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Post by Deleted on Jan 28, 2015 1:26:08 GMT 8
From strength to strength Trinity, sj, Satinjoy. The inner eye sees what is really there, I look through it often myself. I understand the sacrifice for shalom bayit, but if you can take some small comfort in this: the fairy still lives in my world, no matter how anyone sees h'er hugs, -ellie Wow what an entrance Blessings my dear
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Post by Ayla on Jan 28, 2015 23:03:27 GMT 8
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My heart bleeds for you and for all trans. We do what we must in order to survive and to grow. We know your truth and we know our truth. You are much admired, loved and respected. Be well my friend.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 28, 2015 23:37:38 GMT 8
The boundaries are reset and the cement of the marriage will be stronger for it, and I will too.
Much growth has already come from this.
Just going through the emotional side. What is it, anger, denial, negotiating, acceptance and maybe some sadness?
But I am good, I am fluid and it's going to be fine now.
Thanks to this forum, a he'll of a shrink, and aa.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 29, 2015 5:04:01 GMT 8
TSJ My heart bleeds for you and for all trans. We do what we must in order to survive and to grow. We know your truth and we know our truth. You are much admired, loved and respected. Be well my friend. Safe travels Aisla Words of true wisdom from Aisla. I know what I had to do. But we are all on different paths with different likes and sometimes life deals you a card that looks bad but in fact is the ultimate card for your happiness. Just one thought and this is just me and no one else. Sometimes our fear of the worst outcome is our greatest blessing and sometimes what we think is a blessing is a nightmare.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 29, 2015 6:55:39 GMT 8
TSJ My heart bleeds for you and for all trans. We do what we must in order to survive and to grow. We know your truth and we know our truth. You are much admired, loved and respected. Be well my friend. Safe travels Aisla Words of true wisdom from Aisla. I know what I had to do. But we are all on different paths with different likes and sometimes life deals you a card that looks bad but in fact is the ultimate card for your happiness. Just one thought and this is just me and no one else. Sometimes our fear of the worst outcome is our greatest blessing and sometimes what we think is a blessing is a nightmare. You just nailed it Jamie. or I think you said your pronoun is now bitch? Awww. Knowing the truth, having final boundaries that cannot be pushed, means that its give up fighting or leave. I am not going to leave, so I will give up fighting. Which sets me totally free of the pain... how about that? Because if I cant push for more, and let it go, I am going to enjoy the gift that is given to me, and they are really big gifts! After all, I am nonbinary and fluid. Where its set now, absolutely can work if we let it work. And the stress will drop now. There is depression over not being able to fully transition around her, sure, but its nothing like loneliness, and hey, if I ask her, I can transition in my study or bedroom and she gives me the time I need to go .... aaahhhhh...... whew..... relax...... which is how I feel full transition. No, I have more than so many, and am a bit childish for how I have handled this, and feel quite embarrassed and ashamed. But trans is big, so I guess forgiveness and grace must be bigger, hearts bigger, courage bigger, compromises bigger. Rise above my dear ones of trans..... Diamond cores will shine.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 29, 2015 7:33:14 GMT 8
Words of true wisdom from Aisla. I know what I had to do. But we are all on different paths with different likes and sometimes life deals you a card that looks bad but in fact is the ultimate card for your happiness. Just one thought and this is just me and no one else. Sometimes our fear of the worst outcome is our greatest blessing and sometimes what we think is a blessing is a nightmare. You just nailed it Jamie. or I think you said your pronoun is now bitch? Awww. Knowing the truth, having final boundaries that cannot be pushed, means that its give up fighting or leave. I am not going to leave, so I will give up fighting. Which sets me totally free of the pain... how about that? Because if I cant push for more, and let it go, I am going to enjoy the gift that is given to me, and they are really big gifts! After all, I am nonbinary and fluid. Where its set now, absolutely can work if we let it work. And the stress will drop now. There is depression over not being able to fully transition around her, sure, but its nothing like loneliness, and hey, if I ask her, I can transition in my study or bedroom and she gives me the time I need to go .... aaahhhhh...... whew..... relax...... which is how I feel full transition. No, I have more than so many, and am a bit childish for how I have handled this, and feel quite embarrassed and ashamed. But trans is big, so I guess forgiveness and grace must be bigger, hearts bigger, courage bigger, compromises bigger. Rise above my dear ones of trans..... Diamond cores will shine. Oh yeah, my pronoun is "Bitch" with a capital "B". Don't say "AWWWW". We have our boundries Trinity. To quote Lzzy Hale, " You call me a bitch like it's a b-b-b-bad thing." I push. I push hard. I have always pushed hard. I don't care. I lost my wife. I lost a lot in my life and have found other things. I have lost me for four years and then found me and the wife though she found the "perfect guy" but she didn't. She found the perfect "she male" ( I say this word with the utmost respect because first and foremost mentally I am a she and physically a he). So sorry if it is derogatory to anyone. Life changes sweetie. Sometimes we have to roll with it. Sometimes we have to leave the past in the past. I live in the now. Screw tomorrow. If I'm not here in a weak at least greive for me, say a little prayer or have a drink on me. Yesterday is gone. Fuzzy loves you no matter what. Count your lucky stars. I have no children and can't but I ... Yeah it hurts more than you will ever know. But I'm still here. Alone????? Kind of sort of. With a BF??? kind of sort of.... But I can be a female. Shaved legs, long hair, peirced ears makeup and all. Even with the father that I am taking care of due to dementia. No one asks and I ask no one for their approval. I approve of me. If my dad doesn't approve of me and my BF sleeping together then he can go to a retirement home. It sounds fucked up (pardon my american) but I live my own life and whoever don't want to be a part of that, then gracefully ( only a transowman would say "gracefully" ) bow out. Oh I will still take care of him but one big rule is to never bite the hand that feeds you or takes care of you. I'm not rally this mean but.... It is my life and I will live it the way I see fit and who don't like it can kiss it. I want, no I deserve to be happy or trying to be happy. Whatever makes you happy though Trinity. That is the name of the game.
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