trans New experiences, New moments for you

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I get rid of the bump in front...

Whatever mode im in.

Yup baby steps, see whats comfortable. Take your time. Feel everything...

Trinity

[Ativan Prescribed]

At times I think of my HRT as the 'I'm not going to kill you' stuff I take.

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Being out as i look in the avatar which is my blended balanced look, and pretty strong that one, meeting now about 20 transfolk, finding the artists and walking the streets where there are somevstares but no challenges is all new.

A young indian girl moved her seat yesterday, that rigid guyanese culture is filled with brutal bigotry. I just shook my head. I live within that culture very stealth. They'd kill and shun and force a marital split.

Pthah to that.

But learning there are safe cultures and tribes within them is great.

I dont know where my path is headed, i know the mission completed in fl, this one is just starting.

I have a wicked desdline at work. An innocent eastern bloc jewish guy was asking about my rings, i went dear in the headlights and froze. Im not going to be a trans crusader in that place its hardcore business and you dont screw with ny construction italians. Peoples knees knock if the big boss calls them in you can smell fear everywhere. But they also take care of you. Nothing you can point to...its culture...

And nobody messes with me there they wanna work and my hair is combed back.

I finally said i was a hippie, a 60s child, im a bit renegade.

If nothing else is said ill be silent. If it is ill chat with the personnel guy about how best to handle it and stay under the radar. I dont want it to be a thing there. I am just there to survive.

Blended feels good. Someday ill have hair on and still be that truth without feeling a need for personna.

Trinity