Post by Deleted on May 25, 2015 1:08:42 GMT 8
Trinity,
If you could go out presented as female without consequences, what about going to a different city?
In a manga, two transgender individuals went to another city an hour away from their hometown, where they knew no-one and no-one knew them. They dressed up as their true selves for the day, having a break from having to conform in their lives back at home.
Might be unrealistic given your circumstances of having to look after the family, though. Thought it would be worth suggesting, even if in poor taste.
well screw that. both my male and female self dress very similar as my female self is super tomboy other than the make up and even the male side of me likes the make up so idk i guess im a bit androgynous. but honestly you can present to me however the hell you want and i wouldn't care. to me, it's about what YOU are comfortable with not me. and if everyone else has a problem it's definitely theirs and not yours or mine. i think you're pretty great. i'd hang out with you.
And that's true, always do what makes you comfortable. I'd hang out with all of you!
I have done full female at AA. It was great, temporary, and satisfied what I needed. In that moment.
There are specific triggers doing this with me. It all comes down to being free to be fully fluid.
I also have done full female once, with Patty. Then went out with her as me genderqueer. Very genderqueer.
I just need to take h'er out to dinner once in a while in a nice evening dress, or out in the summer.
Last night in an act of great rebellion I was on the porch next to the pool and unbuttoned my shirt. The bra I was in looks like a swim top.
Felt great, releived dysphoria just to look down.
Its all about freedom. Self expressing freedom in the moment.
This morning, I had the opportunity to be truly me, with my wife. All morning, and I wont say how far I pushed that with her. I got the attention I wanted though, believe me.
Its only a matter of time before it all gets to where it must be. The place that all comfort levels meet and embrace.
Thanks dear for the chat here.
More later. Just doubled my download speed, got a router.
Back to work, as he... outside at home. Just aware that its also, just a component, needing to be expressed when he wants to as well.
Dance the gender dance, nonlinear style, fully present....