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Post by Ativan Prescribed on Sept 20, 2019 9:18:05 GMT 8
i am not well having some full-out anxiety/panic attac that by now is lasting more or less 12 hours and its becoming a pattern that i have them and that they last so long iknow its work fault. hellload of stress, everythings priority, whatever i do something ends up wrong and ill panic getting lightly reprimanded for it. already planning to leave after my contract runs out, go studying next year and change it all but i fear ill not make it there, the only thing keeping me going how i count down the weeks till its over really should get a therapie too, for anxiety, burnout, depression, whatever the core issue is bc this stopped being manageable Yep, breathe... use breath control, slow deep breaths, breath in through your mouth and exhale through your nose. Mental imagery, don't picture things going wrong, deal with that when it comes up, but picture the things as they should be right. Music that just sets a better mood, play it a lot, lots of music, music works for most anything. But don't dwell on things that might happen that cause you anxiety, just like counting down the weeks, use you thoughts to better see yourself in the near future, once the contract is up. And if you are going to leave, then all the negatives there really don't mean all that much, right? Just do your best and if that isn't good enough for them, then let them know that their brand of treatment is a big cause for things done wrong, they create the anxiety and that in turn creates the things they don't want. It isn't you, its them, if they think their actions will get better results, they're wrong, it simply isn't the way it works, you give people the things they will be able to do well and then its not a problem. Trying to force issues with negative attitudes just creates negative attitudes from the people, the work suffers, they begin to not give a shit and their entire attitude problem just makes it worse. If you want better results, then you show people how to get there, its that simple, and if they just don't get it, then you know where the limit is and you give the work accordingly. Overworking people just results in them getting less done because of the overload, the best places work with the employees, not just work them. Breathe, gently and deeply, use anything you want that works as a mental picture of bliss, and relax, above all, shake out the tension, relax your body, start at one end and go to the other end, relax.
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Post by Von on Sept 20, 2019 23:41:53 GMT 8
i am not well having some full-out anxiety/panic attac that by now is lasting more or less 12 hours and its becoming a pattern that i have them and that they last so long iknow its work fault. hellload of stress, everythings priority, whatever i do something ends up wrong and ill panic getting lightly reprimanded for it. already planning to leave after my contract runs out, go studying next year and change it all but i fear ill not make it there, the only thing keeping me going how i count down the weeks till its over really should get a therapie too, for anxiety, burnout, depression, whatever the core issue is bc this stopped being manageable Yep, breathe... use breath control, slow deep breaths, breath in through your mouth and exhale through your nose. Mental imagery, don't picture things going wrong, deal with that when it comes up, but picture the things as they should be right. Music that just sets a better mood, play it a lot, lots of music, music works for most anything. But don't dwell on things that might happen that cause you anxiety, just like counting down the weeks, use you thoughts to better see yourself in the near future, once the contract is up. And if you are going to leave, then all the negatives there really don't mean all that much, right? Just do your best and if that isn't good enough for them, then let them know that their brand of treatment is a big cause for things done wrong, they create the anxiety and that in turn creates the things they don't want. It isn't you, its them, if they think their actions will get better results, they're wrong, it simply isn't the way it works, you give people the things they will be able to do well and then its not a problem. Trying to force issues with negative attitudes just creates negative attitudes from the people, the work suffers, they begin to not give a shit and their entire attitude problem just makes it worse. If you want better results, then you show people how to get there, its that simple, and if they just don't get it, then you know where the limit is and you give the work accordingly. Overworking people just results in them getting less done because of the overload, the best places work with the employees, not just work them. Breathe, gently and deeply, use anything you want that works as a mental picture of bliss, and relax, above all, shake out the tension, relax your body, start at one end and go to the other end, relax. Yes, just breathe. Do the best you possibly can given the stress you're under. If you can only manage a 4 when you should be working at a 6, then that's what they get for working you so hard. Be the best you that you can be at that moment. That's all you can do, so feel good about that.
If you think therapy would help, try it out and see what it does for you. You might find some coping strategies for these kinds of things in the future.
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Post by Von on Oct 12, 2019 8:52:36 GMT 8
My little marks that I thought were bug bites from a few nights before have grown overnight into monsters. They were MASSIVELY itchy, hard lumps with a tinge of purple in and around them this morning. My BF caught a look at them last night before bed and this morning before he left for work and said I should probably see somebody about those. These are conveniently placed in the locations I've been injecting my T, but these are old sites coming up all at once. So I don't understand it. I showed a pic to my nurse online and described to her how big the biggest one got (peach pit sized and painful) and she said to go to the Express Clinic in the building to be seen pronto.
The guy checks me out pretty quick after my explanation and says he thinks it might be the carrier oil for my T I'm allergic to, but it's weird that I'm getting a late reaction. He says he's hooking me up with Prednisone for the weekend until my next shot to see if it clears up, and if it doesn't he's going on his second theory of infection.
My worry is if it IS an allergy, what am I gonna do for T? My insurance rejected all other forms except injectable. My buddy says that should spur them to reconsider other delivery methods, but I'm still worried. Also worried that it's not an allergy and I'm some kind of dirty weasel with multiple infections that could land me in the hospital, because I'm stupid and can't do my shots right.
