very good at that Arin.! 

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Feb 11, 2015 20:39:16 GMT 8 Laura J said:

I agree Jamie.!

Do they even realize when they say "why can't we just be happy the way we were made", that that's exactly what were trying to do.?

Ignorance really is bliss I guess.

Thank you..!

No not really Mark. Most people want others to be happy the way themselves were made. It's the human ego. I am not immune to it either. I see cispeople and think, "Poor things. They only have one perception or view of the world." To me that is kind of sad because I have experienced both sides. I don't judge though, never will but I can feel sorry for them for lack of dual perspectives. It may not feel like it and life sux and society sux even harder but we are truly special and lucky. I think we know that deep down but others don't. No we are not "normal", we are truly special. OMG sounds like I'm a cheerleader full of BS. But not really though. I truly believe that we as people, spirits, souls or devine beings created by a creator we are truly lucky and special. Persecution whether verbal or physical usually happens because some one is scared or the one they are belittling. That my dear is just human nature. One person was persecuted because the upper echelons of society was extremely scared of him. This is in reference to history and not the Bible. "So belittle me all you want, persecute me verbally all you want. I know why. I scare you because you are more like me than you are willing to admit". Not you or anyone here but anyone else in society that supposedly feels the need to hate us for being more like them than they have the courage to face from themselves.

Another thing we are lucky for is knowing ourselves inside and out. It may not seem like it but a lot of people would give their lives to be able to understand themselves inside. We do. We feel a disconnect between the body and Spirit. Many great people have had to work so hard to separate one form the other and for us it's just second nature.

Sorry to go all Spiritual and so on.

Yeah ignorance is bliss but stupidity is a sin. I know that so many feel but can't accept themselves like we do. I have no idea why people tell me all the shit they do IRL. Maybe I am just seemingly harmless. Maybe a little understanding. Maybe non judgemental. Maybe just an open person but for some reason people tell me shit that I don't really even need to know about them. OMG some of it is so personal. I try to help the best I can. Maybe this is my mission in life, I don't care though. I try to help because I genuinely care. If I can help one person feel better about themselves or save them from the "S" word I would gladly spend eternity in Dante's Inferno. Not from vanity or pride but because I genuinely care. I could give a shit less about me. I do what I do. I am who I am and make no apologies unless I hurt or embarrass someone else but I am me. No apologies for being me. When we lose one of our brothers or sisters I hurt. What could I have done? If they could have talked to me, could I have persuaded them into a different direction. What is your mission? What is my mission? I think the answer is to be the best person that you can be and that's all. There are no set missions in life. We just have to be the best us that we can be.

Worrying about specific missions in life will drive you crazy. Just be you Mark. That is your mission. You are a good person and that is all you need to be. That is everyone's mission in life. It may sound stupid but simplicity is the always the most obvious answer.

[Laura J]

Feb 14, 2015 4:34:12 GMT 8 @jamie said:

Feb 11, 2015 20:39:16 GMT 8 Laura J said:

I agree Jamie.!

Do they even realize when they say "why can't we just be happy the way we were made", that that's exactly what were trying to do.?

Ignorance really is bliss I guess.

Thank you..!

Worrying about specific missions in life will drive you crazy. Just be you Mark. That is your mission. You are a good person and that is all you need to be. That is everyone's mission in life. It may sound stupid but simplicity is the always the most obvious answer.

Thanks Jamie, I know what you're saying... 
But just being me and understanding myself isn't what I'm trying to find regarding this issue, and that would be shutting out or turning away from a deffinate (thing, job, mission, passion, or calling) that I feel being pulled towards.. It may only be one small thing I do in a day, or something more permanent and longer lasting, but I've definitely been feeling spiritually pulled towards something, and I'm just trying to find that something.? I'm patient, I'll wait, and try and be open at the right time, in the right place..? Thats all I know for now... 

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Feb 14, 2015 8:16:45 GMT 8 Laura J said:

Feb 14, 2015 4:34:12 GMT 8 @jamie said:

Worrying about specific missions in life will drive you crazy. Just be you Mark. That is your mission. You are a good person and that is all you need to be. That is everyone's mission in life. It may sound stupid but simplicity is the always the most obvious answer.

Thanks Jamie, I know what you're saying... 
But just being me and understanding myself isn't what I'm trying to find regarding this issue, and that would be shutting out or turning away from a deffinate (thing, job, mission, passion, or calling) that I feel being pulled towards.. It may only be one small thing I do in a day, or something more permanent and longer lasting, but I've definitely been feeling spiritually pulled towards something, and I'm just trying to find that something.? I'm patient, I'll wait, and try and be open at the right time, in the right place..? Thats all I know for now... 

When the time is right you will know. Just don't drive yourself nuts trying to figure it out. When the time is right, your mission or destiny will be fulfilled. Then still don't worry about it. Just be Mark. hell hon, your whole mission in life may be to helps someone here. It may already have happened or will happen. If you feel pulled toward something just let it pull you without overthinking it or trying to figure it out.

Eventually that will become evident and you will never know it. Sorry but Divinity don't work through grandeur. You feel pulled? Follow it but don't be surprised if you don't ever find it. It don't work like that sweety. If it does then vanity and pride follows and then you fall from grace like a lot of others. Just follow your own heart. You may never know when you find out what you are being called for. There is no waiting. Just follow your heart and do whatever. You may never know and always feel the pulling. That my dear is Devine. If you ever think you completed the mission and di this or that or another then you will fall from grace because vanity and pride will take over.

Our missions or callings are never ending. If ever we think we succeeded then that is not the true answer. It is a never ending want or need to succeed or fulfill that "mission"until our last breath and then we will know.

I know it sound stupid but I am very Spiritual and philosophical and there are no easy answers. But what we need is inside each of us. Sorry to be taking in so many riddles but...There are no easy answers in this life. Just be Mark. From what I know of you form the forums, Mark is one helluva person as is. You can go farther though but that is up to you and no one else. That may be your calling.

But you will drive yourself nuts if you try to figure it out. If you do try to figure it out, you will probably end up failing. Just let it come to you. That is how these things work.