Did you think you would lose yourself when you transitioned?

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Did you think your personality would change when you transitioned?

Did it?

Did you become someone else, maybe someone you didnt know before? Or did you become you?

Or did you find during therapy and seeking your truth you stripped away the layers of self and found out who you really are deep inside?

I thought mine would change.  It did, and it did not.  Instead, new peices of self were discovered, came back, but the old peices of self never left me.

Everyone around me was afraid the old peices of self would die and fade away, that I would no longer be dad, or hubby, or ...(guy name here).

Instead, I became Dad+, Hubby+, real me + old me.

And I also became sh'e.

How about you?

How much did your core personality change once the hormones flooded in?

Love to all here...

Trinity

[Edge]

Nope and nope. I didn't "become someone else" and I would hate it if I did. I had already had therapy and found out who I really am before I started realizing I'm trans. That was probably what led to it. The only thing that changed was that my music tastes shifted slightly once I started T and the only reason I mention that is because someone else I know had her music tastes shift slightly the other way when she started E.

[EchelonHunt]

I didn't think I would lose myself when I began transitioning. I just knew that if I did not transition, I would lose myself.

I was me all along, just a muffled version. With therapy and support from family and friends, I learned that it's ok to be myself, to have a voice, to have needs and wants. Testosterone, in a way, helped me become more comfortable with expressing myself and learning to accept myself for who I am.

My personality changed from depressed, low-self-esteem, timid and a coward to happy, high-self-esteem, confident and fearless. So yeah, it did a 180, that's for sure.

I still like Poke'mon, cats, shiny things and horror movies so that aspect of my personality hasn't changed.

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I changed, lost or misplaced big pieces of me.

Got much more loving, more emotional. More needy.

I found someone I lost in the third grade.

The core changed. It's different. In different ways.

Everything has changed. Nothing is as it was.

He, yeah he's the same but stronger.

He's a better man for changing his body to an mtf androgyne. He learned so much.

Same guy, but another battle engaged, one of many through the years.

The battle with h'er, that's changing, we're learning there too. To love each other for who I am now.

I'm the same. But very different.

Did I lose the old one?

No. That person will always be, it's just the other parts are finally allowed to be.

And so, they are.