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Post by Von on Oct 17, 2019 2:20:11 GMT 8
Bad news everyone! It is an allergy! As soon as I dropped my pants this afternoon for my doc and she got a look at my marks, she said, "Yeah, don't even do the shot today, or ever again, this isn't good for you. You need a different method. And it's going to be an uphill battle with insurance to get them to cover anything else. So no T until we can get something better." I'm really not happy. I know she'll try like a sonofagun to get me what I need, but I don't trust insurance to give up so easily.
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Post by Trinity on Oct 17, 2019 3:13:46 GMT 8
Bad news everyone! It is an allergy! As soon as I dropped my pants this afternoon for my doc and she got a look at my marks, she said, "Yeah, don't even do the shot today, or ever again, this isn't good for you. You need a different method. And it's going to be an uphill battle with insurance to get them to cover anything else. So no T until we can get something better." I'm really not happy. I know she'll try like a sonofagun to get me what I need, but I don't trust insurance to give up so easily. I've been paying cash for mine for years. Right now i use grant money for a discount from my caregiver. Its still a hundred for 2 vials but it used to be 320. No matter how desperate it was, hormones were and are a non negotiable. Hope you get approved. Fight the battle for them.
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Post by Maka on Nov 23, 2019 3:40:17 GMT 8
Mood swings are back, concentration loosens, starting to forget things again, usual ‘check up’ chore is the game player now, it helps a lot but at the expense. On the bright side, it’s not that bad, so far at least, just have to keep a close eye (or two) on me.
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Post by Ativan Prescribed on Nov 23, 2019 11:22:56 GMT 8
I kinda like when I have mood swings for little or no reason, tough to ride out some of it, but the intensity for me just means I'm paying more attention to myself and the world around me. Concentration is always a problem for me, except for the very thing I am doing at the moment, but everything else kinda disappears on me. I'm used to the mental checklist I have to run through everytime I come back from whatever it is I'm doing, even a movie on netflix can totally take me away, coming back sucks with those, it was fun to be in the movie, yah know? But at the same time, I can't help but to see the camera angles, the delivery of actors lines and moves, and the details that sometimes are glaringly odd to me, out of place stuff throws me. If I see in the details of the sets something that they used that has a total different function and they used it to make something look like whatever, like in spaceship sets, I recognize stuff that they used to get a look for a part of something. Things out of place in the time reference also is noticeable and kinda sucks when I see it, but overall... I get immersed in the storyline and its always a let down that the credits are rolling at the end. A series is the same way, especially the cliff hangers, and the next episode explains those oddities away so its like they wasted time just for that, so you'd stay interested? Seems like if it was just good enough, that would be enough. But yah, mood swings are a constant thing that the levels seem to be on the edge of too far and sometimes they are, and like a netflix movie, I have to let the credits roll...
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Post by charley83 on Nov 29, 2019 9:20:24 GMT 8
Not even sure where to start...... So there is this video going viral called center of gravity chair lift. Basically females have a cebter of gravity that allows then to lift a chair from a certain position and males can not do it at all. So a friend said thats not true because she saw men doing it in videos so my response was "have you taken into consideration transgender men?" Because yes they are men but they were female at birth. At this point I'm just trying to explain that its a possibility that is the reason some men can do it just like I'm sure some women can't do it because they might be transgender women. Now what really got me was her response.....
"Well they did the videos with thier girlfriends so I know they were really men"
There were a couple things wrong with that statement. 1) I guess trans men can't date women or if you have a girlfriend that's proof you are a "real man" 2) I think she's implying that trans men aren't really men.... 3) or maybe they can't be anything but a "real man" because they look like a real man and nothing on them look feminine.
I was done after her comment. I just turned off my facebook notification for that and shut my mouth. Its not worth the stress of trying to educate someone who wont even listen. Maybe next time she has something to say like that I will sick Ativan on her.
