Partially new. Re-hello?

[Annys]

I am finding that myself is changing. Or at least my perceptions are. Either way I am losing recognition of who I once saw when I look both in the mirror, and more 'inward'.



I posted here as "Mina", which at the time was the most honest name I could come up with. "Wilhelmina" has been my secret name for myself since childhood, and I wanted to wear it publicly. It was even suitable, for a time.



But there's a lot of power and importance in a name, in how we choose to present. That name is no longer sufficient for me. Mina is still here, as she always has and always will be, but she is not the whole of me. I am starting to understand that I am more than that, and "Mina" no longer fits when trying to express the core I am beginning to see. So I no longer wish to use it.

"Annys" is apparently derived from the Greek, meaning "whole", "complete", depending on where I look. That fits what I am trying to be, for now, so I am going to try it out at least for a while.

I may continue to change my name/face here again. Hopefully this thread will help to alleviate any confusion I bring to all of you as I experiment.

So hello, again, from more than just one aspect of me.

[EchelonHunt]

Welcome Annys, what a beautiful name

[Deleted]

Welcome back. We can always change our names. We can choose our names. I didn't because my mom wanted a girl and my dad was so into her that he gave her whatever she wished so I ended up Jamie. I won't even go into what my second name is because it is another take on a female name. AHH. I have nothing to hide. My second name is Dana. OMG if anyone was born to be a sissy it was me. LOL. I was so screwed to be trans from the beginning. Let's see my mom prayed for a girl. I was a highrisk pregnancy so she was pumped up with DES. I guess god granted her prayers. Maybe mine too. One definate thing about it though is that I won't have to ever have to change my name in order to transition. Hell it's already there. The only thing I would have to change is the F or M on my IDs and license. Shit when I first got my license, there was an F on it even though I marked M. They though it was a mistake on my part. :rolleyes:I should have left it F. Then I wouldn't have had to sign up for selective service when I turned 18. Even though I joined the Army. But I could, well I just could have transitioned with HRT with no problems.

Hell with my name and being a senior in HS, I got sent a femal ring because of my ring size and name and the ring company though the M was a mistake. I got to keep the female one too because they had egg on their face when I complained. It is really funny and ironic now. Back then it was a rush and I was so freakin' elated. Sometimes when we are young and we feel like shit because of this transgenderism, it isn't though. When you look back, sometimes it seems it was meant to be. If we make it through we end up way stronger. I'm not really that worried about those of us that make it through, I am so worried though about the ones that don't want to make it through at that age. It will get better though.

It is so hard for me to tell anyone to hang tough becuase I cried my eyes out every night when I was young. I thought about ending it. I found a way to make it work and everyone should too. Today is different. In the eighties many of us ended it way too early. It is still hard and I won't sugar coat anything. Being Trans is always gonna' be hard because it is so fuckin' complicated. But I'm still here. And if a weak little girl could survive all the BS from a long time ago, just talk to me. PM me or call me out by name in a post. Curse me. Hell I am a bitch so anything anyone says won't hurt my feelings. I am here to try to help.

Shit I got a big mouth. :rolleyes:But I am a woman so yakkity yak. I talk to much. Who cares?

[Ayla]

Oct 1, 2015 11:12:22 GMT 8 Annys said:

I am finding that myself is changing. Or at least my perceptions are. Either way I am losing recognition of who I once saw when I look both in the mirror, and more 'inward'.

I posted here as "Mina" ...... (but) that name is no longer sufficient for me. Mina is still here, as she always has and always will be, but she is not the whole of me. I am starting to understand that I am more than that, and "Mina" no longer fits when trying to express the core I am beginning to see. So I no longer wish to use it.

"Annys" is apparently derived from the Greek, meaning "whole", "complete", depending on where I look. That fits what I am trying to be, for now, so I am going to try it out at least for a while....

So hello, again, from more than just one aspect of me.

Annys

Nice to 'meet' you and 'welcome back.'  Great post.  Change is just about my only constant.  I also seem to be a little different 'inwardly' every time I 'look'.  This is both exhilarating and a little discomfiting.  It has now got to the point where my birth name feels a better fit than either of the names, Helen or Aisla, that I have used online.

Naming does give power but at another level it is just a label and like many labels they may be situationally relevant but otherwise may not fully reflect or describe my soul or 'my content'.

Confusing really but my birth name can be quite andro so I am good with this.  Feels more than a little ironic that in part of my life I have described a full circle and come back to my name having met my self.

safe travels

Aisla

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Yeah me too though trinity is good. I changed from satinjoy.

Its an adventure. But my guy name...yeah its me too. Carries history.

But the moment the feather goes in the name heads to trin.

Great posts by the way and glad you are speaking up Annys.