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Post by Ativan Prescribed on Nov 29, 2019 10:40:29 GMT 8
I'm under the impression that the video that are of people lifting the chair are in that group of most people. I can do it, and it's just making the rounds again because people have nothing to do and there is a rise in the number of flat earthers. I forget the reason why it is harder for most men and some women, and its not an exclusive thing. And cis binary have all sorts of misconceptions about trans and NB, or NB trans if you want. Again, there is a rise in the number of people who are flat earthers. I think the ability to lift the chair has something to do with chemtrails and climate change denial, also the number of people who think trump is their new god. There is no accounting for the number of people who see something and then decide it is true because they saw it, despite that the person next to them saw something different, and this is almost always true, people see what they want and also see it based on their experiences. This is why the entire thing about gender can only be one or the other and that can't be separated from sex is because that is what they see, never mind that one has nothing to do with the other. Cis binary simply can't see the world any other way, except that some of them can and there is that difference, they actually know someone who isn't gender is the same as sex person, trans or NB,, not only have they seen them, they know they are because they were told. But the rest of them see older women who are starting to look less feminine in their experience, so they suspect they might be transwomen, or if that person isn't blessed with good looks, then they for sure know based on their experience which is none. This is the exact same reason that people are flat earthers and think chemtrails are real, they can see that the earth is flat (how they see this is beyond me, like if I had a telescope could see the ten story building in Bismarck ND?), and they look up and can see those chemtrails that are contrails, and there is a simple reason why they aren't laced with mind altering drugs to subdue the world's population because the new world order of the Illuminati wants it that way (why, they can't explain, but them illuminati are a devious bunch, nobody knows one and nobody has seen one since they died out hundreds of years ago because they were boring) But based on people's experience, they can confirm whatever it was they saw, that duck they seem to think was a UFO and that means aliens for sure man, but they see a couple of vids on FB and they are now the authority on all kinds of things, because FB is the truth, at least it is to them, and there is the FE people who are on there as well, not to mention the chemtrail people, because that's why those are true no matter how you explain it to them, they see it on FB or Fux Noise and so it must be real and the truth, trump their new god has said so, everything else is fake news and fake anything that trump says it is because he is fake and can't think past the obvious reasons why he gets suckered into every conspiracy theory out there, like that president he hates because he's really from Africa, the continent that trump thinks is a country. But yah, born with a little peepee at birth and I can lift the chair, once you get it a couple inches up its easy, because not all men have a different center of gravity, and now there are those women who couldn't lift the chair and they don't dare say they can't because it proves they are men.
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Post by Ativan Prescribed on Nov 29, 2019 10:41:39 GMT 8
Sick Ativan on her...
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Post by Becky on Jan 23, 2020 0:17:15 GMT 8
Have you ever felt alone in a room full of people?
Yesterday was a full staff meeting that started with a lunch around a table. I tried speaking with individual people, and got short responses. I then watched while everyone chatted away, with me at a silent corner of the table. My social dysphoria, and my lifetime fear of not fitting in, hit me like a ton of bricks. It didn't help that an idea of mine got shot down by everyone later on. I'm still trying to lift myself back up today.
There are times where I can be positive about being a unicorn, but this isn't one of those times. I just want to find a trans person and ask for a hug. It's really hard to feel alone sometimes.
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Post by Trinity on Jan 23, 2020 0:42:16 GMT 8
Have you ever felt alone in a room full of people? Yesterday was a full staff meeting that started with a lunch around a table. I tried speaking with individual people, and got short responses. I then watched while everyone chatted away, with me at a silent corner of the table. My social dysphoria, and my lifetime fear of not fitting in, hit me like a ton of bricks. It didn't help that an idea of mine got shot down by everyone later on. I'm still trying to lift myself back up today. There are times where I can be positive about being a unicorn, but this isn't one of those times. I just want to find a trans person and ask for a hug. It's really hard to feel alone sometimes. HUG BIG ONE Know this feeling all too well. Thing thing about being a unicorn, is that you can do things with that spiral horn of ours. Not that I would condone spearing anyone with it, but... You are far more valuable than to be closed out like that, and way more talented, and your students love you.
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Post by Leena on Jan 23, 2020 4:08:18 GMT 8
Have you ever felt alone in a room full of people? Yesterday was a full staff meeting that started with a lunch around a table. I tried speaking with individual people, and got short responses. I then watched while everyone chatted away, with me at a silent corner of the table. My social dysphoria, and my lifetime fear of not fitting in, hit me like a ton of bricks. It didn't help that an idea of mine got shot down by everyone later on. I'm still trying to lift myself back up today. There are times where I can be positive about being a unicorn, but this isn't one of those times. I just want to find a trans person and ask for a hug. It's really hard to feel alone sometimes. *Hugs*
I pretty much always feel like this in a room full of people.
It bothers me less and less as I've gotten older. Maybe because I've had to attend many of these types of meetings in IT, and the one thing I am on the same page with the others there is that these types of meetings are usually pointless and a waste of time. For the technical people at least, the business people love meetings for whatever reason.
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Post by Becky on Jan 24, 2020 0:31:20 GMT 8
Thanks for the hugs, sisters! After a "struggle bus" morning, I had a really helpful chat with a female colleague. She basically affirmed that our male colleagues are aggressive and often contrary, and that our department needs greater diversity.
Of course, she said "Most of our male colleagues," because she felt that I was different than the rest. LOL!!!! If she only knew.
Y'all are awesome, and I love the support. I'm a lucky girl! <3
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Post by ceremony on Jan 24, 2020 6:32:21 GMT 8
Have you ever felt alone in a room full of people? Yesterday was a full staff meeting that started with a lunch around a table. I tried speaking with individual people, and got short responses. I then watched while everyone chatted away, with me at a silent corner of the table. My social dysphoria, and my lifetime fear of not fitting in, hit me like a ton of bricks. It didn't help that an idea of mine got shot down by everyone later on. I'm still trying to lift myself back up today. There are times where I can be positive about being a unicorn, but this isn't one of those times. I just want to find a trans person and ask for a hug. It's really hard to feel alone sometimes. I am a very good person to safely hug. I am giving a loving and accepting virtual hug of support. (((((((((Becky)))))))))
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